Archive for August, 2008

Creative Expression

Creative Expression


Well, ain’t that like a hammer to the head? *LOL*

One of my biggest complaints lately – and by lately I mean for like the past year and a half – is that I seem to be creatively blocked – stumped, stuck, clogged.  The muse is constipated.  I used to write creatively every day – all day, in a myriad of genres.  And when I wasn’t writing? I’d draw (not that I’m good at it, but I enjoyed it).  I’d be creative in the kitchen, too – baking breads and desserts and all sorts of new treats.  But, ever since the divorce and my return to work, with the kids back in school, and dealing with life’s trials and tribulations, I haven’t been creative at all!  I did have a few insightful moments over the last year when thoughts of love inspired poetic expression, and did come up with at least two articles I can think of off the top of my head that I was pretty proud of, but by and large, over-all, I’ve been creatively closed.

This card says enough is enough… bust out the drano, grab hold of the plunger, employ the use of the roto-rooter, feed the muse her exlax and get on with the show.

It’s time to write again.  It’s time to draw again. It’s time to bake again. (uh… candle making, maybe? *grins*)

Here’s what the guidebook says:

Card Meaning: Your heart needs an outlet to express powerful emotions. By drawing this card, you are urged to engage in an artistic or creative endeavor.

Card Description: The fairies sing, dance, and make beautiful decorations as a way of expressing their heart’s joyful energy. You, too, are urged to create an outlet for creative expression. Anything artistic or creative will make your heart sing with joy, and will allow you to get in touch with your true inner feelings and divine guidance. Painting, flower arranging, photography, sand or snow sculpting, writing, or composing songs are wonderful examples.

Your creative expression doesn’t need to be skillful or perfect. In fact, the most therapeutic types of creative activities allow you to “paint outside the lines.” In other words, don’t worry whether your creative project is perfect or marketable. Let go of all goals and judgments, and instead, create with childlike exuberance. Enjoy!

Affirmation: I am a highly creative and artistic person. I now allow this side of myself to be expressed.

Source: Healing with the Fairies Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue, Ph. D.

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Eight of Wands

Eight of Wands

Wands are representative of the fire element,  they signal transformation, change, new opportunities, new insights, new awarenesses. Wands are the “spark” that set things in motion.

Eights encompass the yin and the yang, the light and the dark, the good and the bad – and they challenge us to take what we think is a bad situation and convert it to a good lesson or positive experience.  I call these “beautiful gifts in ugly wrapping paper”.  It’s the classic cliche’, “When life hands you lemons… make lemondade.”

Eight of wands signals a whole slew of new events, not all of them appearing wonderful and glittery on the outside, but each of them bringing a lesson or some sort of value.  The trick is to embrace these opportunities – to take the seeds and plant them, without letting the opportunities pass you by. However, the caution with this card is not to allow Self to become overwhelmed with too much… being spread to thin, trying to do everything all at once, or biting off more than you can chew. Sometimes we have to pick and choose the “right” opportunity to run with and let the others go.  Eight opportunities may be present, but which one is going to be the most fruitful and which ones may serve as distractions? There may be a need to narrow the focus.

An inverted card can mean a few things.  It can mean either the energy is just beginning to surface in your life and hasn’t yet peaked; it can mean the energy is on its way out and waning, or it can mean the more negative aspects of this card are surfacing.  I believe I’m a combination today.

In one sense, I’ve been overwhelmed, and that’s clear in recent writings.  I even said in conversation yesterday, “I’m only one person… I’m doing what I can do. How much does the Universe want from me?” – and then, with this morning’s thoughts of realizing I’ve let Monkey Mind take over.  At the same time, I’m very much aware that there are several new opportunities being presented to me right now… and I wrote that in yesterday’s tag game… surprising my own self with my comment.  Those opportunities are just starting to move my way – and I may be required to be selective with which projects I choose to take on, and which ones I allow to pass. The card could be reflecting a need for time and energy management, to conserve and maximize my resources.

Here’s what the sources say:

From Solitary Witch: Book of Shadows for the Next Generation by Silver Raven Wolf:

Messages; communications; Internet surfing and business; emails; phone calls; faxes; long-distance travel; hasty action; letters of love and passion; action and excitement; forward pursuit of one’s goals; much can be accomplished if you think before you act.

That connects a little bit with Monday’s Page of Swords card, suggesting logic, reason, and intellect as the method for facing challenges.

From LearnTarot.com:

taking quick action
making your move
striking while the iron is hot
declaring yourself openly
putting plans into action
rushing into a new area
moving into high gear
getting caught up in change 
coming to a conclusion
culminating an effort
having all elements come together
closing out an activity
experiencing a grand finale
finding a successful resolution
completing unfinished business 
receiving news
getting an important message
obtaining a needed bit of information
finding the missing puzzle piece
discovering the truth
having a meaningful conversation
learning more

In the film The Ten Commandments, Moses touches his staff to water to set a plague in motion. His staff is the agent of power that initiates events. Moses’ staff reminds me of the wands on this card. They are a symbol of the onset of action and its effects. Before acting, we think, imagine, speculate, talk and dream. This is the realm of air – the sky. Then, finally, we decide to make our move. We bring our ideas down to earth and put them into action.

