Archive for the ‘01. Know Thyself’ Category

You’ve been warned: this is really, really long – and packed with all sorts of stuff you may or may not find interesting and/or… well… (*winks at Indigo*)… off the beaten path. What I ask you to keep in mind, should you choose to keep reading, is that this blog, these posts, are a part of my own personal journey and are being recorded for my own personal reflection, learning, and evalutaion.  I am not writing “for the reader”.  In posts like this, I could care less about my spelling, punctuation, verbage, or anything else.  The purpose here is for me to document events so I can come back to them later.  However, you’re more than welcome to join me on the journey and read along.


Have you ever seen a hungry baby gulp at a bottle so vivaciously that it actually gags and chokes? Ya gotta pull the nipple out of the mouth, tilt the baby upward, give it a pat or two on the back, and advise it to slow down? Gulp? Gasp? Cough? Yeah… that’s me right now, sucking on the nipple of life.

Oh, yeah. I went there.

My dog, Sirius, has a skin condition. I kid you not, he’s allergic to himself. No, seriously, he is – the vet said so. Anyway, he gets into these itch fits, these scratching frenzies where he gets so excited by the feel good of the itch being scratched that he hyperventilates. Gulp? Gasp? Cough? Yeah… that’s me right now, being thoroughlly scratched by the Universe in the most pleasing ways.

So I’ve been gone for a while. What’s up with that? Lots, really. Many strange things have been taking place in Wendiland, and tonight, the pieces of the puzzle are all fitting together. It feels as if I’ve finally, and quite suddenly, with much adeu, been given the key to the door I’ve been ramming my head against for the past 36 years.

Let’s pause to take note here that the number 36 is so much more HUGELY significant to me than I realized. Connecting dots… I’ve made a big deal about turning 36, right? If I remember correctly, and I was smart enough to have BLOGGED IT for RECORD!!! – I did say that this was going to be a major turning point for me – that it felt like the wallpaper of the world around me was peeling. I sensed change on a grand scale. Remember? If not, check the archives – it’s in there… in abundance, repeatedly.

Yes, I know I’m on hyper mode and typing like a spaz, but the thoughts are so hard-hitting and at such rapid speeds that my mind is having trouble organizing them and my fingers are frantically trying to articulate. Just bear with me, it’ll all make sense by the end of the post — if not to you, then it will to me, and that’s my purpose for recording it.

*takes a big, fat breath in*

Okay. Let’s digress a bit. The last time I posted was the night my dad arrived. He was here for two days and we did a lot of front porch sitting, coffee drinking, philosophising? No, that can’t be a word. Ah, hell with it, I’m keeping it. *LOL* – So we talked about deep, philosophical things. The theme seemed to be that of responsibility, transformation, coming into oneself, awareness, enlightenment, and in honoring the gifts I’ve been given (Thank you, Dad, for validating me and seeing me for who and what I am instead of what you’d hoped I’d become).

Just before Dad arrived, I wrote about a bizarre event that happened on my front porch that was so literally out of this world that I couldn’t go into detail. I noted it, moved on. Just after Dad left, more “weird” started unfolding.

Weird event #1: The Snake.
I called home one afternoon from work to check on the kids. They told me they’d just finished catching a snake inside the house. Where inside the house? MY ROOM! They studied it for a good long while as they chased it through the house trying to catch it. They got a good scope of its size, color, markings, etc. – They successfully caught it by using absolute genius coupled with a garbage can and a trash bag, and released it outside.

Contrary to what most assume of the snake thanks to the whole Adam and Eve fiasco, snakes actually represent magick and initiation. They are knowledge, ancient wisdom, and an invitation to raise the bar, so to speak, metaphysically. I was honored the snake chose to visit my room (although admitedly glad they caught it and escorted it back to its natural habitat).

Yesterday, I phoned home from work… and guess what? Same snake… inside the house, this time in my daughter’s room. They were positive it was the exact same snake. Harmless… a rat snake, but a return visit. Weird?

Weird 2: The Spider
Yesterday morning as I was getting ready for work, I noticed a rather large spider on my bedroom wall, just above my dresser where Hope Eternal (my faerie gift from Indigo) sits. I actually audibly verbalized, “Oh, hello. Okay if I take your picture?” The spider sat still while I snapped about six shots of it, flash and all, including close ups. I left the spider where it was and went to work. I mentioned it briefly to my son when I got home, but no one had seen it. This morning, it was back… higher up on the wall, more to the right. While I was at work tonight, my son spotted it and, as with the snake, escorted it back outside.

Spiders indicate creativity, writing, and weaving truths. They are goddess energy that indicate a raising of the veil, so to speak.

So the Animal Messages are coming through loud and clear, yes?

Werid 3: Energy blow-outs
Over the past three days, there’ve been some majorly weird energy fluxes going on. We’ve lost power in the house about three times – only “flashes” or “bursts” where it surges out, then pops back on – making every major and minor appliance beep like an alarm. Yesterday, my iphone completely spazzed, freezing on a pure white screen. It was out for hours before my son was able to tutor me through resetting it. And the net? Forget about it. There’s been absolutely no net connection whatsoever.

Weird 4: The doggy-sitter
Every morning, before the kids leave for school, they take all four dogs out to the kennel. This morning, my dog refused to go. I didn’t think much of it – at all, really – until I’d gotten home and my son came into my room and copped a squat on my bed. Here’s how that conversation went:

“Mom? Did anything weird happen with you last night?”

“What do you mean by weird? We are talking about me, ya know.”

“Well, did you go somewhere?”

“Uh… no. I was right here, remember? Came home from work and spent time on the numerology charts. You were here, you know I didn’t go anywhere.”

He gives me “the look”.

“That’s not what I mean, Mom. I didn’t mean physically. I mean astrally – while you were sleeping. Did something happen? Did you go somewhere?”

“Actually, now that you mention it, I think I did… but I don’t remember much. Why?”

Now here’s some background history to fill in the blanks. My dog, Sirius, one of four, sleeps in my room on the floor next to my bed. He’s my “familiar”, if you will. My guardian. However, when it’s time to go to the magick land of “outside”, or when it comes to treats, the dog doesn’t hesitate to bolt and leave me where I lie. This morning, when Rhythm came in to invite the dog out, the dog refused to go. My son tried again, with the “come on, it’ll be fun!” voice, and the dog turned his head away from my son, towards me. My son seemed to pick up on something at that point, realizing that the dog was communicating a message to him. Nonetheless, my son persisted, knowing I’d nag if the dogs weren’t put out properly, so he moved forward toward the dog to “assist” him with getting up. The dog growled.

My son looked at me, then at the dog. He tried again: “Sirius, Come!” this time using the “Or else!” voice. The dog growled.

When the dog growled the second time, according to my son, I sat half-way up in bed and in a stern voice shouted, “Sirius, go! NOW!”

Apparently, the dog and the boy looked at each other, both knowing something wasn’t right. If I am not fully awake and in a completely upright position with eyes open and requesting coffee, then whatever words come out of my mouth are NOT going to make sense.

