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You’ve been warned: this is really, really long – and packed with all sorts of stuff you may or may not find interesting and/or… well… (*winks at Indigo*)… off the beaten path. What I ask you to keep in mind, should you choose to keep reading, is that this blog, these posts, are a part of my own personal journey and are being recorded for my own personal reflection, learning, and evalutaion.  I am not writing “for the reader”.  In posts like this, I could care less about my spelling, punctuation, verbage, or anything else.  The purpose here is for me to document events so I can come back to them later.  However, you’re more than welcome to join me on the journey and read along.

~*~

Have you ever seen a hungry baby gulp at a bottle so vivaciously that it actually gags and chokes? Ya gotta pull the nipple out of the mouth, tilt the baby upward, give it a pat or two on the back, and advise it to slow down? Gulp? Gasp? Cough? Yeah… that’s me right now, sucking on the nipple of life.

Oh, yeah. I went there.

My dog, Sirius, has a skin condition. I kid you not, he’s allergic to himself. No, seriously, he is – the vet said so. Anyway, he gets into these itch fits, these scratching frenzies where he gets so excited by the feel good of the itch being scratched that he hyperventilates. Gulp? Gasp? Cough? Yeah… that’s me right now, being thoroughlly scratched by the Universe in the most pleasing ways.

So I’ve been gone for a while. What’s up with that? Lots, really. Many strange things have been taking place in Wendiland, and tonight, the pieces of the puzzle are all fitting together. It feels as if I’ve finally, and quite suddenly, with much adeu, been given the key to the door I’ve been ramming my head against for the past 36 years.

Let’s pause to take note here that the number 36 is so much more HUGELY significant to me than I realized. Connecting dots… I’ve made a big deal about turning 36, right? If I remember correctly, and I was smart enough to have BLOGGED IT for RECORD!!! – I did say that this was going to be a major turning point for me – that it felt like the wallpaper of the world around me was peeling. I sensed change on a grand scale. Remember? If not, check the archives – it’s in there… in abundance, repeatedly.

Yes, I know I’m on hyper mode and typing like a spaz, but the thoughts are so hard-hitting and at such rapid speeds that my mind is having trouble organizing them and my fingers are frantically trying to articulate. Just bear with me, it’ll all make sense by the end of the post — if not to you, then it will to me, and that’s my purpose for recording it.

*takes a big, fat breath in*

Okay. Let’s digress a bit. The last time I posted was the night my dad arrived. He was here for two days and we did a lot of front porch sitting, coffee drinking, philosophising? No, that can’t be a word. Ah, hell with it, I’m keeping it. *LOL* – So we talked about deep, philosophical things. The theme seemed to be that of responsibility, transformation, coming into oneself, awareness, enlightenment, and in honoring the gifts I’ve been given (Thank you, Dad, for validating me and seeing me for who and what I am instead of what you’d hoped I’d become).

Just before Dad arrived, I wrote about a bizarre event that happened on my front porch that was so literally out of this world that I couldn’t go into detail. I noted it, moved on. Just after Dad left, more “weird” started unfolding.

Weird event #1: The Snake.
I called home one afternoon from work to check on the kids. They told me they’d just finished catching a snake inside the house. Where inside the house? MY ROOM! They studied it for a good long while as they chased it through the house trying to catch it. They got a good scope of its size, color, markings, etc. – They successfully caught it by using absolute genius coupled with a garbage can and a trash bag, and released it outside.

Contrary to what most assume of the snake thanks to the whole Adam and Eve fiasco, snakes actually represent magick and initiation. They are knowledge, ancient wisdom, and an invitation to raise the bar, so to speak, metaphysically. I was honored the snake chose to visit my room (although admitedly glad they caught it and escorted it back to its natural habitat).

Yesterday, I phoned home from work… and guess what? Same snake… inside the house, this time in my daughter’s room. They were positive it was the exact same snake. Harmless… a rat snake, but a return visit. Weird?