In readings, the Eight of Wands is often a sign that now is the time to declare yourself. All the elements are ready and will work for you as long as you don’t hesitate. The iron is hot – so strike! If events are in motion, they will proceed rapidly. You may feel caught in a whirlwind, but soon the dust will settle, and you see how your plans have fared.

The Eight of Wands also stands for the arrival of news or information. You may see or hear something important. The news could show up in a disguised form, so stay alert. Pay attention to everything that comes your way for a while.

This card also signifies endings. Sooner or later all activities run their course. The eight wands on this card not only symbolize putting events into motion, but also bringing them to a close. They appear to be ending their flight by coming down to earth. If you see the Eight of Wands in a reading, it may be time to conclude whatever you have been doing. Celebrate the past, but prepare to move on to something new.

And from Aeclectic Tarot:


Going with the Rider-Waite deck, we’ll relate the Eights to Strength. Eights are about moving, taking action, as Strength is a card of courage and transformation. It’s very easy to let things stay as they are inside yourself or without (though, as the Eights warn, it’s easy but damaging). It is much harder to gather up the willpower and mental strength to make a real change. A scary change. Like the Strength card, it is scary to approach that lion, but you can alter the relationship you have with it.

Eight of Wands

Eight wands cut across the sky. The power and energy of eight combined with the energy of wands makes this a card of movement and expansion. There is no fear in the Querent at all! This is the card of a person who, on seeing that lion, says, “Allow me!”, rolls up their sleeves, shoves everyone out of the way, strides up and raps the beast on the nose. “Don’t you try to push me around!” they snap.

A lot of things are going to be happening fast, and the Querent is going to revel in and handle all of them. This will likely include trips – and the Querent will want to drive or fly him/herself, likely. Fast. No need to slow down or be impatient, with this card, you can really move, change, do.

Personal notes: Okay, so I need to add to my own understanding just a tad. I don’t feel I was wrong at all, but I ned to incorporate the fact that the time is now (which, incidentally, is a direct quote Indigo made yesterday during our visit at the park!). I also need to remember that this card can signal travel, messages, and that things happen rapidly. Interestingly enough, I made a comment yesterday about liking to take trips, and this morning, while I was pouring my coffee, I was missing some of the trips the kids and I used to take. We used to travel a lot – in part for business when I was doing public speaking, and in part for pleasure. Aside from my short weekend jaunts with T, I haven’t really gone anywhere lately, haven’t taken any trips, and I miss the whole “road trip” mindset. My mind’s eye can’t really see how that’s possible right now with my current schedule and school being back in session, but I’ve learned to trust that when the Universe has a will, it finds its way.

Okay, then… buckle up and brace yourself… whether it’s a physical trip or just the wave-riding through life, we’re in for an exciting ride!

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Had trouble sleeping last night – in part, due to a headache, and in part, due to thoughts buzzing in my head.  I guess it was around midnight when I finally crashed – and woke myself at six-thirty yelling, “It’s the last snooze!” – HA! The kids were already gone, which meant I’d hit the snooze button at least three times, and was planning to hit it a fourth apparently when I heard myself yell.  I guess my sub-conscious mind knew that my conscious mind wasn’t responding so it yelled at me. *LOL*

Strange schedule today.  I plan to get to work by 9:45 or 10 so I can eat breakfast before the day begins.  From 10:30-11:30 I’ll squeeze in my training hour, then I’m on the clock as a server from 11:30-6 p.m. which is odd.  I’ve never seen anyone scheduled out at six.  I mean, the scheduled out times are irrelevent anyway because they don’t let ya go ’til they’re good’n ready, which is usually an hour to two hours after your scheduled out time, not including sidework.  But six?  The earliest out-time I’ve seen scheduled during the last year is seven p.m., so why they have be scheduled out at 6 is beyond me. Tomorrow is a similar schedule, 11-8, not counting my training hour – then off Friday and Saturday.

Next week will be really weird.  My dad is coming to town… his first trip here in the four years I’ve been here.  He’ll be here Sunday night, so I put in a request for Monday off, in exchange for Friday.  Dad plans to be here through Tuesday afternoon, and I’m off that Tuesday – and then it’ll be back to work for Wed, Thur, Fri. I’m looking forward to seeing my dad.  There’ll be a whole lot of front porch sitting, coffee drinking, and philosophical chats. Oddly enough, he’ll be my mother’s house-guest while he’s here since I have no spare rooms or beds.  It’ll do Mom good to have the company!

