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A day late and a dollar short, but here nonetheless… facing the facts. Where am I now compared to where I was at the beginning of this month?

In the Self position, I drew the Wheel of Fortune, a reminder that life is ever changing and that I must learn to roll with the punches, taking the good and the bad with equal stride.  I’d say the energy of this card has been well reflected in my recent rambles, particularly about feeling disconnected and like time is slipping through my fingers.  In fact, in my last post, I said I felt like the world is melting around me and that I feel vulnerable.  So much is changing.  Not long ago I wrote about how I feel a complete transformation taking place… awareness of my kids growing up, new relationships, potential move, dreams of my magick shoppe… nothing fully manifested, yet manifestation is in progress.  I try to consciously navigate through my life, but every once in a while I feel caught up in a whirlwind – and now is one of those times, so this card’s presence in this month’s reading is incredibly accurate and taking place right now in the present.

Card two, Situation, painted the perfect picture of who I’ve been this month.  ““The Queen of Coins is endowed with enormous good sense and problem-solving energy, but she is not entrepreneurial. She loves to advise, encourage, and empower those she gets involved with, studying their problems with them and setting them up to solve it. Traditionally she is the Sibyl or Oracle, perhaps a Tarot reader, who made herself available to people in need, no matter what social class or situation they came from. In modern times, she will be found educating, healing, managing disaster aid programs and handling the money from a charity drive.
In every case, she does not see the benefits that exist in her life as belonging solely to her. She feels the needs of “her people” and will spend freely of her time, energy, skills, money to see that nobody is abandoned. For this, and because she likes to work in an atmosphere of beauty, enjoyment, and abundance, she is sometimes accused of being profligate. But she works hard, and she sees no reason to deny the rewards of a job well done! Everyone who comes in contact with her feels enriched by her obvious enjoyment in living.”

When not working as a waitress, I’ve been filling in my off time by doing Tarot readings for others- and I’ve done several this month.  On the same token (no punn intended), I’ve been thinking a lot about the fact that I really don’t want to be a waitress, but would much rather open my own magick shoppe, write the articles I know want me to write them, do tarot readings, and be true to who I am.  Yet, I’m scared of business – of what I don’t know, because as this card accurately described, I am not an entrepeneur.  I’m good at certain things, but I also am well aware of where I fall short, particularly when it comes to managing a business.  Yet, this card tells me its time to get into action… to work at manifesting what I need – so again, I believe this card is still currently in play, not something that waned during the first two weeks of the month.

Card three, Challenge, is one I believe has not fully manifested yet.  It does speak of all the change, and it does account for all the energy I know I’ve been puting “out there”, but I’ve not yet hit the point where I’m feeling the returns.  Here’s what the card said, in part:

“Long labor produces what appears to others to be an effortless result. The price of success is continued exertion.
The Eight of Wands in this position is testing how well you anticipated the tremendous results you are getting from your efforts. When you put yourself in harmony with natural forces, you are furthered by their energetically supportive response. This card, sometimes named “The Garden,” suggests the kind of long labor that bears, at the end of the season, what appears to be a natural cornucopia. The point is that your ambitious vision and devoted labors may give you even better results than you dared dream. Now you have more decisions to make, more details to secure, more work to accomplish — but that is the price of success.

General Meaning: “The Eight of Wands often shows a flight of spears or staffs moving through the air in formation, as if a hidden group of archers had let fly all at once. The title of the card will often echo the idea of swiftly unfolding events, whether of intentional design or unpremeditated. There are also versions which emphasize the agricultural cycle, paralleling the yearly crop cycle with the swift growth of children into adults with children of their own. In each case, the emphasis is on the necessity of change and the challenge of keeping up with it. With the turning of the seasons we are constantly being plunged into precipitous change, and there is no remedy but to live with that in mind. Speed up! Get Busy! Do it now! There is no time to waste!”

It’s out there… it just hasn’t returned.  I’m sure that will be showing up in the next two weeks, especially since I’m due to find out what’s going on with my housing situation, and since I have an interview at work on Monday to be considered for promotion to  trainer.

Card 4, Foundation, pointed to an ability to draw to me the support that I need in my endeavors, and I’m finding that to be very much true. Particularly through my tarot readings, I’m having opportunities to meet people I wouldn’t have otherwise met – and some of them have inspired me into action and enlightenment as much as my readings have done for them.  I can see a support network manifesting, although it’s still in its infancy.

Card Five, recent past, spoke of the fool, and I know exactly what it meant and where it applied.  For too big of a chunk of my life, I was willing to blind myself to certain truths and willingly swallow down lies. I would justify certain things or allow certain excuses because I didn’t want to see the reality of the situation, even though others tried to caution me.  Lesson learned… an expensive lesson, but lesson learned.  And yes… I did feel very much the fool.

Card six, higher power, asked me to reserve judgment – and that, I have (although I just pulled an internal trigger by realizing I’ve pulled the Judgment card twice so far this month!).  Perhaps that reserve is why I’ve been resisting the advice of position ten, the two of cups, suggesting that I express my feelings.  I’m still in that “do nothing” phase… and comfortably so. Okay, that’s a lie… it’s not comfortably so.  But safely so, just the same.

Position 7, near future, suggested that something of great value would be given to me.  I do feel I’ve already received several things of great value, although not necessarily monetarily. Yet, instinctively, I know that’s not what this card was pointing to, and I believe it hasn’t yet manifested.  It’ll be interesting to see what unfolds in the next two weeks.

Card 8, blocks and inhibitions, cautions me against placing blame, and encourages me to take responsibility for my part in things. I have, to a degree, which is still lingering in feeling the fool – I know I played my role in creating consequence – and I really don’t have much of a victim mentality.  However, I can see where instead of just bucking up and buckling down, I’ve had a tendency to get pissy… especially with the Universe.  Hell, i can’t remember if it was this month or last where I threatened to have an all out temper tantrum if the universe didn’t cut me some slack. *smirks* – I’ll continue pondering this one.