Yes, I talk in my sleep… and it usually sounds crazy, such as me telling the kids to get the tractor out of Mammaw’s driveway. No, my mother doesn’t have a tractor. Get the drift? So for me to have been responding coherently to the situation when I was not coherent let the dog and the boy both know that something in Wendiland was amuck. (ignore my spelling, I don’t care about it right now).

Rhythm said to Sirius, “Okay, Buddy. I see your point. You have a job to do. Stay here and watch over her. I’m going to school.”

Obviously, I went on a bit of a “walk-about” in my sleep last night.

Tying it all together: Numerology

So we now know that Indigo gifted me with funds for new books weeks before my 36th birthday, and unrelated to my turning of age. Hers was a thank you gift for a Tarot reading I’d done for her. However, it wasn’t until days after my 36th birthday that I purchased the books — one of them a “surprise even for me” kind of purchase – a book on Numerology.

Well, since I couldn’t get online and fiddle-fart around with blog posts or website building, I decided to crack open that numerology book and give it a go.

Oh, hello?!

That was it… once the cover was opened, I was a changed person. It’s THAT significant. I will never again be the same. I cannot believe (wait a minute, yes I can) that I’ve gone 36 years without this information.

Now… there’s that number again: 36. Let me tell you why it turns out that is such a significant number.

Short lesson: All of life flows through the basic cycles of 1 – 9, the single digits. Infinite numbers, only 9 single digits. All 2 digit numbers (or higher) are added together and reduced to one of the nine single digits.

Example: 27

2 + 7 = 9

Example: 48

4 + 8 = 12 (and then again) 1 + 2 = 3.

Well, 36 is significant lots of times over. In the basic reduction process, 3 + 6 = 9. By turning 36, I’m completing one full cycle and getting ready to start over at 1.

This book I’m reading isn’t just numerology in general, it’s about this magnificent thing called The Divine Triangle. The theory in this book is that our life path travels a course that creates a series of squares that form themselves around a right triangle, and a cross. We enter the physical world through the top of the cross. From ages 0-9, we take a hard left and travel a straight line. At age 9, we turn downward and travel another line for 9 years. At age 18, we take a hard right, where we travel another straight line for nine years, to age 27 – and meet, for the first time in the journey, the center of our life-force. The first square is then formed.  This is the square of Youth where we learn who we are.

At age 27, we turn downward again, for another 9 years…. and then we take a sharp right at — what age? *nods* That’s right, 36.

Each of these 9 year cycles, these straight-line paths that we take, are different life lessons, part of our evolution. The first square that we create between ages 0 and 27 is the square of Youth. Then, between the ages of 27 and 54, we create the second of three squares: The Square of Power. It is here that we learn to acquire “things” and enjoy the material benefits of inhabiting earthy bodies. It is here that we establish what we are capable of – our personal power. In squre one we discover who we are; and in square two, we discover what we can do! And here I am… completing the first line in the second square, at the turning point to make the next 9 year journey.

Now I understand why people have been removed from my space. Now I understand why technology shut down. Now I understand why portals have been opening, and why information has been flooding in. I was 100% right… I am at a turning point, and CHANGE is more of a key focus than I realized… not just for this current phase I’m in, but as a lifetime attribute.

Yes, I said attribute.

I needed time to think. I needed time to study. I needed to be free from all distractions so that I could focus and really “get it”.

I hesitate to put this all in one post, especially in the sporradic and likely seemingly “crazy” way it’s all being dispursed, but I’m afraid the net connection won’t last and I won’t be able to post again, so I have no choice but to document it all at once if I want it documented at all.

Now… for the past four days, I’ve been sucking on this book, hand-writing notes like you wouldn’t believe. And I don’t just read and take notes. I’m one of those that immediately puts into practice what I’m learning. I learn quickly, and I learn by doing. That being said, I’ve been accumulating numerology charts for myself and each of my three children as “practice”. I’m gobsmacked at the results. Wow.

Don’t worry, I’m not going to post the entire six-page report I’ve already accumulated for myself. However, I do think it’s beyond important that I include the “nutshell” version.

What I’m working with here is four numbers:

Life Lesson Number (determined by birthday)
Soul Number (determined by the vowels in the name)
Outer Personality Number (determined by the consonants in the name)
Path of Destiny Number (by combining the Soul Number and Outer Personality Number, or, by using all of the letters in the name).

The name MUST be the name given at birth, so my current name wasn’t used.

I studied the number code, followed the steps for each number (doing all the long math and translations with instructions on paper each step of the way for practice and study), and wrote the definition for each of the four numbers. Next, I typed out everything… six pages worth, then “cut and pasted” those definitions (separating them from the tutorial process of finding them in the first place) into one summary…

Here’s a look at me, in a nutshell, according to the first basic steps in understanding The Divine Triangle through numerology and geometry:

Condensed Summary:

You are very conscientious in regard to duty. You are well aware of the law of the trinity, and know that inspiration and imagination will bring the best results when used to help others. This could easily become your philosophy of life. Follow your urge to create and expand the activities that interest you. You seek happiness and find it in making others happy. If a person feels depressed, a visit with you will bring them hope and courage. Expand your ideals by dedicating yourself to the expression of good cheer and optimism. Work to make your dreams come true, but not to the extreme of becoming impractical. Love is important to you – both in giving and receiving – but try to hold on to reason in your loving expansiveness. You become happy and well adjusted by making others happy.

You are an inspiration to others who see you in a refinement and an artistic genius which moves their very soul. Avant-garde art is your preference and you seem to epitomize unusual and innovative techniques. Recognition and fame may very likely be bestowed upon you because of artistic or humanitarian endeavors. You appear to be the visionary who believes in equal opportunity for all – regardless of sex, race, creed, or color. Your idealism can degenerate into egocentricity in which case your many talents are dissipated or lie fallow. Your mind then seeks unhealthy outlets for its genius which can bring notoriety. Your eyes emit a spiritual light that can inspire others to achieve their potential, as they witness what you have done. Your dress is original in style and you may design your own clothes because you have the artistic flair and inventiveness to do so, and you prefer to be different.

You appear quiet and modest and seem to need a peaceful environment in which to live. You are fussy about details; neatness and cleanliness are a must. Rather than make a big entrance, you prefer to remain in the background, working behind the scenes or in cooperation with others. You are attractive and popular with the opposite sex. This is partly due to your desire for companionship and harmony which prompts you to indulge others. You seem incomplete by yourself. You can appear to be restless and dissatisfied with conditions because of the mental balancing you perform on every situation. You may have difficulty in making decisions because both sides are so clear to you. On occasion, you can display a temper and use cutting words. You dress neatly and inconspicuously, preferring a balanced, pleasing look. You should choose easy to wear styles of clothing that reflect your more passive and artistic nature.