I’m aware that I’ve allowed Monkey Mind to run wild lately, and I’m focusing this morning on puting the little beast back on his leash. I forget, sometimes, that there’s more to life than fear, worry, debt, exhaustion, trials, and tribulations.  I get caught up in the chaos, sucked into the whirlwind – and I forget to separate from Self, to step out of my skin and be the observer.  When I can successfully do that, pull away from the physical self and watch my own behavior from the outside looking in, then I can see how much more difficult I make things for myself. I can see myself behaving in ways that I wouldn’t tolerate from others.  I’m looking forward to going on auto-pilot today… staying busy, doing my job, earning what there is to earn, and am hoping to do some more studies when I get home.  I’m anxious to get the palmistry to the next level since all I’ve worked through so far is the instroduction on the disc.  It was a healthy introduction – covered history and basics, but there’s so much more – and I’m eager to learn.

And with that, I’m off to do the Daily Dose, hit the shower, and get the day going.

Life is good!


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Ya know, I don’t hesitate in the least to state when things are wrong.  I have no problem bitching about my finances, crying about broken dreams, fearing the unknown, being pissed off when things don’t go the way I want, or flat out whining over how tired I am from my job.  On the same token, however, I take great pleasure in offering my thanks to the Universe when things do go right, when dreams are renewed, when the path I thought had me lost leads me to new discoveries, or when energy surges re-supply my empty wells. Today was one of those days where blessings abound, and I’m here to offer my gratitude to the Universe.

One of my on-going themes lately, unknown to me for the most part, was that of friendship.  I’ve been hurt so many times, or told I’ve been a disappointment, that I’ve learned to isolate.  I’ve worked at my job for over a year and have been invited to all sorts of occasions and get togethers – birthday parties, weddings, graduations, girl’s night out, performances – or just the casual “let’s do lunch!”.  Yet, I have never been “out” with anyone from work. (Correction: I went once, to one birthday party – for metaphysical reasons. I took T with me, dropped off a gift, stayed all of fifteen minutes, then bolted out of there. Not my scene!).  I extend my thanks for the invite, then politely decline.  No room for that in my life.  I don’t drink, I don’t do drugs, I don’t party – I don’t even shop! I work, I come home to my kids, I write in my blog, I study my magick, I play with my dogs, I do laundry, run errands – and when life allows, I spend what time I can with T.  That’s it… that’s all I need.  Well, that’s what I told myself, anyway… but the Universe always knows better.

I’ve mentioned a specific woman here a few times now… a woman T introduced me to when he suggested I do a tarot reading for her.  She sent me the Faerie I’d posted this morning, as well as a card and other much appreciated gifts.  We’ve communicated by email a few times – and I knew there was a connection, but I resisted.  The other day, I’d drawn the Faerie Oracle “Making New Friends” – and promptly proceded to have a temper tantrum offering excuses as to why I absolutely, positively, without a doubt could not, should not, and would not “make new friends”.  But, in spite of me, this woman emailed me and asked if I’d be interested in getting together with her before her move to a neighboring state becomes final.  Hot diggedy dog, you betchya.  I surprised myself with my own eagerness, and yet there was an inner knowing, some Universal wisdom, some divine insight that told me there’s a mutual exchange supposed to take place.  Go with it.

We agreed to meet at the park today, an excellent choice.  Before going, I took the time to finally express what the Faerie she’d sent me meant… and named the Faerie “Hope Eternal”.  On the way to the park, I knew how I should refer to her here, since I don’t use anyone’s real name except my own.  I’d been wondering for a while what to call her, but nothing fit – nothing felt right.  But on the way to the park, with thoughts fluttering at high speed through my frazzled mind, it became clear as day.  This new friend I’ve made is called “Indigo”. 

Indigo, meet World.  World, meet Indigo.

As an added bonus, I had the joy of meeting the youngest of her three children, who from this point forth will be dubbed Sir Lancelot in my blog. He’s a noble knight – a warrior of seven earth years, but an old soul, a charmed spirit, and – with his unique sense of optimism and patient style, is a wonderful ally for humanity to have. I’m honored to have shaken his hand (Not once, but twice!).

Sir Lancelot was extremely generous in sharing his mother’s time and energy.  Not all kids are, ya know. He asked once if he could use the restroom.  Asked once if he could have a drink of water, and was so thoughtful that he gave his mother a “head’s up”… saying he wasn’t quite ready to go yet (after three hours!), but that he would be pretty soon.  Most excellent.  He was one of the most well behaved, self-contained children I’ve ever encountered.

Indigo and I covered a whole lot of territory in those three hours… a whole lot.  I cannot possibly express how good it felt to be able to just “let go”.  I didn’t have my guard up – not in any regard or context.  I wasn’t shielded, wasn’t bashful, wasn’t nervous, wasn’t fidgety – and it dawned on me at the end of those three hours that I never once smoked a cigarette.  Never even thought about it until right before I left when someone else lit one, I smelled it, and went, “Oh, yeah… HEY!” And then smiled at myself.  It wasn’t a conscious choice not to smoke.  As much as I’d like to flatter myself by saying I was being polite, I really wasn’t… it just didn’t occur to me to reach for the pack.  I think that speaks volumes about the calm, peaceful energy that was flowing between Indigo and I. 