Card 9 in the Friends and Alies position showed Death… and I think I understand it.  Someone I thought of as my best friend has been completely cut out of my life… gone.  I said to someone just the other day, “I don’t have friends… and that’s on purpose.  I’m not good at being a friend, and I’m apparently not very good at choosing them, so it’s easier for me, especially with my schedule, just to be solitary.”  I think the card in this position meant that I should see this proverbial death as my friend rather than the enemy.  The Grim Reaper has come a calling – but only to strip away the parts of me that were inauthentic and needed to die off anyway.  It’s a shedding of skin, one that’s necessary, so I can emerge from the situation as a whole being – and one of truth.

Two of Cups in the Advice position is the one I’ve been struggling with so much this month.  I’ve got a foot on each side of the border and I’m just not sure which direction I’m supposed to go.  I’m in no way confused over what I feel… but I’m completely inside out and up-side-down over what I’m supposed to do about what I feel, and whether or not its appropriate to talk about it.  I cheated a little bit, tried to take the easy way out and shared the tarot reading (specifically this card)… but have been unable to vocalize anything… I am happy with how things are and don’t want to damage them by going all girly emotional.  I think I’m waiting to be invited… and until I’m invited to share what I feel, I’m inclined to keep it to myself – although I’m sure it’s no secret.

Long term potential for July showed me the Hermit, and that makes absolute perfect sense to me. In fact, I relate so well to this card that I once wrote a poem about him called The Hermit’s Cave. I’ve been The Hermit for quite some time… and I don’t foresee that changing.  I think that’s reflected all throughout this blog.

So, I can see what’s currently in play, I can easily admit to what’s already taken place, and I’m aware of what’s still to transpire over the next few weeks.

To sum it up in song, this is where I am in the middle of July:


Jack Johnson

I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
All the people in the street
Walk as fast as their feet can take them
I just roll through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame I’m looking through
Seems to have no concern for now
So for now

I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown

This engine screams out loud
Centipede gonna crawl westbound
So I don’t even make a sound
Cause it’s gonna sting me when I leave this town
All the people in the street
That I’ll never get to meet
If these tracks don’t bend somehow
And I got no time
That I got to get to
Where I don’t need to be
So I

I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now
Let me break on down

But you cant stop nothing
If you got no control
Of the thoughts in your mind
That you kept in, you know
You don’t know nothing
But you don’t need to know
The wisdoms in the trees
Not the glass windows
You cant stop wishing
If you don’t let go
But things that you find
And you lose, and you know
You keep on rolling
Put the moment on hold
The frames too bright
So put the blinds down low

I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now

(Lyrics Source)

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With the exception of the court cards and some of the major arcana cards, each of the suit cards has numbers on them, ranging from 2-9, with  the ace being 1. Understanding the meaning of the numbers is a major part of interpreting Tarot, at least for me.

I can’t even reference sources here because I don’t remember where I learned some of the information I have, or which parts of it just came intuitively/instinctively.  Other people may have other ways of interpreting the numbers, but here’s what seems to be appropriate and accurate according to my own methods of reading Tarot.

Of course, the suit of the card is as relavent as the number, as is the position of the card in the spread, whether or not the card is reversed, and the other cards that come up in a reading along with it.  However, having learned the suits and their correspondences, understanding the numbers was the next natural step in how I learned to read Tarot.

Twos: The twos signify duality, multiple options, or indecisiveness. It’s about choices and choosing the path that’s right for you.  I’ve also learned that twos indicate that good things are coming to you, but not as soon as you might think or like.  It’s a “waiting” period… as if life is waiting for you to make the right choice so it can deliver its rewards.

Threes: Threes deal in the realm of communication and in group activities – and by group, I mean three or more.  The threes generally encourage a bit more on the social engagements and ironing out any wrinkles you may be experiencing in the way you communicate, or the way you allow (or don’t allow) others to communicate.

Fours: When I look at a four, I see a huge goal post.  The quarrent’s job (the person receiving the reading), is to kick the ball through the goal post.  The foundation is so solid here, and the platform so vast, that you could kick the ball in any direction and/or speed and still make the goal.  The fours signify a solid foundation and plenty of room to accomplish what’s being asked.  This isn’t always clear to the quarrent, of course, such as in the case of the 4 of cups where the quarrent has slipped into a bit of self-pity or self focus, but that’s the beauty of Tarot… realizing that even though things “feel” one way, the deeper truths may reveal something much more positive.

Fives: When I look at a five, I see a little tiny stick figure with a big, round belly, and a cap over the top.  The skinny stick figure represents, to me, a form of spiritual anorexia or spiritual dehydration.  The big round belly signifies attempts to fill that hunger with outside sources or material objects – thinking those things will make us happy.  The cap over the top of the five shows that the quarrent (person receiving the reading) has closed themselves off to higher knowledge, greater power, or Universal Wisdom.  Fives tell us that we need to stop trying to fill our inner void with outer influences and get back in touch with our spiritual selves.  We need soul food when we see the fives.

Sixes:  When I look at a six, I see a round circle and an arm extending beyond that circle.  The circle, to me, represents the physical realm, the earthly plane, or, to put it more simply, the world.  The arm extending beyond that circle is the quarrent’s ability to reach beyond the obvious, beyond the illusions of restrictions in this realm, and tap into a more universal “magick”.  Sixes, in one manner of speaking, represent pulling the self up by the bootstraps, using a strength and energy obtained from the heavens.

Sevens: The sevens remind me a bit of the fives, but in a more elevated or evolved position.  When I see a seven, I see a stick figure (like I did in the fives), and the cap over the top (also as with fives), but the sevens have learned not to try to fill the spiritual void with outside influences or material objects.  The sevens understand that what they need is soul food, and they’re looking for that higher wisdom.  If I could summarize the sevens in two words, I’d describe them as “spiritual reflection”.  They realize that what they’ve been doing has not been spiritually gratifying and they’re looking for their own higher purpose.