Weird 2: The Spider
Yesterday morning as I was getting ready for work, I noticed a rather large spider on my bedroom wall, just above my dresser where Hope Eternal (my faerie gift from Indigo) sits. I actually audibly verbalized, “Oh, hello. Okay if I take your picture?” The spider sat still while I snapped about six shots of it, flash and all, including close ups. I left the spider where it was and went to work. I mentioned it briefly to my son when I got home, but no one had seen it. This morning, it was back… higher up on the wall, more to the right. While I was at work tonight, my son spotted it and, as with the snake, escorted it back outside.

Spiders indicate creativity, writing, and weaving truths. They are goddess energy that indicate a raising of the veil, so to speak.

So the Animal Messages are coming through loud and clear, yes?

Werid 3: Energy blow-outs
Over the past three days, there’ve been some majorly weird energy fluxes going on. We’ve lost power in the house about three times – only “flashes” or “bursts” where it surges out, then pops back on – making every major and minor appliance beep like an alarm. Yesterday, my iphone completely spazzed, freezing on a pure white screen. It was out for hours before my son was able to tutor me through resetting it. And the net? Forget about it. There’s been absolutely no net connection whatsoever.

Weird 4: The doggy-sitter
Every morning, before the kids leave for school, they take all four dogs out to the kennel. This morning, my dog refused to go. I didn’t think much of it – at all, really – until I’d gotten home and my son came into my room and copped a squat on my bed. Here’s how that conversation went:

“Mom? Did anything weird happen with you last night?”

“What do you mean by weird? We are talking about me, ya know.”

“Well, did you go somewhere?”

“Uh… no. I was right here, remember? Came home from work and spent time on the numerology charts. You were here, you know I didn’t go anywhere.”

He gives me “the look”.

“That’s not what I mean, Mom. I didn’t mean physically. I mean astrally – while you were sleeping. Did something happen? Did you go somewhere?”

“Actually, now that you mention it, I think I did… but I don’t remember much. Why?”

Now here’s some background history to fill in the blanks. My dog, Sirius, one of four, sleeps in my room on the floor next to my bed. He’s my “familiar”, if you will. My guardian. However, when it’s time to go to the magick land of “outside”, or when it comes to treats, the dog doesn’t hesitate to bolt and leave me where I lie. This morning, when Rhythm came in to invite the dog out, the dog refused to go. My son tried again, with the “come on, it’ll be fun!” voice, and the dog turned his head away from my son, towards me. My son seemed to pick up on something at that point, realizing that the dog was communicating a message to him. Nonetheless, my son persisted, knowing I’d nag if the dogs weren’t put out properly, so he moved forward toward the dog to “assist” him with getting up. The dog growled.

My son looked at me, then at the dog. He tried again: “Sirius, Come!” this time using the “Or else!” voice. The dog growled.

When the dog growled the second time, according to my son, I sat half-way up in bed and in a stern voice shouted, “Sirius, go! NOW!”

Apparently, the dog and the boy looked at each other, both knowing something wasn’t right. If I am not fully awake and in a completely upright position with eyes open and requesting coffee, then whatever words come out of my mouth are NOT going to make sense.

Yes, I talk in my sleep… and it usually sounds crazy, such as me telling the kids to get the tractor out of Mammaw’s driveway. No, my mother doesn’t have a tractor. Get the drift? So for me to have been responding coherently to the situation when I was not coherent let the dog and the boy both know that something in Wendiland was amuck. (ignore my spelling, I don’t care about it right now).

Rhythm said to Sirius, “Okay, Buddy. I see your point. You have a job to do. Stay here and watch over her. I’m going to school.”

Obviously, I went on a bit of a “walk-about” in my sleep last night.

Tying it all together: Numerology

So we now know that Indigo gifted me with funds for new books weeks before my 36th birthday, and unrelated to my turning of age. Hers was a thank you gift for a Tarot reading I’d done for her. However, it wasn’t until days after my 36th birthday that I purchased the books — one of them a “surprise even for me” kind of purchase – a book on Numerology.

Well, since I couldn’t get online and fiddle-fart around with blog posts or website building, I decided to crack open that numerology book and give it a go.

Oh, hello?!