And to be able to speak openly about things that would have most people suggesting an appointment with a therapist and have her actually understand them, connect to them, nod, agree, contribute to the conversation, relay her own stories… and not have to explain anything or try to justify myself, or offer up the preface, “this may sound weird, but…”  No… she gets it.  She’s a lot like me – a whole lot like me, and yet different enough that I can literally feel the exchange – the give and take – the sharing of energy and knowledge and wonder and excitement.

To be honest, I feel a bit selfish.  I can only tell one side of the story – my side – and I can only relay what I know I gained.  I NEEDED this connection.  I needed re-charged.  I needed encouragement.  I needed to feel support. I needed to hear someone say (and know they meant it), “Oh, I completely understand… and no, you’re not crazy!) I realized, right now, right here in this tear-filled moment, how much I’ve been missing by not letting anyone past my barriers, in keeping myself closed off to friendships.  That’s not to say I suddenly feel an urge to go hang with the work crew – ’cause I don’t – nor does it mean I want to form an instant ya-ya scenerio with a group of people.  But I do realize the value, the power, the “magick” that can come from having like minds and kindered spirits to share life’s experiences with.

I’m sure I dominated the conversation, but not with intent – I just got so super-charged, so excited about being able to share thoughts and ideas with someone who truly understands the plane on which I exist – who can see seedling ideas, can see me biting off more than I can chew, and who can say, “Whoah… yeah, you can do it, but smaller bites.  Try this…”

She helped me put a lot of things into perspective, helped me calm some sporatic energy, helped me see things in a new light.  Or, better yet, showed me what the world looks like through Indigo eyes.

I can only hope and pray that she gained something from the experience, too – ’cause I most certainly didn’t mean to tip the scale and be all about me.

And so, with that, I raise my arms out to the Universe to give it a hug and say thank you for blessing my life with such beautiful souls today.  I am truly grateful.

Life is good.


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I’m tardy, but better late than never… Spatulahandle tagged me, and it’s a good’n. So good, in fact, that I’m adding it to my “Know Thyself” category because I think I surprised my own self with some of my answers. I kept it real, though…

I am: therefore I think.
I think: therefore I am.
I know: not nearly as much as I once thought I did.
I have: wonderful opportunities wondering if I’ll embrace them.
I wish: everything wonderful and beautiful for my children.
I hate: the smell of seafood.
I miss: myself.
I fear: more than I should.
I hear: faeries singing
I smell: woodlands
I crave: T
I search: constantly
I wonder: who is watching me
I regret: nothing – there’s no such thing as accident, irony, chance, or luck.
I love: that’s it: I love. Period.
I ache: all frigging over!
I am not: alone
I believe: in magick and faeries.
I dance: to the beat of my own drum.
I sing:
my own songs
I cry: healthy tears
I fight: my own self
I win: because I don’t quit trying
I lose: when I lose hope
I never: say never
I always: look for the deeper meaning and underlying messages
I confuse: most everyone (*smirks*)
I listen: to what most people can’t hear
I can usually be found: nestled inside myself
I am scared: of things I shouldn’t be scared of.
I need:
to be loved (like the Fifth Element)
I am happy about: my chance to experience life with all of my senses
I imagine: most people think I’m nuts, but I’m cool with that.
I tag: I cheat. Rather than tag specific people, I’m leaving this one open… anyone who wants to play is invited.

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Artwork by Amy Brown

Artwork by Amy Brown

She’s been with me for several weeks now, poised gracefully atop my dresser, her gaze focused towards my bed where she watches over me as I sleep.

T had taken me to do a Tarot reading for a friend of his, and the woman and I “clicked”.  Her reading was powerful – not just for her, but for me as well.  A while after, I’d come home from work planning on heading out of town with T for the weekend, and when I arrived, I saw this Faerie on my kitchen table, propped up, so she could greet me as I walked through the door.  Behind her stood my two children, as if their energy was projecting the image in the artwork, making her larger than life.  Next to her, a card from the woman whose reading I’d done… the contents of which made me cry the good kind of tears.  Since then, I’ve chatted with the woman via email in short increments and she’s mentioned several times that she couldn’t wait to hear my reaction to the Faerie, yet I’ve not really shared much with her about that.  There’s reason.

This Faerie reached me in multiple ways and I couldn’t just say, “Oh, she’s beautiful” or “I really like it.”  No, there had to be more… but the “more” factor had to ferment.  I had to think it through.  I had to bond with the Faerie, “listen” to her, “understand” her, so I could relay what she really means to me…. and, by george, I think I’ve finally got it.

My first reaction when seeing her is that she’s a Yule Faerie, a Faerie of the winter.  This was clear to me not only by the colors of her dress and wings, but also by the Holly in her hair.  Let me extend my thoughts on the colors and the Holly.

The color of the base of the dress is a deep red, and red aligns with the Root chakra, one of my chakras that was out of balance according to my last chakra test. Here’s what I’d written about that on June 25th:

“Root Chakra- Under active – this is where my fear and nervousness are coming from.  If I’d like to feel more secure and confident, I should pay some attention to activating my root chakra.”