Eights: Eights are magickal… they encompass everything positive and negative, light and dark, good and bad.  When we see the eights, we begin to realize that we can take what seems like a bad situation and extract something good from it.  I call these kinds of experiences beautiful gifts wrapped in ugly paper.  It’s the “when life hands you lemons, make lemonade” number.  Eights represent power, transformation, and the quarrent’s ability to transform using the power and knowledge they’ve gained from their experiences so far. Eights are the “ah ha!” number.  They represent the trigger for the solution to the problem.

Nines: Nines represent the end of one cycle, and the preparation to begin a new cycle.  The way I often describe nines is like reading the final chapter of a book.  You’ve not finished the book all the way yet, haven’t come to the “conclusion” – but you’re incredibly close.  Because you’re not finished reading the book in hand, you’re not quite ready to begin a new one… but because you’re so close to the end of this book, you’re aware that you’ll be beginning a new one soon.  It’s the paradox of ending and beginning at the same time… wrapping up loose ends, finishing up what needs to be finished so you can begin anew.


Again, some people may have other understandings of the numbers in Tarot, and I’m sure that as I continue to study and learn, I’ll be adapting some of my own understandings.  I just felt it was time to put my current understanding in tangible form.  And by all means, if you have information or knowledge you can share, I’m completely open to discussion.  Whether you agree or disagree with my understanding, I welcome feedback.



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One of the first things I learned about Tarot is that there really is no right or wrong way to learn or to interpret the cards, providing good morals and sound judgment are always in tact.  In this post, I’m speaking most specifically about the suits of Tarot and their corresponences.

When I first began learning, one of the easiest things for me to pick up was that each suit corresponded to an element, and a direction.  Here’s how I originally learned it, and how I’ve explained it to others many times:

Wands: Air – the realm of thought, insights, ideas, communication, new beginnings, or “seeds”
Cups: Water – the realm of feeling and emotion, of planning and of spirituality, psychic endeavors
Swords: Fire – the realm of action, doing, transforming
Pentacles: Earth – the completion of things, seeing something to the end, bringing home the “prize”, monetary gain, earthly matters, employment, physical events.

The story I told with it, to help piece the puzzle together went like this:

Let’s say you suddenly become AWARE that you’re thirsty. That’s wands – the idea or awareness. You don’t like FEELING thirsty, so you create a PLAN to get a drink. That’s cups – the feeling and planning. Next, you get up from your seat, walk into the kitchen, pour a glass of water, and drink it down. That’s Swords – action, transformation. Once you set the glass down and determine you’re no longer thirtsty, that’s Pentacles, the completion of the process.

Now, that way of understanding the suits and their correspondences has always been easy for me. However, over the past few years, I’ve come across several (I mean lots!) of sources that reverse the wands and swords… making wands the element of fire and transformation, and swords being the element of air and realm of thought. Until now, I’ve decided to just accept my way for what it was because it made sense to me, and because it was chronological in my head… wands, cups, swords, pentacles = idea, plan, action, completion. But in working out my magickal compass and referencing other sources, I see where I may be missing a link… and that’s with the seasons. In order to keep everything well tied together, organized in my own head, and easily referenced, I think it may be time I change my understanding of the cards, their suits, and their corresponding elements and seasons.

The way I’ve seen it referenced so many other times is like this:

Element: Fire
Direction: South
Season: Spring
Energy: communications, thoughts, ideas, or the “spark” that gets a process going.

Element: Water
Direction: West
Season: Summer
Energy: feeling, emotion, planning, spirituality

Element: Air
Season: Autumn
Direction: East
Energy: action, movement,

Element: Earth
Season: Winter
Direction: North
Energy: money, property, physical realm, completion

Actually, the story I tell doesn’t need to change, it still fits. Wands is the spark of the idea (fire), cups is still the planning phase (water), swords is still the action (air), and cups is still the completion. All I need to adjust in my own understanding is the elements that correspond with each suit. Everything else is the same, even my understanding of the seasons.

So why is it important to understand the seasons, elements, and directions in relation to Tarot?

Let’s say you wanted to ask a WHEN question… when am I likely to get pregnant? When am I likely to get a new job? When am I likely to move? When am I likely to fall in love? While you might not get something as specific as “Next Tuesday”, you may be able to narrow it down to a season… spring, summer, autumn, or winter.

Knowing the directions can help determine location of a thing, or of a move. Knight of Pentacles, for example, may show a move to the North whereas a Knight of Wands would indicate a move to the South.

Does changing my understanding now mean that all the readings I’ve done in the past have been wrong? Nope… and that’s the beauty of it. As long as you stick to one method, that method is accurate for the readings you’re doing. If you decide to change your method, then that change has to “stick” and all readings from that point forward correspond with the changed understanding.

So, from this point forward, wands are fire (for me), and swords are air (for me). It’s easier for me to align them with the seasons and elements since that’s the way I most often see them referenced. By changing my understanding of it now, I can eliminate some of the confusion I feel when I reference other sources and see those suits reversed.

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There’s a hell of a lot I could say in response to the reading I’m posting below, it was powerful and has struck on many levels… but I’m going to take the advice of position number six and reserve judgment.  I’ll sleep on this, think it through, re-read it a few times, and then later in the month may share my thoughts and opinions.  For now, I’m keeping it internalized.

Not sure how this is going to come out in regard to format… if it’s messed up, I’ll come back and correct later.  As for now, it’s past my bed-time and this reading has blown my mind, so I’m calling it a day.



Date And Time: Monday, June 30, 2008 at 11:11:38 PM,

question: Based on current energies and influences, what is the likely projection for July 2008?”