That was it… once the cover was opened, I was a changed person. It’s THAT significant. I will never again be the same. I cannot believe (wait a minute, yes I can) that I’ve gone 36 years without this information.

Now… there’s that number again: 36. Let me tell you why it turns out that is such a significant number.

Short lesson: All of life flows through the basic cycles of 1 – 9, the single digits. Infinite numbers, only 9 single digits. All 2 digit numbers (or higher) are added together and reduced to one of the nine single digits.

Example: 27

2 + 7 = 9

Example: 48

4 + 8 = 12 (and then again) 1 + 2 = 3.

Well, 36 is significant lots of times over. In the basic reduction process, 3 + 6 = 9. By turning 36, I’m completing one full cycle and getting ready to start over at 1.

This book I’m reading isn’t just numerology in general, it’s about this magnificent thing called The Divine Triangle. The theory in this book is that our life path travels a course that creates a series of squares that form themselves around a right triangle, and a cross. We enter the physical world through the top of the cross. From ages 0-9, we take a hard left and travel a straight line. At age 9, we turn downward and travel another line for 9 years. At age 18, we take a hard right, where we travel another straight line for nine years, to age 27 – and meet, for the first time in the journey, the center of our life-force. The first square is then formed.  This is the square of Youth where we learn who we are.

At age 27, we turn downward again, for another 9 years…. and then we take a sharp right at — what age? *nods* That’s right, 36.

Each of these 9 year cycles, these straight-line paths that we take, are different life lessons, part of our evolution. The first square that we create between ages 0 and 27 is the square of Youth. Then, between the ages of 27 and 54, we create the second of three squares: The Square of Power. It is here that we learn to acquire “things” and enjoy the material benefits of inhabiting earthy bodies. It is here that we establish what we are capable of – our personal power. In squre one we discover who we are; and in square two, we discover what we can do! And here I am… completing the first line in the second square, at the turning point to make the next 9 year journey.

Now I understand why people have been removed from my space. Now I understand why technology shut down. Now I understand why portals have been opening, and why information has been flooding in. I was 100% right… I am at a turning point, and CHANGE is more of a key focus than I realized… not just for this current phase I’m in, but as a lifetime attribute.

Yes, I said attribute.

I needed time to think. I needed time to study. I needed to be free from all distractions so that I could focus and really “get it”.

I hesitate to put this all in one post, especially in the sporradic and likely seemingly “crazy” way it’s all being dispursed, but I’m afraid the net connection won’t last and I won’t be able to post again, so I have no choice but to document it all at once if I want it documented at all.

Now… for the past four days, I’ve been sucking on this book, hand-writing notes like you wouldn’t believe. And I don’t just read and take notes. I’m one of those that immediately puts into practice what I’m learning. I learn quickly, and I learn by doing. That being said, I’ve been accumulating numerology charts for myself and each of my three children as “practice”. I’m gobsmacked at the results. Wow.

Don’t worry, I’m not going to post the entire six-page report I’ve already accumulated for myself. However, I do think it’s beyond important that I include the “nutshell” version.

What I’m working with here is four numbers:

Life Lesson Number (determined by birthday)
Soul Number (determined by the vowels in the name)
Outer Personality Number (determined by the consonants in the name)
Path of Destiny Number (by combining the Soul Number and Outer Personality Number, or, by using all of the letters in the name).

The name MUST be the name given at birth, so my current name wasn’t used.

I studied the number code, followed the steps for each number (doing all the long math and translations with instructions on paper each step of the way for practice and study), and wrote the definition for each of the four numbers. Next, I typed out everything… six pages worth, then “cut and pasted” those definitions (separating them from the tutorial process of finding them in the first place) into one summary…

Here’s a look at me, in a nutshell, according to the first basic steps in understanding The Divine Triangle through numerology and geometry:

Condensed Summary:

You are very conscientious in regard to duty. You are well aware of the law of the trinity, and know that inspiration and imagination will bring the best results when used to help others. This could easily become your philosophy of life. Follow your urge to create and expand the activities that interest you. You seek happiness and find it in making others happy. If a person feels depressed, a visit with you will bring them hope and courage. Expand your ideals by dedicating yourself to the expression of good cheer and optimism. Work to make your dreams come true, but not to the extreme of becoming impractical. Love is important to you – both in giving and receiving – but try to hold on to reason in your loving expansiveness. You become happy and well adjusted by making others happy.