In the principles of Feng Shui, the color red corresponds with fire and stimulates acceleration, passion, and transformation.

The color, to me, then, represents a “grounding” of sorts, securing roots in fertile ground so their growth can accelerate. Secure roots in fertile ground allow the seed to transform to sprout… and from sprout to blossom.

Green corresponds to the heart chakra, and while mine was in an okay zone at 25% operational, that’s a bit low, really.  Ideally, it should be at 50%.  I’ve been dealing lately with a lot of matters dealing with the heart, so the green wings in this image flutter for me, much like my heart is currently fluttering.  A Faerie doesn’t need wings to fly… the wings are an extension of magick, and for me, that’s relevant in this image.  She’s telling me that my love (regardless of how I think about it, rationalize it, try to hide it, justify it, resist it) is an extension of my magick. Not just romantic love, but the way I love – my love of children, animals, nature, life – and yes, romantic love, too.  My love is an extension of my magick and I should embrace and celebrate that aspect of myself. If I could harness that power rather than fear it, it could raise me to new heights.

Green, according to Feng Shui, inspires new growth – so it’s a suiting color for the roots I spoke of above.  The green is the fertile ground needed for planting those roots.

The white highlights in her dress remind me of purity and innocence, of cleansing and renewal.

As for the Holly in her hair, Holly is known as an herb of protection and dream magick.  Fitting, then, that I’ve placed this Faerie in a location where she can watch over me as I sleep. Holly is also representative of beauty – and beauty is one of the Fairy Oracle Cards I’d been drawing repeatedly, bringing tears to my eyes each time I saw her.  Holly guards against lightening, evil spirits, poison, can be used as protection against wild animals, is used to protect babies (by sprinkling the infant with Holly water),  is said to aid with sleep and dreaming, and even guards against evil intent of witches (protection against spells).

Aside from her colors and Holly, I’m struck by the staff she holds.  In this aspect, holding her lantern, she reminds me of the Tarot Card, The Hermit.  The Hermit is a beautiful card because while it does indicate a bit of withdrawland isolation, it’s with purpose and good intent.  The Hermit is searching for deeper meanings, higher truths, and for this true path, his Divine Self.  It’s enlightenment he seeks by drawing into his own cave.  The expression on this Faerie’s face furthers the connection with the Hermit, as she seems to be seeking something, pensive, thoughtful. I wrote a poem a long time ago called The Hermit’s Cave, and this Faerie has caused me to revisit that poem, reading it with new appreciation.

As a Yule Faerie, she is the promise of spring, she foretells the return of the Sun King and heralds the end of Winter’s freeze.  She comforts by offering a reminder that the chill and darkness of winter are nearing their end and that new life will soon spring forth.  In the meantime, she extends her lantern of hope. The seasons don’t only apply to the earth’s cycles, but internally, spiritually, personally.  I think my soul has been stuck in winter for entirely too long… it reminds me of Jack Frost, or the “fairy tales” where wicked sorcerers and sorceresses try to make winter last forever.

She reminds me that life moves in cyclical patterns – everything is part of a greater cycle, including my own personal evolution.  She asks me not to give up in times of darkness, not to be consumed by the cold – and she calls out to me, “You are not alone.”

So what is my reaction to this Faerie? Profound.

She is a light in the darkness.
She is warmth in the cold of night.
She is fertile ground for new seeds to take root.
She is inspiration.
She is protection.
She is a soother of sleep
And a bringer of dreams.
She is a promise…

She is…

Hope Eternal.

Much deeply heart-felt thanks to the friend who blessed me with this Faerie, and to Amy Brown for bringing her to light. I am touched by her magick.

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This is the same card I drew yesterday, which means she is really hot on my heels! *LOL* – only yesterday she was inverted, and today she’s upright.

Due to lack of time, I’m simply going to link to yesterday’s post with its original insights and the card image.

Click here for more on Visualization

Ran out of time, can’t finish the Daily Dose with the day’s correspondences. 

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Page of Swords

Page of Swords


Pages, if I’m not mistaken, are the messengers – delivering messages, so unexpected news may be arriving.

Swords represent the element of Air, thought, and intillect – logic, and reason.

The keywords that come to mind when I see this card are flexibility and preparedness.  This page, although holding a sword, does not look as if he’s prepared to strike, but instead, looks almost as if he’s striking a pose, or dancing.  There are clouds around him, but to me, they look almost like a “mist”, as if to say there are forces at work, change in progress.

I’m floundering a bit with this card this morning, second guessing myself, and I’m not sure why.  Generally, I associate it to Taurus energy, and a tendency to be work oriented (almost to a fault).  In readings, I usually caution against workaholic tendencies and remind the person to remain flexible.  The story I often associate with this card is that of a tree.  If a tree tries to resist wind when the wind blows, it will snap.  If it tries to hold it’s position when the wind blows, it will break.  However, if the tree is flexible and able to bend with the currents of the wind, it will survive the storm. Be flexible and bend like the tree in the wind, and keep the mind open to new possibilities.  Be prepared… change is in the air.