Deck: Rider-Waite
Spread: Celtic Cross

Position 1: Self
Card: The Wheel of Fortune

“Accept that the wheel continues to turn and that you have no choice but to adapt to its movement.
The Wheel of Fortune in this position indicates that your mind or your heart just won’t keep still. It keeps churning up new developments or issues that you thought were resolved. This is the nature of The Wheel of Fortune which never ceases to turn. You probably feel like you want to get off life’s ferris wheel once in a while, but there is only one good way to do that — take refuge in the hub, the center from which all the motion is emanating. Much as you might like to, there is no way to stay on top all the time. Your ultimate challenge is to learn to peak and drop without resisting the process, including all its ups and downs.
General Meaning: “A central concept of this card from its most ancient form to the present is Change. The Wheel will keep on rolling, churning events in a ceaseless progression of ups and downs. No one can escape its action, which feels good when we are rising and terrifying when we are falling. The figure balanced on the top has a moment of eternal clarity, but the only unmoving part of the Wheel is the hub, whereit pivots on the crossbar that holds it up.
Whether it is moved by the action of the Angel of Time, a disembodied Hand of Fate turning a crank, or the natural law of eternal return, we are each bound to occupy all the roles at one point or another on life’s journey. The predictability of the Wheel is its lesson, and that’s something we can take comfort in. If you don’t like the look of things right now, just wait a bit — it’s bound to change. Of course, if you do like the look of things right now, enjoy it while it lasts, because that’s bound to change too!
Position Meaning: “The Self position gives a reflection of you, the one shuffling the cards. So, consider your inner experience, your own perspective, as you mull over the issues you bring to this reading.
Publisher Notes: Divinatory meanings: Destiny, fortune, success, luck, felicity.
Reversed meanings: Increase, abundance, superfluity.

Position 2: Situation
Card: Queen of Coins

“You have it in you to see what needs to be done. Now it’s time to get organized and use your skills as a manager.
When the Queen of Coins is in this position, you are being called upon to help steer the collective enterprise. Call up the manager within you or procure the assistance of someone who is a natural manager. Perceive what needs to be done, in what order it should be administered and with what amount of support or staff. It’s time to be organized and be energetic about it. This effort will not only benefit you personally, but just as importantly, it will support the well being of those you are involved with.
General Meaning: “The Queen of Coins is endowed with enormous good sense and problem-solving energy, but she is not entrepreneurial. She loves to advise, encourage, and empower those she gets involved with, studying their problems with them and setting them up to solve it. Traditionally she is the Sibyl or Oracle, perhaps a Tarot reader, who made herself available to people in need, no matter what social class or situation they came from. In modern times, she will be found educating, healing, managing disaster aid programs and handling the money from a charity drive.
In every case, she does not see the benefits that exist in her life as belonging solely to her. She feels the needs of “her people” and will spend freely of her time, energy, skills, money to see that nobody is abandoned. For this, and because she likes to work in an atmosphere of beauty, enjoyment, and abundance, she is sometimes accused of being profligate. But she works hard, and she sees no reason to deny the rewards of a job well done! Everyone who comes in contact with her feels enriched by her obvious enjoyment in living.
Position Meaning: The Situation position provides the context for the question, the set and setting, what is going on relative to your concern. It reflects the issues, people, and forces shaping your environment and circumstance. Another title for this card could be “The Fixed Givens” — that which is true from the start.
Publisher Notes: The face suggests that of a dark woman, whose qualities might be summed up in the idea of greatness of soul; she has also the serious cast of intelligence; she contemplates her symbol and may see worlds therein.
Divinatory meanings: Opulence, generosity, magnificence, security, liberty.
Reversed meanings: Evil, suspicion, suspense, fear, mistrust.

Position 3: Challenges
Card: Eight of Wands

Long labor produces what appears to others to be an effortless result. The price of success is continued exertion.
The Eight of Wands in this position is testing how well you anticipated the tremendous results you are getting from your efforts. When you put yourself in harmony with natural forces, you are furthered by their energetically supportive response. This card, sometimes named “The Garden,” suggests the kind of long labor that bears, at the end of the season, what appears to be a natural cornucopia. The point is that your ambitious vision and devoted labors may give you even better results than you dared dream. Now you have more decisions to make, more details to secure, more work to accomplish — but that is the price of success.
General Meaning: “The Eight of Wands often shows a flight of spears or staffs moving through the air in formation, as if a hidden group of archers had let fly all at once. The title of the card will often echo the idea of swiftly unfolding events, whether of intentional design or unpremeditated. There are also versions which emphasize the agricultural cycle, paralleling the yearly crop cycle with the swift growth of children into adults with children of their own.
In each case, the emphasis is on the necessity of change and the challenge of keeping up with it. With the turning of the seasons we are constantly being plunged into precipitous change, and there is no remedy but to live with that in mind. Speed up! Get Busy! Do it now! There is no time to waste!
Position Meaning: “The Challenge and Opportunities position reflects the cutting edge in the situation, the learning curve whereby you can turn adversity into accomplishment using creativity and a skillful attitude. This position tells you how to get the best out of this situation.
Publisher Notes: “The card represents motion through the immovable — a flight of wands through an open country.
Divinatory meanings: Activity in undertakings, the path of such activity, swiftness, as that of an express messenger; great haste, great hope, speed towards an end which promises assured felicity; generally, that which is on the move; also the arrows of love.
Reversed meanings: Arrows of jealousy, internal dispute, stingings of conscience, quarrels.

Position 4: Foundation
Card: Three of Cups

You have an innate ability to draw people who willingly become part of your group.
The Three of Cups in this position suggests that in your background, you were imprinted with an unerring compass that helps you find the most loving, supportive and nurturing people in every environment you enter. Your magnetism attracts like-minded souls who know how to harmonize, cooperate and mutually support each other. When you locate these people, you begin to bond with them and become like a family. This regular feature in the cycles of your life is a remarkable blessing! It makes you a truly valued and cherished part of every team you become involved with. It’s time once again to look around for sympathetic souls you can join with in this situation.
General Meaning: “The Three of Cups, often called “consent,” or simply “yes,” this card appears with a spirit of agreement, mutual support, encouragement, and teamwork. Regularly pictured as three women celebrating their connectedness in a dance with lifted cups, it can be called “sisterhood,” a mutual admiration society. It represents all the benefits of harmonious relationships.
Position Meaning: The Foundation position points to influences from your personal history, your roots and background — factors which are important for you to reconnect with or examine. This is the storehouse of memory — from your own experience as well as collective knowledge which you have inherited.
Publisher Notes: Maidens in a garden ground with cups uplifted, as if pledging one another.
Divinatory meanings: The conclusion of any matter in plenty, perfection and merriment; happy issue, victory, fulfillment, solace, healing.
Reversed meanings: Expedition, dispatch, achievement, end.