Many changes occur in your life, and your mission might well be to promote progress through a willingness to accept change. You are definitely not keyed to the old order or to outworn ideas and set principles. You are willing to adopt new concepts and new points of understanding, even to the extent of daring to claim the liberty to suggest new ways of doing things, and you have the ability to present the new in logical and acceptable terms. You make stepping stones of changes and cleverly turn them into growth experiences. You do not, however, forget conventions since you are really not a rebel. Instead, you propose new ideas to promote enlightenment; you have the courage and willingness to let go of the old and experiment with the new. You are very fluent and expressive with words and could find writing, lecturing, or selling the perfect outlet for these talents.





Those of you who know me do not need me to tell you how pin-pointedly accurate this is! And it pretty much jerks me right out of that self-doubt phase I’ve been in, questioning my own personality and the course I’m taking in life.

I’m sure I could have included more here, because so much has been going on – on so many levels, but I’ve been long-winded enough and it’s way past my bed-time.  I just had to record the events as they’re unfolding.

Oh, yeah… and I can’t close out without referencing the book and including the the major WENDI RECOMMENDS THIS promo for the book whose praise I’ve been singing in this entire post.

Numerology and The Divine Triangle by Faith Javane and Dusty Bunker ISBN# 0-914918-10-9

copyright 1979

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I’m tardy, but better late than never… Spatulahandle tagged me, and it’s a good’n. So good, in fact, that I’m adding it to my “Know Thyself” category because I think I surprised my own self with some of my answers. I kept it real, though…

I am: therefore I think.
I think: therefore I am.
I know: not nearly as much as I once thought I did.
I have: wonderful opportunities wondering if I’ll embrace them.
I wish: everything wonderful and beautiful for my children.
I hate: the smell of seafood.
I miss: myself.
I fear: more than I should.
I hear: faeries singing
I smell: woodlands
I crave: T
I search: constantly
I wonder: who is watching me
I regret: nothing – there’s no such thing as accident, irony, chance, or luck.
I love: that’s it: I love. Period.
I ache: all frigging over!
I am not: alone
I believe: in magick and faeries.
I dance: to the beat of my own drum.
I sing:
my own songs
I cry: healthy tears
I fight: my own self
I win: because I don’t quit trying
I lose: when I lose hope
I never: say never
I always: look for the deeper meaning and underlying messages
I confuse: most everyone (*smirks*)
I listen: to what most people can’t hear
I can usually be found: nestled inside myself
I am scared: of things I shouldn’t be scared of.
I need:
to be loved (like the Fifth Element)
I am happy about: my chance to experience life with all of my senses
I imagine: most people think I’m nuts, but I’m cool with that.
I tag: I cheat. Rather than tag specific people, I’m leaving this one open… anyone who wants to play is invited.

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As I was doing the Daily Dose this morning, I realized that I’m about to encounter a unique alignment – everything will be as it was on the day I was born.  The Sun will be in Leo, the year according to Chinese astrology is the year of the rat, and the moon will be in Aries – everything aligned exactly as it was on the day of my birth. 

2008 is the year of the rat.  As of today, the Sun shifted into Leo.  As of 3:22 a.m. tomorrow morning (tonight), the moon shifts into Aries (my Moon sign), where it will stay for the remainder of Wednesday, all of Thursday, until 6:30 a.m. Friday.

If I’m not mistaken, the Chinese zodiac sign only comes about once every twelve years… since I’m about to turn 36, this would be only my third alignment with all the elements in place – Leo, Rat, and Aries, and I won’t experience it again until I’m turning 48.

I wonder if this has anything to do with my current “shift”, introspective tendencies, and sense of transformation.

Well, where was I twelve years ago? 1996. Interestingly enough, I got married that year (Year of the rat is supposed to be a good time for marriage, even though I was divorced by 2001).  I also discovered that year that I had cervical cancer and would engage in a two year battle for my life.  I had surgery every three months for the following two years, which ultimately led to a hysterectomy when I was 25 – April of 1998. It was a time of MAJOR transformation, soul searching, and trying to find and define the value of my own life and my purpose for living.  The daily threat of death has that effect. 

So if I’m right in thinking that this alignment has something to do with my current emotional/mental/spiritual state, then all I can do is hope that this time, the cycle takes it a bit easier on me!

Just a thought.


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Here’s another old post/test I found in a former blog that I felt worthy of saving here…


Here is the source for the test: http://www.eclecticenergies.com/enneagram/test.php

I’m not sure exactly what this test is, but it gives a numeric personality profile and a wing type, which I’ll explore below.


I’m type 3, “The Achiever”, with a 2 wing.

Type 3: Focused on the presentation of success, to attain validation

People of this personality type need to be validated in order to feel worthy; they pursue success and want to be admired. They are frequently hard working, competetive and are highly focused in the pursuit of their goals, whether their goal is to be the most successful salesman in the company or the “sexiest” woman in their social circle. They are often “self-made” and usually find some area in which they can excel and thus find the external approbation which they so desperately need. Threes are socially competent, often extroverted, and sometimes charismatic. They know how to present themselves, are self-confident, practical, and driven. Threes have a lot of energy and often seem to embody a kind of zest for life that others find contagious. They are good networkers who know how to rise through the ranks. But, while Threes do tend to succeed in whatever realm they focus their energies, they are often secretly afraid of being or becoming “losers.”

Threes can sometimes find intimacy difficult. Their need to be validated for their image often hides a deep sense of shame about who they really are, a shame they unconsciously fear will be unmasked if another gets too close. Threes are often generous and likable, but are difficult to really know. When unhealthy, their narcissism takes an ugly turn and they can become cold blooded and ruthless in the pursuit of their goals.

Because it is central to the type Three fixation to require external validation, Threes often, consciously and unconsciously, attempt to embody the image of success that is promoted by their culture. Threes get in trouble when they confuse true happiness, which depends on inner states, with the image of happiness which society has promoted. If a Three has a “good” job and an “attractive” mate, she might be willing, through an act of self-deception which is also self-betrayal, to ignore the inner promptings which tell her that neither her job, nor her mate are fulfilling her deeper needs. Even the most “successful” Threes, who generally appear quite happy, often hide a deeply felt sense of meaninglessness. The attainment of the image never quite satisfies.

Threes can sometimes mistype themselves when they mistake the more superficial features of their personalities as indicators of their type. So, for instance, an intellectual Three might mistype as a Five; a Three who is devoted to her role as mother might think she is a Two; a Three in a leadership position might mistype as an Eight and so on. Regardless of the manifestation however, the core of the type Three fixation is the deep need for external validation.


Enneagram Type 2 – The Helper
Helpers who need to be needed

People of this personality type essentially feel that they are worthy insofar as they are helpful to others. Love is their highest ideal. Selflessness is their duty. Giving to others is their reason for being. Involved, socially aware, usually extroverted, Twos are the type of people who remember everyone’s birthday and who go the extra mile to help out a co-worker, spouse or friend in need.