You are an inspiration to others who see you in a refinement and an artistic genius which moves their very soul. Avant-garde art is your preference and you seem to epitomize unusual and innovative techniques. Recognition and fame may very likely be bestowed upon you because of artistic or humanitarian endeavors. You appear to be the visionary who believes in equal opportunity for all – regardless of sex, race, creed, or color. Your idealism can degenerate into egocentricity in which case your many talents are dissipated or lie fallow. Your mind then seeks unhealthy outlets for its genius which can bring notoriety. Your eyes emit a spiritual light that can inspire others to achieve their potential, as they witness what you have done. Your dress is original in style and you may design your own clothes because you have the artistic flair and inventiveness to do so, and you prefer to be different.

You appear quiet and modest and seem to need a peaceful environment in which to live. You are fussy about details; neatness and cleanliness are a must. Rather than make a big entrance, you prefer to remain in the background, working behind the scenes or in cooperation with others. You are attractive and popular with the opposite sex. This is partly due to your desire for companionship and harmony which prompts you to indulge others. You seem incomplete by yourself. You can appear to be restless and dissatisfied with conditions because of the mental balancing you perform on every situation. You may have difficulty in making decisions because both sides are so clear to you. On occasion, you can display a temper and use cutting words. You dress neatly and inconspicuously, preferring a balanced, pleasing look. You should choose easy to wear styles of clothing that reflect your more passive and artistic nature.

Many changes occur in your life, and your mission might well be to promote progress through a willingness to accept change. You are definitely not keyed to the old order or to outworn ideas and set principles. You are willing to adopt new concepts and new points of understanding, even to the extent of daring to claim the liberty to suggest new ways of doing things, and you have the ability to present the new in logical and acceptable terms. You make stepping stones of changes and cleverly turn them into growth experiences. You do not, however, forget conventions since you are really not a rebel. Instead, you propose new ideas to promote enlightenment; you have the courage and willingness to let go of the old and experiment with the new. You are very fluent and expressive with words and could find writing, lecturing, or selling the perfect outlet for these talents.

 

 

 

 

Those of you who know me do not need me to tell you how pin-pointedly accurate this is! And it pretty much jerks me right out of that self-doubt phase I’ve been in, questioning my own personality and the course I’m taking in life.

I’m sure I could have included more here, because so much has been going on – on so many levels, but I’ve been long-winded enough and it’s way past my bed-time.  I just had to record the events as they’re unfolding.

Oh, yeah… and I can’t close out without referencing the book and including the the major WENDI RECOMMENDS THIS promo for the book whose praise I’ve been singing in this entire post.

Numerology and The Divine Triangle by Faith Javane and Dusty Bunker ISBN# 0-914918-10-9

copyright 1979

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Intro: A kind and wise man once said to me: “For everything, there is a reason – whether for a lifetime, or just a season.”  As the seasons change – physically and spiritually, and as certain losses appear to be inevitable, these words echoed in my head as I drove to work in silence this morning.  Tonight, I’d gone to bed, but woke up to pen these thoughts.

 

No longer a sprout,
No more a fledgling,
The leaf reflected on her prime –
Not yet knowing
The best was now behind.

Change was in the air, she knew;
Yet, she was seemingly unaware
of the magnitude.

Unaware of underlying vibrations –
Yet, completely attuned
To the abundant beauty that is
Life and Love
On Earth.

The sky’s once pastel hues
Of soft pinks and powdery blues
Had evolved to burning embers of
Fiery orange and flaming licks of lavender.

While sky smoldered,
Earth cooled –
Breezes danced on air,
Carrying crisp scents of apple
And pumpkin spice.

“Life is good,”
Thought the Autumn Leaf.