Position 5: Recent Past
Card: The Fool

An experience of the Fool can be a valuable wake-up call.
With the Fool in this position, you have had an encounter with destiny. It proved to you in no uncertain terms that your concept of what’s going on is off center. When you have an episode with the Fool, the reality that seemed so substantial and compelling a moment ago is suddenly revealed as threadbare and frivolous. This motley clad jester questions the very foundations of life. These experiences are brisk and bracing and put things in perspective. Be grateful if the Fool has visited your neighborhood and cast his comedic and piercing eye into your life. Distortions get reduced to size and the real issues are revealed.
General Meaning: The classical renditions of the Fool portray a person who is basically ignorant, driven by base needs and urges, fallen into the lowest tate of poverty and deprivation. At best he is a carnival entertainer, most likely a scam-artist; at worst, depraved and vulnerable because of his self-delusion. Not until the 20th century do you see the Waite image, that of the Soul before its Fall into Matter, untainted by contact with “the city” and its ills.
Modern decks borrow from the Waite image the mountainside scene, the butterfly, the potential misplaced step that will send him tumbling, all on faith that this is a historical Fool image. In truth, the Fool Arcanum originally represented already-fallen humanity, utterly identified with materiality, getting ready to seek the first step towards self-knowledge, and eventually, The Gnosis.
Position Meaning: The Recent Past position refers to events that are just departing, influential recently but now diminishing in power. Like it or not, they cannot be changed or deleted. Often what appears here is the precipitating event or realization that brought you to the situation you are seeking guidance about.

Publisher Notes: Divinatory meanings: Folly, mania, extravagance, intoxication, delirium, frenzy, bewrayment.
Reversed meanings: Negligence, absence, distribution, carelessness, apathy, nullity, vanity.

Position 6: Higher Power
Card: Two of Coins

Reserve judgment; give yourself enough time to do some important processing.
When the Two of Coins comes up in this position, the best thing you can do right now is nothing. Even if you think you know what needs to happen, give the situation time to percolate until you can achieve a better understanding of what is happening. Your Higher Power is asking you to reserve judgment, be open to all the possibilities and examine the directions that you might go from here. This is not a critique of your goal or plan; it is an invitation to step back and see all the different ways in which your plan could be realized — before you commit to and focus on a final strategy.
General Meaning: The Two of Coins generally features a youth juggling, with two coins flying about him in figure-eight fashion, or just the coins without the youth, one shown heads up, the other tails up, both still flipping in the air. It is clear that until one or the other coin drops, the final call can not be made; there is more to learn before a decision can be made about appropriate action.
This card counsels patience, so do not allow circumstances to hustle you. The figure-eight image is called a lemniscate, and is a symbol of immortality and eternity. It says “No need to hurry. You have all the time you need to work this out, no matter how things appear right now.” Implied within this scenario is the idea that changes are in the works, but you will do better to stay calm until you have more information. Everything is in flux.
Position Meaning: The Higher Power position points to the influence of your better nature, your conscience, Oversoul, Guardian Angel, inner wisdom. This card is trying to trying to stimulate a broader perspective on your current adventures, by referring to the spiritual — or karmic — side of things.
Publisher Notes: A young man in the act of dancing has a pentacle in either hand, and they are joined by that endless cord which is like the number 8 reversed.
Divinatory meanings: On the one hand it is represented as a card of gaiety, recreation and its connections, which is the subject of the design; but it is read also as news and messages in writing, as obstacles, agitation, trouble, embroilment.
Reversed meanings: Enforced gaiety, simulated enjoyment, literal sense, handwriting, composition, letters of exchange.

Position 7: Near Future
Card: Four of Coins

Humbly seek out the most trustworthy advisors and allies you can find.
The Four of Coins in this position suggests that something of great value will soon be given to you. This situation points to the classic dilemma of an heir whose wealthy parents die before he or she is fully mature. Sometimes no will or sensible handlers can save such an heir from making bad investments and stupid mistakes. Although it may feel awkward, your best bet is to be humble and seek out the most trustworthy advisors and allies you can find. Let them tutor you so you can prepare yourself for this advantage when it comes.
General Meaning: The Four of Coins has been used to express the paradoxical aspect of material security, the two-edged reality that results when you have been well supported and protected. It all sounds idyllic until one investigates the level of demand that prosperity places upon people — the pressure of big decisions, responsibilities toward dependents or employees, even tougher decisions in times of instability.
An immature person thrust into such a position would lack the perspective to sensibly assess risks and rewards, would be vulnerable to bad advice or surprise developments, could even put the lives of his loyal assistants at risk. This card also points to the subtler dependencies that comfort encourages, allowing laxness and self-indulgence to quietly invade one’s reserve of will-power. The person who this card represents needs to move slowly and deliberately if change is required, as the consequences will affect more than just her or himself.
Position Meaning: The Near Future position predicts what could happen, following the dynamics of situation. This is not cast in stone, however. If you follow the Advice card, you can improve on or neutralize the probabilities that are now in process. Like a wind sock, this position shows which way it’s blowing right now.
Publisher Notes: A crowned figure, having a pentacle over his crown, clasps another with hand and arms; two pentacles are under his feet.
Divinatory meanings: The surety of possessions, cleaving to that which one has, gifts, legacy, inheritance.
Reversed meanings: Suspense, delay, opposition.