Twos are warm, emotional people who care a great deal about their personal relationships, devote an enormous amount of energy to them, and who expect to be appreciated for their efforts. They are practical people who thrive in the helping professions and who know how to make a home comfortable and inviting. Helping others makes Twos feel good about themselves; being needed makes them feel important; being selfless, makes Twos feel virtuous. Much of a Two’s self-image revolves around these issues, and any threat to that self-image is scarcely tolerated. Twos are thoroughly convinced of their selflessness, and it is true that they are frequently genuinely helpful and concerned about others. It is equally true, however, that Twos require appreciation; they need to be needed. Their love is not entirely without ulterior motive.

Twos often develop a sense of entitlement when it comes to the people closest to them. Because they have extended themselves for others, they begin to feel that gratitude is owed to them. They can become intrusive and demanding if their often unacknowledged emotional needs go unmet. They can be bossy and manipulative, feeling entirely justified in being so, because they “have earned the right” and their intentions are good. The darkest side of the type Two fixation appears when the Two begins to feel that they will never receive the love they deserve for all of their efforts. Under such circumstances, they can become hysterical, irrational and even abusive.

Because Twos are generally helping others meet their needs, they can forget to take care of their own. This can lead to physical burnout, emotional exhaustion and emotional volatility. Twos need to learn that they can only be of true service to others if they are healthy, balanced and centered in themselves.

Twos can mistype themselves if they are not in an obvious helper role in their professional lives; they might not recognize the extent of their involvement in assisting others. This is especially true for male Twos, who have not received the same social rewards for helping as female Twos receive. Male Twos frequently mistype as Ones or Threes, the wings of type Two. Females, of all types, are bound to recognize some of the dynamics of type Two in their personalities, as such qualities have been socially reinforced. Female Nines, for instance, are especially prone to mistyping as Twos, particularly if they are the mothers of small children. But Nines are self-effacing and humble; Twos are proud and have a strong sense of their own worth.

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Well, we’ve established that my Sun sign is Leo, my Moon Sign is Aries, and that I was born in the Year of the Rat.  However, surfing through an old blog, I see I also took the time (once upon a time) to investigate my Rising Sign.  Here’s what I wrote back in 2005:

I’m getting varied information on my rising sign. Some sources say Aries, some say Taurus. Having read a few descriptions, Aries seems most accurate.

Here’s the aries information from the website I used to generate the rising sign: (astrology.com)

“Aries Rising:

If your Rising Sign is Aries, whether you like it or not, people always look to you to get things started, to lead the charge, and to say the things that no one else dares to say. You seem confident and blunt — and like an easy puzzle to put together. People think they understand your motivations. On the negative side, you might appear too intense and forward — even self-absorbed. Don’t be surprised if others expect you to respond jealously in love. That is the Aries way, and for all the world, you look like an Aries!”

Here is Aries information from the Moon Signs book used to record the Moon Sign, which is also Aries in my case.

“Airies Rising:

You might think that having this fire sign rising would make you an extrovert, but it doesn’t necessarily. You can be quiet, cautious and also slightly shy, and you can even come across to others as a touch hostile until they get to know you better. You may feel you had a difficult relationship with your parents, especially your father, who you might have seen as dictatorial and prone to disagree with you and put you down. Your family may have moved around from one place to another, giving you a rather unsettled school life. A family background with a formal kind of organization is possible, as is a strongly religious background, which you may have felt to be too hidebound or regulated. Any of these childhood difficulties could lead to difficult relationships later in life.

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When I first began this blog and was focusing on the “Know Thyself” category, one of my first posts was Seeing the Signs: The Cat and the Rat. This post provided an astrological profile for my Leo birth sign, as well as that of Chinese Astrology as I was born in the Year of the Rat (1972).  But tonight, I remembered an old blog, logged in to it, found another “Know Thyself” category that included my Moon Sign.

While my sun sign is Leo and I was born in the Year of the Rat, my moon sign is Aries. The following entry is taken from the book “Moon Signs” by Sasha Fenton and Jonathan Dee.


Moon in Aries 

You are a quick thinker, talker and large-scale planner, but you may need help with specific details. Lunar Ariens are often starters rather than runners, so you may be happier as an executive rather than as an ordinary worker. You may be a tough go-getter, but your confidence can evaporate quickly and you need the support and admiration of others.

Women with this Moon placement may value a career highly. You can be enthusiastic, headstrong and freedom-loving, unable to accept restrictions or unnecessary discipline. Your love life may be stormy, either because you are changeable and easily bored or because you are unwilling to compromise. However, you are probably honest and don’t try to manipulate others.

Moon in Aries people can be deft and dextrous, so your excellent co-ordination could make you successful at many sports.

The Moon is a ‘watery’ planet, and when it is in a fire sign emotions can be expressed quickly and easily. Moon Ariens can therefore display a hot temper, although you usually cool down quickly and rarely sulk. It may be hard to get you to listen to others, as you tend to see everything from your own point of view, concentrating on your own emotional needs rather than those of others.

One problem that seems to afflict those with the Moon in Aries is that of having a domineering or difficult parent, and the years from adolescence to independence are often characterized by shouting matches.

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Chakra Test

Years ago, I found an online chakra test, free, and the timing was just perfect because I’d recently been introduced to the concept of chakras and chakra healing. I’ve since bought a few books, read a few articles, and have enhanced my interest, although I’m far from being “knowledgable” on the subject. Eventually, I will be… but for now, it’s a learning experience.

I don’t remember what my results were back when, or what the results were the second time I’d taken the test and posted it in a different blog. Tonight, with not much on my mind and an inclination toward discontentment and/or boredom, I decided it’d be a good time for further exploration in the “Know Thyself” category of The Road Home. Perhaps some of my mental/emotional state is connected to the condition of my chakras? Hmmm.

So, here’s where I found the test, and here are my results:

Root: under-active (-50%)
Sacral: open (50%)
Navel: open (25%)
Heart: open (25%)
Throat: open (50%)
Third Eye: over-active (81%)
Crown: open (44%)


I’m unable to copy and paste the result definitions due to copyright protection, but you can view them here.

Here’s the Wendi-ized summary:

Root Chakra- Under active – this is where my fear and nervousness are coming from.  If I’d like to feel more secure and confident, I should pay some attention to activating my root chakra.

Third eye, or sixth chakra is over-active – this is my “airy-fairy” syndrome where I tend to live more in a world of daydreams and fantasy than in reality (and NO, that is NOT a reflection on the validity of the faerie-folk, but on me dreaming of what my life could have been, should have been, would have been, or might some day be – rather than dealing with the WHAT IS of my circumstance.  To get more “grounded”, I should work on restoring balance to my sixth chakra.

So first and sixth chakras need some attention, but the rest seem pretty well balanced.  I’ll do a bit of reading in the next couple of days.  In fact, if I’m not mistaken, T’s brother-in-law has a natural affinity for chakra knowledge and may be able to assist with a bit of chakra healing.