Now… because I’ve second guessed myself today (which is exactly why I do the Daily Dose… to LEARN as much as to get a grasp on the day’s influences), I’m extremely curious to see what the other sources say:

Here’s from Solitary Witch: Book of Shadows for the Next Generation by Silver Raven Wolf:

Messages of a fact-finding nature. Young, intelligent individual. A flair for secrets and spying. Individual with an impressive network that can relay information.

Here’s from LearnTarot.com:

Use Your Mind
analyze the problem
use logic and reason
reexamine beliefs
develop an idea or plan
study or research the facts
learn or teach
think everything through
Be Truthful
act honestly
face the facts
stop deceiving
clear up any confusion
expose what is hidden
speak directly 
Be Just
right a wrong
act ethically
treat others equally
champion a cause
try to be fair
do what you know is right
accept responsibility
acknowledge the other point of view 
Have Fortitude
face problems squarely
refuse to be discouraged
meet setbacks with renewed energy
keep a firm resolve
move out of depression
keep your chin up and head high

keep trying

The Page of Swords is a messenger bringing you challenges. He suggests that an opportunity for growth may come your way in the guise of a problem or dilemma. These challenges may not be your favorites. In fact, you probably will want to say “Thanks…but no thanks.”

The Page of Swords asks you to embrace these difficult situations. Think of them as trials designed to test your mettle. If you accept and prevail, you will become stronger and more resilient. In meeting these challenges, you are encouraged to use the tools of the Swords suit – honest, reason, integrity and fortitude.

The Page of Swords can also stand for a child or young-at-heart adult whose interactions with you involve truthfulness, ethical behavior, discouragement or matters of the mind. This relationship is likely to be troubled or difficult in keeping with the challenges of the Swords suit.

Sometimes the Page of Swords implies that your entire situation is one suffused with the spirit of learning, discovery, and mental activities of all kinds. At such times, use your mind and enjoy the delights of the intellect.

And from AeclecticTarot:


The first court cards are the Pages/Princesses. It is always best to imagine them as young, and with a letter or scroll in hand or on their person. The element of the pages is “Earth” indicating something young, growing, a seed planted. So the Page of Wands would be “Earth of Fire” – the seed of fire, so to speak. The spark. Pages most often stand for children, though they can also be said to be the “Fool’s” alter ego. So, an adult who is child-like enough might also be a page. The Querent, if starting something very new and fresh might also be said to be “The Page” – in this case, a kind of apprentice. Deck-wise, if a Page, they can be male or female. If a Princess, likely a female young person; the prince will be the male young person.

When no children seem to be involved (the person you’re reading for is childless, has no friends with kids, etc.), then the Pages can indicate that the Querent is about to receive a message. The purpose of a page, after all, is to deliver messages. In this case:

Page of Swords

A message relating to a problem either solved or ending badly, or a message that gives one an idea or solution. Sometimes about illness. Sometimes rumor or gossip – in which case, check it out carefully, it might be false.

Page of Swords

You can’t shut up this kid. “Why? Why? Why?” he/she’s always asking. And even more alarming, anything they hear, they’ll repeat, just blurt it out in front of people. They’ll go up to Aunt Hazel and say, “Are you carrying a baby? Mommy says it looks like you are….” On the positive side, this kid could be quite a brain, good at puzzles, quick to learn. And they already know how to use the computer better than you do. Likeable, but also the most aggravating of kids because whatever you tell them to do, they’ll argue about it. You have to watch that they don’t become “know-it-alls” or tattletales.

Personal Notes: Well, I can connect a few things from the sources to what I’m currently going through. I am shifting back into a learning phase, and coming out of a depression. That’s a familiar cycle for me. The depression strikes when I feel “bored”, or have a complete lack of interest in learning anything new. When creativity is blocked, the muse goes on strike, and I feel completely uninspired. Then, something in me sparks, I get the hunger for knowledge again. I drink in as much knowledge as I can, studying a particular topic or starting a new project. Once the knowledge-drinking phase comes to a close, the creativity begins as I start to put into practice what I’ve learned.

I have been mentally lazy, there’s no doubt about that – and I think everything I’ve written in my blog to date shows that pretty clearly. I am learning to think things through, and to exist on more of a mental plane.

There’s not really anything I’ve been dishonest about or hiding, other than the fact that I have not completely and openly expressed my feelings in certain situations.  I’m not hiding them, so to speak.  In fact, I wear them pretty much on my sleeve – but vocalizing them has been a challenge for me and I keep my emotions well guarded – not so much because I feel vulnerable or like I may be hurt, but because I’m not completely confident in that other people need to hear what I have to say.  I don’t want to change the dynamics of a situation by “unloading” something on someone when they’re not ready to bear the weight of it.  July’s reading told me point blank to speak what I feel… and quite honestly, I was rigid and refused.  I came close once… and then backed out because of what I sensed coming from the other person. (blah blah blah)

I did just write about studying palmistry, so I’m sure that’s part of what’s being expressed here – but maybe I’m being cautioned not to talk about that too much.  When I get excited over something, I tend to talk about it a lot, to share what I’ve learned, because sharing it helps “cement” it in my mind… but it can get annoying to other people, I’m sure.