Position 8: Blocks and Inhibitions
Card: Four of Swords

Take responsibility and find solutions rather than dwelling on problems or finding fault.
When the Four of Swords is in this position, you seem to be assigning blame rather than taking responsibility for your part. This “keeping score” behavior builds up resentment against friends and colleagues. As others feel your attitude souring and receive little or no communication about what’s wrong, they withdraw. This initiates a trend toward unhealthy isolation. Resist every temptation to catalogue your resentments or rehash your turbulent feelings. Make an effort to move your attention from the problem to the solution. A more positive train of thought will open more options to you.
General Meaning: The Four of Swords sends a strong message to take some time out, surrendering worldly concerns and retreating to a place of serenity sheltered from the hustle and bustle. The oldest images suggest a visit to “the sephulcur of your ancestors,” to contemplate your mortality and breathe in the dust of those who brought you here. On a vision quest or pilgrimage to your own center, you can contemplate your roots, your values and your goals. Here you will see your own place in the flow of time and unfolding generations.
Position Meaning: The Blocks and Inhibitions position points to self-undermining tendencies, areas where you could be in denial, where you can get stuck, where you might get in your own way unless you examine yourself and make the necessary corrections.
Publisher Notes: The effigy of a knight in the attitude of prayer, at full length upon his tomb.
Divinatory meanings: Vigilance, retreat, solitude, hermit’s repose, exile, tomb and coffin.
Reversed meanings: Wise administration, circumspection, economy, avarice, precaution, testament.

Position 9: Allies
Card: Death

When death and rebirth become like allies, major transformations can be welcomed.
The Death card in this position suggests that you are free from fear. You realize that you are immortal, not attached to this body, and as such there is nothing to lose by taking a risk. You are the perfect person to meet the Reaper and gain the benefit of being pruned or harvested.
This card does not presage physical death. It suggests, however, that by not fearing death or behaving as if you don’t fear death, you cross the barrier and discover your immortal nature. This is not to advocate foolishness. It is to encourage present developments — because when there is nothing to lose you have everything to gain. Under these circumstances, you can’t be intimidated. Such a position makes you spiritually invincible.
General Meaning: Death represents the time of harvest, as the ubiquitous image of the scythe testifies. Unless the fruits of summer are harvested, they are lost to winter’s harshness, and the people do not eat. This Arcanum portrays the action of winter on the landscape — lush greenery is cut back, revealing the bones of the landscape. The season of dark and cold separates the annual plants, who live and die in one year, from the perennials, which can take refuge in their root systems until the following Spring, to sprout anew.
As the scythe cuts the chords which link us to the past, it liberates us to go forward without fear, because we have nothing to lose. We can see that everything pruned away is recycled for the fertility of the future, so there is no loss despite the changes that the seasons bring.
Position Meaning: The Allies position points to those people who can be supportive or helpful at this time. They could even be role models, expressing Archetypes you can look to for inspiration. An underlying message is that you don’t have to go through this alone!
Publisher Notes: Divinatory meanings: End, mortality, destruction, corruption.
Reversed meanings: Inertia, sleep, lethargy, petrifaction, somnambulism.


Position 10: Advice
Card: Two of Cups

Express the love you feel. Offer reassurances to those you love, so they don’t feel alone or insecure.
The Two of Cups in this position advises you to speak your heart. There is little question that the person you are trying to connect with feels the same. This is already known, but perhaps it’s not yet declared or confirmed. So why not make it clear, and why not now? We know the Two of Cups is not the image of a ceremony, but it is the image of the vow. This card advises that you pledge yourself and put your heart on the line. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Life is a relationship game.. It’s a great privilege to share with others who are so complementary and compatible. You will feel more complete on the other side of this pledge. Go for it!
General Meaning: The Two of Cups signifies a union of soul-mates, often with an Adam and Eve theme, traditionally described as a romantic relationship, but implying all partnerships based on affinity and deep mutual understanding. Occasionally it means that your mind and your soul are discovering each other, maybe for the first time.
This card highlights a Karmic tie between individuals, portrayed by a wreath or figure-eight ribbon twining around the two cups. Occasionally you see a symbol referring to the union of alchemical opposites (as in sacred sex), portrayed as a long-necked flask wound about with twined serpents, its mouth spouting flames, sometimes winged. This image is from Alchemy, indicating the refining and mutually-completing effect of a true and lasting human bond.
Position Meaning: The Advice position is, naturally, the part of this spread that gives the advice you are looking for. It conveys practical guidance for a course of action which will harmonize what you want with what is currently possible, while keeping your options open for future possibilities.
Publisher Notes: A youth and maiden are pledging one another, and above their cups rises the caduceus of Hermes, between the great wings of which there appears a lion’s head. It is a variant of a sign which is found in some old examples of this card. Some curious meanings are attached to it, but they do not concern us in this place.
Divinatory meanings: Love, passion, friendship, affinity, union, concord, sympathy, the inter-relation of the sexes, and—as a suggestion apart from all offices of divination—that which nature is sanctified.
Reversed meanings: False love, folly, misunderstanding.

Position 11: Long-Term Potential
Card: The Hermit

Stick to your profound quest. It’s well worth the commitment and time it takes.
The Hermit in this position suggests that the line of inquiry you are following has great long term potential. Perhaps you are pursuing a passionate study or a spiritual quest. Any path of mastery will consume major blocks of time and energy. You may be old and gray by the time you answer the questions you are posing. The pursuit of the answers, however, will lead you through profound life-changing experiences. When you make the commitment to this path, others will support you out of respect. Your inner crone or shaman is getting ready to take her place in the seat of leadership and right use of power. Don’t decline the invitation. Wrap your dignity around you and step up to the challenge.
General Meaning: The challenge of the Hermit card is to be able to recognize the Teacher in this humble disguise. He will not make it easy for the student to acquire his wisdom, as it takes time and long contemplation to fathom what he is illuminating. He often speaks wordlessly, or in ancient and barbaric tongues, communicating with the elements, the animals, the laws of Nature.
While the hourglass was an identifying feature of the earliest Hermit cards, more modern ones have shifted the metaphor, showing more or less light released from his lantern. But every Hermit card reminds us of the value of time away from the everyday hubbub of community life, to relax the ego and enjoin the mind of Nature.
Position Meaning: The Long Term Potential position points to the deep future, portraying unknowns still taking shape. It’s giving you some clues as to the nature of these factors. It is showing you the “wild card” still to be played before all is said and done.
Publisher Notes: Divinatory meanings: Prudence; also and especially treason, dissimulation, roguery, corruption.
Reversed meanings: Concealment, disguise, policy, fear, unreasoned caution.