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Intro: This is an older piece, written years ago, inspired by a friend of mine in Nepal.  He taught me about a concept he calls “Monkey Mind”, and as a way to fully comprehend his story and apply its lessons to my life, I personified that Mokey and gave him a name.  I figured that if I could “see” that monkey, I’d have an easier time putting his little ass on a leash! *LOL* – I’m posting this today in honor of the Higher Consciousness Fairy Oracle I drew this morning.  She was inverted, so she let me know that I’ve slipped, or have been on the verge of slipping, into Monkey Mind and need to remember and honor my True Spirit and its divine wisdom.


Rabnab is what I call him. He’s male, but he wears a pink vest, pink shorts, and a cute little pink cap… all sequinsed. He carries a drum in his hands, wears bells on his shoes, and has a party blower in his mouth. Noisy little bugger, he is… and messy, too. He loves nothing more than to climb shelves, break glass-wear, disorganize cupboards, and demonstrate his one-monkey band loudly in the process. When I see Rabnab, I know I’m in trouble. It’s time to leash the monkey.

Rabnab used to be a constant presence in WendiLand, harping up at all the inopportune moments, forcing me to think thoughts of arrogance, instant gratification, self-pleasure, and egotistical authority – if not depression and hopelessness. If it wasn’t done exactly the way I’d envisioned it, Rabnab would start his song and dance of destruction.

It took a long time to learn to leash the monkey, and even still, he occasionally pounces in to my environment demanding recognition, credit, respect, and adoration – or feelings of sorrow, dread, regret, or lack of faith. Silly monkey, those tricks don’t work here anymore. Well, that’s not entirely true, but instead of reeking havoc in the environment of my mind, he now serves as an alarm mechanism that warns me when I’m getting out of control.

I hadn’t seen Rabnab for months. My arrogance had waned, humility was learned, anger was forgotten, and rather than wanting to be noticed, I learned to prefer life in the shadows. But sure enough, when I least expected it, Rabnab came busting through the doors of reality today and gave me a rude awakening, sucking me into the past and challenging me to either sink or swim.

For about 30 minutes I allowed him to control and dictate my mood. I remembered what it felt like to be bitter. I went back to the pain of being scorned. I felt a need to shout out demands, if not curse words, toward all those I felt had done me wrong. How dare they? Who do they think they are? Oh, silly monkey, come let me pet you and calm your nerves.

They are reflections, these images I’m angry at… mere reflections of my own worst traits. Let them have their limelight… we’re fine right here where we are. They don’t empower us anymore.

Still Rabnab was not out of tricks and pulled another from his sleeve, reminding me that the pain endured was no one’s fault but my own. I am the one who chose to invest time, energy, talent, and money while in search of fame and fortune, recognition, respect, and glory. How could I have been so stupid? How could I have been so blind?

Oh, dear Monkey, do not try to push me down. I’ve learned not to try to swim upstream or panic in rough waters. Instead, I’ve learned to lean into the all that is and flow along the currents. Your tricks to bring me down will not work.

And so Rabnab begins to get that sleepy-child look in his eyes, yawns and stretches, laying his head in my lap, his symbols silenced.

Yes, rest, little monkey for when you wake, I shall teach you new tricks and alternative adventures that don’t bring about such chaotic, nerve-racking consequences. Be at peace.

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Intro: Years ago, I was involved in a creative writing spiritual workshop online. It was a one year course that changed my life forever. Each month, I’d receive a module with learning materials and assignments designed to inspire creative writing and spiritual growth. Some of the assignments included writing my own personal anthem, creating a personal flag… and then there was this one: Writing a Personal Mission Statement. I’m tucking this one safely away in my “Know Thyself” category. I believe writing a personal mission statement is a fantastic idea, one that can help keep us on the right track. Do you have a personal mission statement?

“Mission Statement”
Written by:
Wendi Friend

“Make your life a mission – not an intermission.” -Arnold Glasgow-

I will live my life in a forever improving manner. I will develop a true understanding of humility; never considering myself to be better than others. My life will resemble a soup pot, bubbling over with compassion, courage, determination, will power and the ability to overcome with a joyful spirit all of the obstacles that I know are still to come. I will continue to add ingredients to the pot through meditation, study and action. I will lead the way not only for myself, but for my family, friends and anyone else who chooses to follow my upward climb. Everything I do, I will do all of the way – 100%, realizing that nothing is left to coincidence, accident, irony, chance or luck, but a direct reflection of my own effort; or lack of. Above all, I will smile, laugh and love, for without these, there is no life. Life is a genuinely precious gift that I will value, nurture and protect for myself and others.

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My animal totems, as determined by a deck titled, “Medicine Cards: The Discovery of Power Through the Ways of Animals” by Jamie Sams & David Carson, illustrations by Angela C. Werneke.  The first card I drew was blank and required me to identify it, which was easy as Lion had not appeared elsewhere in my spread.  The 8th and 9th cards were also self-determined as the spread only offers 7 and requires the Self to acknowledge the remaining 2 animals.  I had no problem identifying Owl or Hummingbird as totems in my life as they’ve been with me for years.

The deck and readings are new to me, so I’m simply copying definitions from the book.  Later, I may incorporate more information from my other Animal Magick books.  My new goal is to have a charm bracelet with all nine of these animals in place.


East: The animal in the East guides you to your greatest spiritual challenges and guards your path to illumination.

Mountain Lion*Mountain Lion (Leadership) – Mountain Lion can be a very difficult power totem for you to have because it places you in a position to be a target for the problems of others. You could be blamed for things going wrong, or for always taking charge when others cannot. You could become the perfect justification for the insecurities of others.

Mountain Lion medicine involves lessons on the use of power in leadership. It is the ability to lead without insisting that others follow. It is the understanding that all beings are potential leaders in their own ways. The use and abuse of power in a position of influence are part of this great cat’s medicine.

By observing the graceful pounce of Mountain Lion, you will learn how to balance power, intention, physical strength, and grace. This relates, in human terms, to the balance of body, mind, and spirit. The giant feline never wastes anything. It only kills what it needs for survival. The female lion is the hunter who graces her table in a style akin to mother energy.

If Mountain Lion has come to you in dreams, it is a time to stand on your convictions and lead yourself where your heart takes you. Others may choose to follow, and the lessons will multiply. If you have pulled the card of Mountain Lion, you may be asked to review the purpose behind your personal beliefs. You may need to discover whether or not your plans include a pride of cubs wanting to be like you or to share in your dreams. If you are already a leader, the question may be whether or not the time has come to push the cubs out of the cave. If you are aligned with cat medicine, you are considered to be “king of the mountain,” and are never allowed to be human or vulnerable. The pitfalls are many, but the rewards are great.

In assuming the place of power that Mountain Lion affords, you must constantly be aware of keeping peace. However you can never make everyone happy unless you lie to yourself or others. This is human nature. Therefore the first responsibility of leadership is to tell the truth. Know it and live it, and your example will filter down to the tiniest cup in the pride. Responsibility is no more than the ability to respond to any situation. Panic is not a part of this sacred medicine.