The birds that once flourished in her presence,
The caterpillars that fed from her
Were now few and far between,
Yet she wasn’t at all lonely
Because the squirrels came out
To gather and store for a future
They were all too aware of,
Even if she was blind to their truths.

She clung to her tree,
Evaluating herself and her being –
Her place in the Universe,
Taking stock of the changes
She’d endured – and proud
Oh, so proud, of how she, too,
had evolved and flourished.

Her colors changed, she’d noticed –
A copper tone much different than
Her earlier greens – but she was open
To change and accepting of circumstance,
Happy to be a part of life,
Eager to flow with the seasons of change –
Even if that meant a few wrinkles
And dryer skin.

But the sky grew dark
And the nights became long
And she became aware.

She became aware,
But there was nothing she could do
To change the course of destiny…
To alter her existence –
She was what she was…
And what would be would be.

And then one morning,
When the air had become cold and frigid,
When the sun’s fire was extinguished by
A veil of gray clouds,
And the winds whipped
And the rains came,
She reached for the Tree,
But the tree closed its eyes,
Turning its head from her.

The vibrations of change permeated her being.
She thought she was an extension of the tree –
A part of its being, a piece to the whole,
A compliment to its existence
But the tree, knowing better, gave one final rattle,
Shaking her violently with truths
She could no longer deny.

She was, after all,
Only a leaf
amidst an Autumn Sunrise.

In spite of her efforts,
She’d been shaken loose.

On her decent, she took one final moment
To evaluate what had been, and –
In spite of herself
She’d decided
That life was indeed good

And she was still graTeful

Silently, she drifts to the ground –
Returning to earth
-dust to dust –
As Autumn unfolds
and Winter prepares
to set in
Without her.

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So my dad is here.  I got the first phone call just before I clocked in at work that he was later leaving Arkansas than he thought he’d be, and should be arriving near 7 or 8 p.m. – and at about 7:30, I got the text message from the kids… “He’s here.”

I’d traded out my station at work, forfeiting the “sure thing” money to become breaker for the night.  This meant I would “babysit” other server’s stations while they went to eat.  It was a dent in the pocketbook, for sure, but the up-side to it was that I’d have no sidework, wouldn’t have to roll silverware, and by all accounts, SHOULD have made it out of the building by 8 o’clock.  Didn’t work quite that way and it was after nine when I called home, “I’m on my way.”  It was ten o’clock when I pulled into the driveway.

I thought it was incredibly generous of my mother to allow my dad to stay with her.  They’ve been divorced for eons, but they still get along.  She even went so far as to cook him a nice dinner, bake cookies, and put on her “good clothes”.  I’m absolutely certain her sudden attempts at being the charming hostess had nothing at all to do with him, but moreso her desire to “show him” how good she’s done on her own.  Whatever.

When I went next door, Mom let me in and Dad stood up for a hug, “Here I am, Daugher”, he announced in his bellowing giant-like voice. “I made it! Isn’t this something? I am where you are!”

I could have cried.  I love the way my dad thinks.  I love his boyish nature, coupled with his incredible wisdom, all packed into yet stretched out through his 6’6” frame.  He’s such a loving soul.  Mom immediately told me she left me a buffet, so I began helping myself to the left over roast beef, mashed potatoes, and corn.  But then I noticed that every single god-blessed time I tried to speak to my dad, my mother would interrupt and assert herself in obnoxious ways.  What was that about?

I tried to tell my dad about the books I’d just gotten.   He and I share a certain love of mysticism. Mom interrupted to talk about the time years ago when they went to… “what was that place again? It was fourth of July weekend and I wore my hand-made 4th of July tee shirt, the one I wore this year on my birthday, and we went to some park… yada yada friggin’ yada.”  All this, triggered by the word “palmistry” and she wanted to talk about the one time she’d gone to get her palms read and how wrong the woman had been, telling my mother that she was well raised by her parents, and then snorted. Obviously, my mother has no appreciation whatsoever for how she was raised… or for my mysticism, apparently.