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June 1st, I did a Tarot Reading via computer generated program (Tarot Magic) to preview the month ahead.  I prefer to use a computer program for my own readings, or to have them done by another reader, because I’m too … uhm… unsure of my interpretations when reading for myself. Before I do one for July, I thought it important that I review, reflect, and sum up June.  I can tell ya one thing, I’m glad June is over because it quite thoroughlly kicked my ass.

Here’s the link to the June 1st Tarot Reading.

In the Self position, I had drawn the king of swords, pin-pointing me as the mediator.  While there are no crystal clear episodes that make me go, “Oh, yeah, that must be what that king meant!”, I can see a few small-scale scenerios, most specifically at work, where that card’s energy may have come into play.  I also know that it came into play a bit in the search for a new house.  What I want is not necessarily the same thing that my kids want, so there had to be some negotiating and what I suppose you could call sacrificing, although the sale/purchase of homes has not yet taken place.  I’m sure there may be other areas, or other interpretations, where this card’s energy would be more than obvious, but I’m not really seeing them from where I sit at the moment.

In the Situation position, I’d drawn the magician… and I can see lots of areas of June where this card’s energy was present.  There was magick involved in how/when/where I chose to apply for home loans and look for houses.  There was magick in the belief that we’ll find a way to make the move happen, even if we can’t see the way from where we sit at the moment.  I’ve always said, “There’s always a way, it’s just a matter of finding it… as long as we believe.”  I could see the Magician a bit in T, with his intuitive nature and his ability to “predict” certain things, particularly in regard to shapes, symbols, and numbers.  So “Magick” being at the heart of my situation for June seems right on target.  Magick was definitely in the air.  June was also host to Litha, Midsummer’s Eve, when the veil is thinnest between the faerie realm and the human world.

Card 3 in the Challenge position was the Heirophant, and the first sentence in that card’s description was to make the invisible visible… I think this card applied directly and wholly to Tarot, and a few other traits/gifts I’ve been exploring more openly lately… including the tree spirits.  I think this card also “held hands” with the Magician card, the two of them working together throughout the month. I’ve noticed more and more that people approach me, most specifically at work, asking for advice or mystic wisdom, or the meanings of certain things.  For the first 8-9 months that I worked at this job, I was very private about my personal life and my belief systems.  But, something “cracked” a few months ago and I became an open book.  I was afraid there’d be an adverse reaction if people started labeling me “witch” or “pagan”, but the opposite was true… they’re intrigued by it.  Some of the girls I work with, actually, are already on that path on their own and take comfort in being able to talk about tarot or moon phases or planetary shifts or other realms and dimensions.  So yeah… the Heirophant was right on the money for June.

In the fourth position, Foundation, I drew the four of swords, encouraging me to spend time reflecting on old patterns and cycles from my past and to protect/shelter myself from outside influences, even if that meant getting away from it all for a while.  This was quite true… it even suggested I journal more, which I have been (naturally, not because the cards told me to).  There are cycles from my past, particularly in regard to love and relationships, that I’ve been reflecting on this month.  Things with T are still brand new, and they began happening at a time I didn’t think I could ever love or be loved again.  I’d made up my mind that I’d be a loner for the rest of my days, with the exception of my children.  Of course, that’s when opportunity strikes, right? When we least expect it.  So, I’ve been asking myself questions about the past… why relationships had failed, where I may have mis-stepped, what I could have done differently, whether or not I gave my heart away too easily and too completely.  I’m not saying I’ve come to any rock solid conclusions, but I sure have spent some time reflecting.  I also felt overwhelmed by life and outside influences, stressed to the max by my job, the potential move, my financial situation, and family dynamics.  I did end up getting away from it all… two weekends worth – one trip to T’s mom’s, and a second trip this weekend to his sister’s and his mom’s. I believe the time away, as well as the time I’ve been able to visit T’s house as a sort of retreat, is the only thing that saved my sanity.

Position five, recent past, I’d drawn the five of wands, suggesting that I’m moving out of a phase that was incredibly competitive and/or demanding – and one with little cooperation from other people/influences/sources.  This is true… and it reminds me of a comment I’d jokingly made to T’s sister over the weekend that, I think, shocked us all.  I’d never played “corn hole” before… the game where you toss little bean bags and try to land them in a hole in a wood base.  T’s family is big on this game, and after I’d had a few practice shots, I was looking forward to playing.  We decided to partner up, T and I on one team playing against his sister and her husband (both of whom are Leos, like me!).  T’s sister said three times in a row (probably assuming I didn’t hear the first two times since I didn’t respond), “You’re playing against two of the most competitive people there are!”  After she’d said it the third time, I grinned, looked at her and said, “You’re playing against someone who doesn’t give a shit.” – I meant it with humor, and most took it with humor… but in retrospect, I realize that I didn’t always view things in such a nonchalant “just do it for fun” kind of way.  My competitive streak seems to have dulled down. I don’t feel the need to be the best, the prettiest, the smartest… I just need to “be”. I don’t necessarily need to stand out or be noticed anymore, even though that “status” was a major part of my past.  It feels good to relax and just live life for its experiences without feeling like I have to “win” or “lose”. Then again, I’ve been in straight up survival mode for months, now, so that’s subject to change. *LOL*

Card six, higher power, was the six of wands, which I still find a bit perplexing. It spoke of accepting acknowledgement for my achievements, being recognized for my abilities… but I’m not sure how/where/why/when that comes into play.  Okay, maybe that’s not true… when I think about it, I mean really think about it, it all points back to T and the confidence he has in my ability with tarot, runes, dream analogy, intuition, and magick.  I do swell up a bit with pride when I hear him talk to others about my gifts, when he sets up readings for me with people he knows, and when he calls me at work on my cell to ask me for my blog address so he can share it with people who are important to him.  Honestly? This card points directly to how good I feel when he speaks highly and confidently of my abilities. It gives me the encouragement and confidence I need to continue evolving.  Hmmm…  who knew? *smirk*

Card 7, near future, 9 of swords… this one hit hard, and it hit in such a way that I will not discuss in a public forum.  This is one of those things I completely internalize and don’t even speak about with friends.  I know exactly what this card was pointing to, and the precise moment it came into play… and the subtle moments in continued to come into play throughout the month.  No worries, though… having seen the card in advance gave me a bit of strength to my shield.  I was prepared for it.  That’s not to say it didn’t rock my boat when it happened, but I was aware… and kept balance.