 South: The animal in the South protects the child within and reminds you when to be humble and when to trust, so that innocence will be balanced in your personality.

Whale (Record Keeper): Whale is very much like a swimming library. Whale carries the history of Mother Earth and is said to have been placed here by the Ancients from the Dog Star, Sirius.

Biologists say that Whale is a mammal, and very possibly lived on land millions of years ago. In tribal legend, Whale’s move into the ocean happened when the Earth shifted and Lemuria, the Motherland, went below the waves.

All of our petroglyphs speak of the Motherland, Mu, and the disaster that brought the red race to North America from the West, beyond the great waters. The symbols in the petroglyphs speak of the rivers and mountains crossed by our ancestors when they sought solid ground as the water receded.

Whale saw the events that led to the settling of Turtle Island (North America) and has kept the records and knowledge of the Motherland alive. It is said that Mu will rise again when the fire comes from the sky and lands in another ocean on Mother Earth. The native medicine people are waiting for this event as the next sign of Earth changes. Earth’s children will have to unite and honor all ways and all races in order to survive.

Whale medicine people are coded in their DNA to understand that sound frequencies can bring up records in the memories of ancient knowledge. They are usually clairaudient, or able to hear both very low and very high frequencies. They are usually also psychically developed and fairly telepathic. Many times, however, they are not awakened to their gifts until it is time to use the stored records. Many Whale medicine people are able to tap into the universal mind of Great Spirit, and have no idea how or why they know what they know. Only later, when they receive confirmation, do they begin to understand how they know or why they received the impressions.

Whale medicine teaches us to use the sounds and frequencies that balance our emotional bodies and heal our physical forms. To recall why the shaman’s drum brings healing and peace is to align with Whale’s message. The drum is the universal heartbeat and aligns all beings heart to heart.

Before the advent of speech and the primordial language, hand signs were used, and many tribes were silent most of the time. The language that was understood was the sounds of Great Spirit’s other creatures, the animals.

If you pulled the Whale card, you are being asked to tap into these records and to allow yourself to be sung to by those who have the original language. We are the only creatures who do not have our own unique cry or call. Find yours. Allow your voice to use this sound to release tension or emotion. Whale signals a time of finding your origins, of seeing your overall destiny as coded in your DNA, and of finding the sounds that will release those records. You may never be the same again. After all, you are the melody of the Universe, and the harmony is the song of the other creatures. In using your voice to open your memory, you are expressing your uniqueness and your personal sound. As you open to this uniqueness, the animals that are your nine totems may then send their sounds or calls to you or through you. This will open your personal records so that you may further explore your soul’s history and commune with Whale, who carries the history of us all.


West: The animal in the West leads you to your personal truth and inner answers. It also shows you the path to your goals. 

MooseMoose (Self-Esteem): Moose is found in the North of the medicine wheel, as is Buffalo. North represents the place of wisdom. Self-esteem is the medicine of Moose because it represents the power of recognizing that wisdom has been used in a situation and that recognition or a pat on the back is deserved.

Moose is the largest member of the deer family, and has great strength. The call of the male Moose is an awesome thing to hear on a musky spring night. His pride in his maleness and his desire to share his seed with a Moose cow are displays of his sense of self-esteem. The bellow of a male Moose can be viewed as a positive force, since it represents his willingness to “tell the world” about his feelings.

This “tell the world” trait contains a joyfulness which only comes with a sense of accomplishment. There is no greater joy than a job well done. This trait is therefore not a seeking of approval, but rather an enjoyment of sharing because of the spontaneous explosion of joy that comes from the deepest part of one’s being.

The wisdom woven throughout this scenario is that creation constantly brings forth new ideas and further creation. Moose is telling us that joy should be shouted with pride. The wisdom in doing this shouting is that the joy is “catching.” In a sense, the bellowing is a way for all of us to lighten up and give ourselves or each other a “well done!”

Moose medicine people have the ability to know when to use the gentleness of Deer and when to activate the stampete of Buffalo. They understand the balance between giving orders to get things done and having a willingness to do things themselves. The wisdom of Moose medicine is akin to the Grandfather Warrior who has long since put away his war paint and is now advising the young bucks to cool their blood.

Moose medicine is often found in elders who have walked the Good Red Road and have seen many things in their Earth Walk. Their joy lies in being the teachers of the children, and in being the first ones to give encouragement. This is not to say that Moose medicine people do not use their wisdom to warn as well as to give praise, because they do. Moose medicine people know what to say, when to say it, and to whom.

The elders are honored in tribal law for their gifts of wisdom, for their teaching abilities, and for the calmness they impart in Counsil. If you are wise beyond your years and have the gift of Moose medicine, use this gift to encourage others to learn and grow. There are many facets to the wisdom of Moose medicine.

If you have chosen the Moose card, you have reasons to feel good about something you have accomplished on your journey. This may be a habit you have broken, a completion of some sort, an insight on a goal, or a new senseof self that you have fought hard to earn. It is a time of feeling harmonious pride, and of recognizing those who aided you in the process.

One good exercise in Moose medicine is to write down things that you can love about yourself and your progress in life. Then apply these same things to friends, family, coworkers, and life. Don’t forget to share the findings with others. They need the encouragement as much as you do.


North: The North animal gives wise counsel and reminds you when to speak and when to listen. It also reminds you to be grateful for every blessing every day.

skunkSkunk (Reputation): Skunk medicine! Go ahead and laugh. This furry little animal has a reputation that contains a great deal of power. Due to its distinctive behavior, humans give this tiny, smelly creature a wide berth. The key word here is respect.

Unlike other predatory animals, Skunk does not threaten your life but threatens your senses. You know this to be true if you have ever been in the vicinity of its spray. In observing the habit patterns of Skunk, it is easy to notice the playfulness and nonchalance of its natural behavior. The “I-dare-you” attitude of this four-legged creature commands you, as the observer, to respect its space by mere reputation alone.

Skunk is teaching you that by walking your talk and by respecting yourself, you will create a position of strength and honored reputation. The carriage of your body relates to others what you believe about yourself. There is no need to bully, aggravate, torment, or overpower other beings when your sense of “self” is intact. As with Skunk, the resonant field of energy around your body is relayed through the senses. Self-esteem permeates the body’s energy, and is instantly recognized on an extrasensory level by others.

Learn to assert, without ego, what you are. Respect follows. Your self-respectful attitude will repel those who are not of like mind, and yet will attract those who choose the same pathway. As the odor of Skunk attracts others of its kind, it repels those who will not respect its space.

Skunk medicine people have the ability to attract others, and they are very charismatic. At the same time, the other side of their natural power is to repel those who seek to take energy from them without recycling the gifts they have taken. Skunk medicine people also know how to use the energy flows that will attract a lover. Some people call this sexual magic, as it is akin to the musk scent that animals excrete to attract a mate. It can be dangerous to leak sexual energy if you are not looking for a mate. It puts you into a games condition that may feed your ego but not how others feel about you. If you are attracting others who have an interest in you, you are in a sense saying, “I’m available.” This can cause hard feelings when the truth comes out. It also leaks energy that you could have used in a more constructive way.