The source definitions remind me a bit of two of my three children.  Atlas was the one who always knew everything.  In his younger years, hanging out with him was like trying to have a conversation with an encyclopedia.  And Stinkerbelle is the one with the tattle-tale tendencies, the one who can’t keep a secret or who is subject to gossip. Maybe I need to look for reflections of those aspects within myself.

Will have to spend some more time with this card later.  I’m bothered that it seems so perplexing to me today when normally I’ve had no problem with it.

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Worked a total of 13 hours yesterday.  Left the house at 7 a.m. and didn’t get home until 10 p.m. – such a long day, but a decent one.  The kids had cleaned the house while I was at work, and I walked through the door to find them holding a birthday cake.  I made a wish, blew out the candles, and we sat on the couch for about twenty minutes whoofing down cake and chatting.

I’ve got another long one today – I’m on the schedule from 11 a.m. – 8 p.m., but I’m due in an hour early to begin certification training to become a trainer at work.  Eight hour long classes, then an eight hour seminar, then a long, difficult test.  I got to thinking yesterday about an odd connection.  Each time I’ve wounded myself at work and required stitches, I was trying to advance in my job.  The first time, I was actually planning to cross train in all departments, starting with prep cook.  Once trained in all departments, I’d qualify for management positions.  When I was working as a prep cook, my hand slipped one day while I was slicing roast beef and I all but severed a portion of my thumb.  That incident took nine stitches and six weeks to recover.  When I went back to work, they wouldn’t allow me to go back into the prep cook position and I decided I no longer wanted to cross train and work towards a management position.  This time, it’s a small advancement – becoming a skill trainer, training the new employees – and it was a smaller injury, just three stitches and a week.  Maybe I’m just not meant to be trying to advance at this job? *smirks*

Looking forward to Tuesday. I’m meeting a friend at the park.  It’s been a long, long time since I’ve met a friend anywhere… and I think her suggestion of the park was perfect.  I don’t get outside enough.

Began my studies on palmistry.  I do believe it’ll come quite naturally to me once I learn the basics.  I’m using a computer program at the moment, and when I’m finished working my way through that, I’ll begin turning to the books and cross-referencing information.

Dreamed last night, but most of it has faded.  I remember going in for a massage… not just for comfort and pleasure, but for almost medical reasons – like, I’m pretty sure I remember talking about Reiki and chakra balancing and restoring my energy centers, etc. – so it was a metaphysical dream, but the details have faded.

Have had a headache for days, now.  It comes on and lasts for about two or three days, then fades out for two or three days, then comes on again.  Maybe I’m not drinking enough water.

Time is short, I’ve got the Daily Dose to do, then a few phone calls to make before shower and work.  I try to do my Tarot/Correspondence studies in the mornings and aim to do palmistry studies in the evenings after work.

I need to learn to do a better job at time management.  I’m always thinking of the things I wish I had time to do, or feeling guilty over the things I feel I should be doing and can’t. *sigh*

Nonetheless, Life is Good.


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Today is:
August 10, 2008

*Turning of Age

*Neither planting or harvest day

Today’s Tarot: Six of Swords
Today’s Fairy Oracle: Vizualization, Inverted

Governed by the Sun – Healing, spirituality, success, strength, protection

yellow, orange, gold, amber

The Moon:
Second quarter waxing in Sagittarius

Waxing Moon: Waxing moon is where the moon is growing in the sky. Each night for two full weeks she grows in light, getting bigger and bigger in the sky until she reaches full moon. During the two weeks that the moon is waxing, it’s the best time for trying to draw things to you, encourage growth, or to “magnify” certain things in your life. Want your nails to grow longer? File them while the moon is waxing. Want your hair to grow faster? Trim it during waxing moon. Want to increase your finances? Focus your energies on improving finances during waxing moon. Waxing moon is the best time for starting new things, seeking new employment, or establishing “gain” in any area of your life. (but remember, the zodiac position of the moon is also influencial, so reference where the moon is in the zodiac prior to working any magick).

When the moon is waxing, we feel more positive, more energized, more outgoing.

Moon in Sagittarius: *Encourages confidence and flights of imagination. This is an adventurous, philosophical, and athletic Moon sign. Favors expansion and growth. (Ties in well with today’s Tarot and Fairy Oracle, dontchya think?)

*Source: Llewellyn’s Witches’ Datebook 2008

The Sun:
Leo, The Lion

The Sun Rules the Sign of Leo

  • On the downside: You may have a heavy ego, and you can be arrogant, vain, and extravagant.
  • Your good qualities include: A strong vitality, honorable, creative, generous, dignified.
  • Developing your own self identity and mode of creative energy expression will be your ongoing life’s work.