Card 8, blocks and inhibitions was the Death card – and again, I knew exactly what it meant.  Some things have to be allowed to die (metaphorically) in order for new things to emerge.  There were lots of parts of me, or in my life, that were not authentic and that, in the long run, were doing more damage than good… even if I refused to see that at the time.  But life has this funny, funny way of stripping us down to the bare basics and making us start over from ground zero, and that’s what the past three months have been for me.  April, May, and June killed me… on all levels except physically… and now that the inauthentic parts are being buried, life’s blessings have room to grow.

Card 9, Friends and Allies brought forth the Four of Cups and a friend who would help pave a new path.  Again, I believe this points directly to T in that when things were the hardest for me financially, knowing I’d not take a hand out, he provided several work opportunities for me to earn a little extra – either by way of Tarot readings or house cleaning.  He’s also introduced me to a whole new world of people, and a new way of viewing the world in general… without altering the way I choose to view it on my own.  Without expanding further, I can just say that yeah… I see this card’s energy, and I see it in T.

Card 10, Advice, suggested “Discipline yourself to stay focused on the desired outcome and you will make your way past all competing circumstances.”  I believe I”m still struggling with this one, and I think it has everything to do with the sale/purchase of homes and the upcoming move.  Nothing is solidified, I ran into complications with the loan, and we’re stalled.  I wouldn’t be surprised if something along these lines also surfaced for July’s reading since this issue has not yet been resolved and I’m having difficulty keeping the faith.

The final card in June’s reading, the Ace of Cups, was an incredibly hopeful and positive card. “…the long term potential of your situation points to bonding, mutual understanding and harmony. As this card draws together the influences of the other cards in this spread, you can be sure that hearts are opened, veils are lifted, and discarded vessels patched and filled. There is enough regard and approval to heal the hearts of the people involved.

Persevere with this situation no matter what it asks of you, because you will receive priceless training in how to follow the heart. You can trust this path and the people you are walking it with.” Was that accurate? *smiles*… yeah, I’d say so.  Here it is June 30th and I’m not at all concerned about my heart’s well-being and I’m confident in those with whom I’m walking this portion of the path.

June was hard… Rhythm left for Vegas, leaving Stinkerbelle and I behind.  The air conditioner to the house broke, the bills have all been past due, work was a major struggle, the home situation didn’t go as smoothly as I’d have liked… but I’m more than pleased with how the blog developed over the month, the time T and I had to nurture the new relationship, the time I’ve had to bond one on one with my daughter, and I’ve thoroughlly enjoyed exploring my world of magick, even when (especially when) the going gets tough.

Looking forward to July.

Life is good.


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Intro: This is one of those pieces that was born of anger, frustration, and the anger and frustration I felt toward myself for allowing myself to get angry and frustrated *grins*. Judged harshly by a friend, I vented through poetry.

There’s a double meaning in this poem, actually. The friend who judged me, at the time, was only 22-years-old, ten years younger than me, and I felt that part of her judgment was coming from her youthfulness and lack of personal experience. At the same time, this poem formed itself around the 22 Major Arcana cards of the Tarot.

The 22 Major Arcana cards tell the story of a journey… a journey that takes place in 22 phases. This story is often referred to as, “The Fool’s Journey“. However, we don’t just move directly through those phases in chronological order… we sometimes “slip” or “skip” from one phase to another, not in chronological order. We also can repeat phases, complete the cycle, and start all over. It’s a never-ending process – we live within that realm of 22 – indefinitely. While it’s easy for us to stand on one platform and judge another, we must remember that we will also take our turn on each platform, so it’s best not to judge because we’ll each have our moments.

Written by:
Wendi Friend

Sentence me as a criminal
As you so willingly do
But remember each step you take
Is only one of twenty-two
You may think yourself righteous
And doing the will of god
I’m sure those who are like minded
Will stand up and applaud
You meant good will you say
And I believe what you say is true
But keep in mind, oh naive one
Each step is but one of twenty-two
Think me the fool if you will
And judge my light-hearted ways
Think yourself above me
In your blind-chariot driven ways
Call out for temperance or justice
Scream devil and death if you will
Nonetheless each step you take
Is one of twenty-two still
Think yourself the hierophant
Leader of spirit and education
Just be careful what you condemn
To your own eternal damnation
For what you judge will come to be
What you experience too
For every step you’re bound to take
Is yet one of twenty-two
Call out for the Empress and Emperor
The mother and father will come
But their advice will be to you
To judge and condemn none
For there never was a doubt
That what you send comes back to you
For every step you take, My Love
Is but one of twenty-two

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Intro: This piece was inspired by two sources. First, it was initiated by a game of poetry tag. One author writes a poem, then includes a set of keywords for the next author to include in their poem. The second author writes a poem using that set of keywords, and then includes a new set of keywords for the next author to use. The keywords set for this piece of writing were, “thaw back”.

The second inspiring factor was the two of swords in the Rider/Waite tarot deck, a card I had drawn the same morning as I came across the poetry tag game. In the two of swords card, we see a person sitting rigidly still on a bench, blindfolded, shields crossed in front of her. Behind her is a liquid landscape… an ocean of emotional torrents. She keeps herself well guarded against intruders, shielding herself against any “feeling”, refusing to take action.

“Ice Queen”
Written by:
Wendi Friend

Chilled confinement
emotions solidly frozen
in guarded isolation

Swords of cold steel
crossed before me
keep me safe from
and from that which
I most crave

in cubed

by flurries
of past pain

Kept still
in a blizzard
of memories

somewhere is he
who knows the heat
of spirits’ passion
and can thaw back
these sheets of ice –

these frozen tears…
that have grown
into icicles…

that have grown
into prison bars
that keep
my heart
solidly frozen
in guarded


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