In Skunk medicine, it is good to learn how to handle energy flows. Modern psychologists call this body language. In tribal teachings, this is your personal medicine which you are showing to others. Use your medicine well, and know that you are known by your reputation. How you use your energy will attract either honor or disgrace. You may want to examine what energy you are putting out that creates your present situation.

If you have chosen this symbol, you are being asked to notice the kinds of people who are attracted to you. If they emulate favorable characteristics, have enough self-esteem to recognize those characteristics within yourself. Walk tall and be proud of the accomplishments you have made. Bear in mind that what you believe about yourself is your ultimate protection. Project self-respect!


Above: The Above animal teaches you how to honor the Great Star Nation, and reminds you that you came from the stars and to the stars you will return. This animal is also the guardian of the Dreamtime – for your personal access to other dimensions.

SiriusDog (Loyalty): All of the Southwest and Plains Indian tribes had Dogs. These noble animals would often give warning signals of approaching danger. They helped in the hunt and were a great source of warth on long winter nights. Since the canine tribe has many breeds, early Indian Dogs were usually half-wild. This wildness, however, never divested the owners of their Dogs’ innate loyalty.

Dog has been considered the servant of humanity throughout history. If a person carries Dog medicine, he or she is usually serving others or humanity in some way. Here you will find the charity worker, the philanthropist, the nurse, the counselor, the minister, and the soldier.

Dog was the servant-soldier that guarded the tribe’s lodges from surprise attack. Dog is a medicine that embodies the loving gentleness of best friend and the half-wild protector energy of territorial imperative. Like Anubis, the jackal dog protector of Egypt, Dog is a guardian. Throughout history, Dog has been the guardian of hell, as well as of ancient secrets, hidden treasures, and baies — while mothers were cooking or in the fields. Dog honors its gifts and is loyal to the trust placed in its care.

In examinng Dog medicine, you might find that you have fond personal memories of owning and loving Dog as a pet. The message that Dogs are trying to give you is that you must delve deeply into your sense of service to others. Canines are genuinely service-oriented animals, and are devoted to their owners with a sense of loyalty that supersedes how they are treated.

If Dog has been yelled at or paddled, it still returns love to the person who was the source of its bad treatment. This does not come from stupidity, but rather from a deep and compassionate understanding of human shortcomings. It is as if a tolerant spirit dwells in the heart of every canine that asks only to be of service.

You can also see Dogs that have had the loyalty beaten out of them. They cower and cry at the slightest look of disapproval, but this is not their normal nature. Some varieties of Dogs have even been trained against their natures to be brutal and vicious. Out of a sense of service, these breeds have adopted the attack-oriented desires of their owners. They carry an altered genetic memory of what service means if they are to be approved of by their masters.

Dog medicine asks you to look at how readily your sense of loyalty is countermanded by your need for approval. If you have pulled the Dog card, there are several questions you need to consider, depending on the situation about which you are asking:

1) Have I recently forgotten that I owe my allegiance to my personal truth in life?

2) Is it posible that gossip or the opinions of others have jaded my loyalty to a certain friend or group?

3) Have I denied or ognored someone who is trying to be my loyal friend?

4) Have I been loyal and true to my goals?


Below: The Below animal teaches you about the inner Earth, and how to stay grounded and on path.

CrowCrow (Law): There is a medicine story that tells of Crow’s fascination with her own shadow. She kept looking at it, scratching it, pecking at it, until her shadow woke up and became alive. Then Crow’s shadow ate her. Crow is Dead Crow now.

Dead Crow is the Left-Handed Guardian. If you look deeply into Crow’s eye, you will have found the gateway to the supernatural. Crow knows the unknowable mysteries of creation and is the keeper of all sacred law.

Since Crow is the keeper of sacred law, Crow can bend the laws of the physical universe and “shape shift.” This ability is rare and unique. Few adepts exist in today’s world, and fewer still have mastered Crow’s art of shape shifting. This art includes doubling, or being in two places at once time consciously; taking on another physical form, and becoming the “fly on the wall” to observe what is happening far away.

The Europeans that came to Turtle Island were named the “boat people” by Slow Turtle. Even with the knowledge of alchemy possessed by certain boat people, none had ever seen the powerful shape shifting of shamans who utilized Crow medicine. Many boat people were frightened by what appeared to be animals coming into their camps or dwellings to discern their medicine. Crow medicine people are masters of illusion.

All sacred texts are under the protection of Crow. Creator’s Book of Laws or Book of Seals is bound in Crow feathers. Crow feathers tell of spirit made flesh. Crow is also the protector of the “ogallah” or ancient records.

The Sacred Law Belts, or Wampum Belts, beaded by native women long before the boat people or Europeans came to this continent, contain knowledge of the Great Sprit’s laws, and are kept in the Black Lodges, the lodges of women. The law which states that “all things are born of women” is signified by Crow.

Children are taught to behave according tothe rules of a particular culture. Most orthodox religious systems create a mandate concerning acceptable behavior within the context of worldly affairs. Do this and so, and you will go to heaven. Do thus and so, and you will go to hell. Different formulas for salvation are demanded by each “true faith.”

Human law is not the same as Sacred Law. More so than any other medicine, Crow sees that the physical world and even the spiritual world, as humanity interprets them, are an illusion. There are billions of worlds. There are an infinitude of creatures. reat Sprit is within all. If an individual obeys Crow’s perfect laws as given by the Creator, then at death he or she dies a Good Medicine death — going on to the next incarnation with a clear memory of his or her past.

Crow is an omen of change. Crow lives in the ovid and has no sense of time. The Ancient Chiefs tell us that Crow sees simultaneously the three fates – past, present, and future. Crow merges light and darkness, seeing both inner and outer reality.

If Crow medicine appears in your card spread, you must pause and reflect on how you see the laws of the Great Spirit in relation to the laws of humanity. Crow medicine signifies a firsthand knowledge of a higher order of right and wrong than indicated by the laws created in human culture. With Crow medicine, you speak in a powerful voice when addressing issues that for you seem out of harmony, out of balance, out of whack, or unjust.

Remember that Crow looks at the world with first one eye, then the other – cross-eyed. In the Mayan culture, cross-eyeds had the privilege and duty of looking into the future. You must put aside your fear of being a voice in the wilderness and “caw” the shots as you see them.

As you learn to allow your personal integrity to be your guide, your sense of feeling alone will vanish. Your personal will can then emerge so that you will stand in your truth. The prime path of true Crow people says to be mindful of your opinions and actions. Be willing to walk your talk, speak your truth, knowyour life’s mission, and balance past, present, and future in the now. Shape shift that old reality and become your future self. Allow the bending of physical laws to aid in creating the shape-shifted world of peace.