Leo has a great deal of self confidence but they also have a great fear of being ridiculed and made to feel disgraced. While Leo is very affectionate there is a tendency to have things their way and may rapidly lose interest if they are challenged too often for the leading role. They will have to learn to discipline themselves against their overall enthusiasm for living life to the fullest, which is to say, dangerously on the edge. The creative urge in Leos should never be stifled as to do so a good deal of potential will be wasted.

Leos are found as painters, actors, or sculptors; but not all Leos are in the public arts, no, rather they can be found in the throes of creation doing their projects on the kitchen table. They have an infectious vitality that lights up their lives like an inner sun and illuminates not only their lives, but the lives of those around them. Lack of fulfillment in life, professionally or personally, can destroy these bright and shinning people and cloud their personalities.Leos need control in their lives to be really satisfied so organization is absolutely essential to their peace of mind.

A leo should cultivate a flexible mind as they do not always ‘know best’.

Only when this trait is cultivated can the characteristic Leonine warmth, generosity, and desire to really understand others be fully indulged.

The lions love and adore children as they bring out the inner child. Leos are surprisingly sensitive and easily hurt, but they do have a tendency to dominate and this should never be underestimated. It is always meant well as they only want to bring out the best in the people they care about, or work with. They also tend toward impatience and they should make curbing these traits a lifelong objective. Born leaders, they can take command of a situation in any emergency and see it through to its completion. The enthusiams they acquired in childhood will generally last a lifetime and may even dictate the career one would choose.

They can be too status conscious, causing themselves much anguish when, or if, they cannot keep up with others in their immediate circle. They can also be quite overbearing and vain when they feel they are being challenged. On the other hand, the lions make great lovers and parents, giving more to a relationship than most of the other signs. They are good honorable persons and good providers.

Source: http://www.starlightastrology.com/leo-sun.htm

Today’s Horoscope for Leo:

Today, you should focus on meeting people and on building some new relationships.

Change is in the air and you’re enjoying what you see. It’s a good time to take the lead and try to steer things in a direction that you find more amenable. Your friends look to you for answers.

Daily Extended
Today, you should focus on meeting people and on building new relationships — your current ones are all doing well enough to be left alone for a while. You have the right amount of curiosity for what makes other people tick right now, and you know just the right questions to ask. Plus, your easygoing manner will help them loosen up and really be themselves. So if you’re torn between hanging out with an old friend or going to a gathering where you can meet someone new, opt for the newness.

Daily Flirt:
Sometimes, one little change can have a huge impact — and you’re right tin the middle of one! It’s pretty sweet to see your life rearrange itself, and you can tell that it’s almost all for the best!

Daily Couples:
You’ve got the travel bug, and you’ve got it bad! Spend some time pouring over the travel section of the paper with your sweetie and start planning that dream vacation together.

Daily Singles:
Pursuing someone new can be thrilling and scary at the same time. While you desire a totally fiery romance, take your time exploring what turns them on and off. There’s no rush to get to the finish line. Enjoy discovering where their passion lies.

Career & Finance:
Everyone needs a pat on the back every once in a while. If you saw someone slacking off you wouldn’t mince words. So don’t hold back on the praise, either. In fact, be downright magnanimous with it.

Source: http://shine.yahoo.com/astrology/

The horoscope aligns quite nicely with today’s Tarot card, including the need for travel!

Other Planetary Shifts:
Mercury enters Virgo at 5:51 a.m. US Central

Mercury in Virgo gives an intelligent, strong, versatile and analytical mind with great powers to attend to detail. You have a good memory and the ability to think practically and constructively. Your mental disposition is well-suited to demanding intellectual work and you may find success in fields such as science, teaching, administration or in jobs requiring detailed analytical ability. There is some predisposition to nervous excitement, headaches and needless worry over trivial matters.

Source: http://www.astrologyweekly.com/learn-astrology/mercury-in-virgo.php

With Mercury in Virgo you’re practical, logical, quick, precise, and have fine attention to detail as well as good common sense. Although Mercury rules Virgo and is thus strongly placed in this sign of discrimination, you must not forget that the world you live in is governed by emotions, prejudice and self-interest, not by logic. Be careful of getting bogged down on the small stuff or criticism in your relationships. You tend to be honest and a good speaker, but also intolerant of minds that are not as good as your own.

Source: http://www.myastrologybook.com/Mercury-in-Virgo-all-about-Virgo-Mercury.htm

Mercury will enter its own sign and exaltation, Virgo, on August 10th. This is great news for Mercury, which has been in a relatively weak position since it left Gemini in early July. But Mercury could not be any happier than it is in Virgo, a mutable/double earth sign, where the Trickster gets to apply all he’s learned to the real world. Mercury is right at home in mundane affairs, indeed. The only problem is that he rarely looks at the big picture, so busy is he running to and fro.
Source: http://gryphonastrology.com/blog/2008/07/30/mercury-in-virgo-august-10-august-30-best-location-all-year/

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