Within: The Within animal teaches you how to find your heart’s joy and how to be faithful to your personal truths. It is also the protector of your sacred space, the place that is yours alone and is never shared except by invitation.

turkeyTurkey (Give-Away): Turkey is actually thought to be the Give-Away Eagle or South Eagle of many native peoples. The philosophy of give-away was practiced by many tribes. Simply stated, it is the deep and abiding recognition of the sacrifices of both self and others. People in modern-day society, who have many times more than they need, should study the noble turkey who sacrifices itself so that we may life. In Turkey’s death we have our life. Honor Turnkey.

Spectators unfamiliar with the cultural phenomenon of the pot latch or give-away ceremony are often mystified by it. A tribal member may gladly give away all he or she owns, and do without in order to help the People. In present-day urban life, we are taught to acquire and get ahead. The person with the most toys wins the game. In some cultures, no one can win the game unless the whole of the People’s needs are met. A person who claims more than his or her share is looked upon as selfish or crazy or both. The poor, the aged, and the feeble have honor. The person who gives away the most and carries the burdens of the People is one of the most respected.

Turkey was the medicine of many saints and mstics. Celebrate if you have Turkey medicine. Your virtues are many. You have transcened self. You act and react on the behalf of others. You aspire to help those who need help. This is not out of some sense of self-righteous moralism or religious guilt. Help and sustenance is given by Turkey out of the realization that all life is sacred. It is knowing that the Great Spirit resides within all people. It is an acknowledgement that wht you do for others you do for yourself. Turkey medicine rests in true ego, in enlightenment. Doing unto others and feeding the people is the mesage of all true spiritual systems.

Depending on how Turkey is aspected in your cards, you are being given a gift. This gift could be spiritual, material, or even intellectual. The gift may be great or small, but it is never insignificant. Congratulations. You may have just won the lottery. Or the gift may be a beautiful sunset, or the smell of a fragrant flower. On the other hand, you may feel the “spirit of giving” growing within you, and wanting you to share with others.  


*Right Side: This animal protects your male side and teaches you that, no matter where you turn, it will be your Father-protector within. This animal also carries your courage and warrior spirit.

owlOwl (Deception): Owl medicine is symbolically associated with clairvoyance, astral projection, and magic, both black and white. Owl is called Night Eagle on several medicine wheels used by Amerindian teachers. Traditionally, Owl sits in the East, the place of illumination. Since time immemorial, humanity has been afraid of the night, the dark, and the unseen — waiting fearfully for the first crack of morning light. Conversely, night is Owl’s friend.

Owl hunts its prey at night. Not only can Owl see in the dark, it can also accurately pinpoint and identify any sound. This gives it a great advantage when seeking food. Owls are the night hunters. Some native people are fearful of Owl and call its feathers “deceiver feathers.” An owl feather is silent. You cannot hear Owl when it flies, but its prey definitely knows when it strikes, for its beak and talons are razor sharp.

Owl is oftentimes the medicine of sorcerers and witches. If Owl is your medicine, you will be drawn to magical practices and perhaps explore the dark arts. You should resist any temptation to practice black magic or any art that takes energy away from another person or being. If you have Owl medicine, these night birds will have a tendency to collect around you, even in the daytime, because they recognize a kinship with you.

Is it any wonder that in many cultures Owl is a symbol for wisdom? This is because Owl can see that which others cannot, which is the essence of true wisdom. Where others are deceived, Owl sees and knows what is there.

Athena, the Greek goddess of wisdom, had a companion Owl on her shoulder which revealed unseen truths to her. Owl had the ability to light up Athena’s blind side, enabling her to speak the whole truth, as opposed to only a half truth.

If Owl is your personal medicine, no one can deceive you about what they are doing, no matter how they try to disguise or hide it from you. You may be a little frightening to be around, since so many people have ulterior motives which you see right through. If you are unaare of your medicine power, you may take your keen insights and abilities for granted. Others never do. You may frighten them and reflect their blindness, for you cannot be fooled. Owl medicine people know more about an individual’s inner life than that person knows about himself or herself.

If you have pulled the Owl card, you are being asked to use your powers of keen, silent observation to intuit some life situation. Owl is befriending you and aiding you in seeing the total truth. Owl can bring you messages in the night through dreams or meditation. Pay attention to the signals and omens. The truth always brings further enlightenment.


*Left Side: This animal is the protector of your female side and teaches you that you must learn to receive abundance as well as to nurture yourself and others. The left-side animal is also your teacher about relationships and mothering.

hummingbirdHummingbird (Joy): Hummingbird is associated with the Ghost Shirt relition, which taught that a certain dance done properly would bring about the return of the animals, and that white people would disappear. Once again the Original People would know the joy of the old ways. In Mayan teahings, Hummingbird is connected to the Black Sun and the Fifth World. Hummingbird can give us the medicine to solve the riddle of the contradiction of duality.

The song of Hummingbird awakens the medicine flowers. Hummer sings a vibration of pure joy. Flowers love Hummingbird because nectar-sucking brings about the reproduction of their families. Plants flower and live because of hummingbird.

Hummingbird can fly in any direction – up, down, backwards, and forwards. Hummingbird can also hover in one spot and appear to be  motionless. Great Spirit created Hummingbird to be slightly different from other feathered creatures.

Because of their magical qualities, Hummingbird feathers have been used for a millennium in the making of love charms. It is said that Hummingbird conjures love as no other medicine does, and that Hummingbird feathers open the heart. Without an open and loving heart, you can never taste the nectar and pure bliss of life. To Brother and Sister Hummingbird, life is a wonderland of delight – darting from one beautiful flower to another, tasting the essences, and radiating the colors.

If Hummingbird is your personal medicine, you love life and its joys. Your presence brings joy to others. You join people together in relationships which bring out the best in them. You know instinctively where beauty abides and, near or far, you journey to your ideal. You move comfortably within a beautiful environment and help others taste the succulent nectar of life.

Hummingbird holds the Bow of Beauty which is delicately inlaid with gold and silver flowers, pearls, and precious jewels. Hummingbird disdains ugliness or harshness, and quickly flies away from discord or disharmony.

If Hummingbird has flown into your cards, get ready to laugh musically and enjoy Creator’s many gifts. Drop your judgmental attitude and relax. Hummingbird will no doubt give you a flash of the spirit, darting here, there, and everywhere. Get ready for a strange new burst of energy which may sens your senses reeling.

Hummingbird hears celestial music and is in harmony with it. Hummingbird may invite you to an art museum or a concert. Hummingbird energetically embraces the highest aesthetics.

Never be coarse in front of Hummingbird, for this is a fragile medicine which may have no understanding of worldly affairs. Beauty is the target, and Hummingbird’s mission is to spread joy or to be destroyed. Hummingbird quickly dies if caged, caught, or imprisoned.

Follow Sister Hummingbird and you will soon be filled with paroxysms of joy, and experience a renewal of the magic of living.

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