I tried to talk to my dad about what we may or may not do tomorrow, and mom shot in her opinions, “You know what you oughtta do? You should take him to that one cave place that your brother and I went to… not Mammoth cave, but … oh yeah, Onyx cave, where they have those jerodes.”

Rhythm grinned, “Geodes, Mammaw.”

“Whatever” retorts my mom, then goes on for another eternity talking about the damned rocks.

I tried to talk to my dad about his brother, she interrupted again and started talking about MY brother and all the pictures he took when he was here looking at the jerodes. (Geodes, Mammaw!… Whatever).

Dad and I were talking about maybe cruising through Brownsville and Leitchfield, and in the middle of our conversation, she brought out her laptop, stopped me in mid-sentence, shoved her computer at my dad and said, “Here, you can look through these while she’s talking” and proceded to offer instructions on how to click through the images on her computer screen.

Dad and I started chatting about wildlife – she interrupted again to talk about three turtles that show up to eat her strawberries, a baby rabbit she found in her back yard, and a tiny toad that was smaller than any frog she’d ever seen.

“Toad, Mother.”

“Whatever.”

I’d had enough.  I gave Dad a hug goodbye and told him we’d catch up in the morning – and if it suited us both fine, we’d do nothing at all ‘cept sit on the front porch drinking coffee, smoking cigarettes, and talking… uninterrupted.

I love my mother… I really do, I would die for her without question – but she can drive me nuts sometimes.  I shouldn’t complain about her – especially not after she just bailed me out of trouble ten-fold with new work shoes and then that check for the land… and she does do an awful lot for my kids – but holy canoles, bat-man, the woman can drive ya out of your own head! She does make some mean-ass chocolate chip cookies, though! *smirk*

I’m not sure why she behaved that way, really – and I know she has no idea she’s doing it.  I don’t know if she was nervous, if she was just trying too hard to be a good hostess, if she had something to prove, or what – but I’m looking forward to tomorrow when I can spend some one on one time with my dad.  I haven’t seen him in over a year – and even that time was jam-packed with more than twenty family members trying to squeeze in a big visit in a few short days.

I’m off for the next two days – so I’ll have Monday and Tuesday to spend with Dad, then I return to work and he returns to Vegas on Wednesday. As for now, I’m off to bed.

Life is good.

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Today is:
August 17, 2008

*Planting Day

Of Significance today:
*Dad comes to visit
*Met T four months ago, 4/17

Today’s Coffee Thoughts: Ah Choo! (And Books)
Today’s Tarot Card: Queen of Cups
Today’s Fairy Oracle: Body Movement

Sunday:
Governed by the Sun – Healing, spirituality, success, strength, protection

Colors:
Yellow, orange, gold, amber

The Moon:
3rd Quarter Waning in Aquarius, void-of-course @ 12:14 a.m., enters Pisces @ 2:46 a.m.

Waning Moon: Waning moon is when the moon appears to be shrinking in the sky, the last two weeks of the moon’s twenty-eight day cycle. Each night the light of the moon gets smaller and smaller until ultimately, the moon appears invisible and is completely out of sight. During this two weeks, it’s best for doing magickal workings to rid yourself of things, to cast away negative energies, or to break habits. If you want to keep your nails short, trim them during waning moon. Want to slow the growth of your hair? Cut it during waning moon. Want to end a certain relationship? Waning moon is best. Quit smoking? Lose weight? Waning moon lends its energies to these types of magickal workings.

Moon in Aquarius: *Rebellious energy. Time to break habits and make abrupt change. Personal freedom and individuality is the focus.

Void-of-Course: *Just before the Moon enters a new sign, it will make one final aspect (angular relationship) to another planet. Between that last aspect and the entrance of the Moon into the next sign it is said to be void-of-course. Activities begun when the Moon is void-of-course rarely come to fruition, or they turn out very differently than planned.

Moon in Pisces: *The focus is on dreaming, nostalgia, intuition, and psychic impressions. A good time for spiritual or philanthropic activities. (Ties in perfectly with that Queen of Cups, dontchya think?)

*Llewellyn’s Witches’ Datebook 2008

The Sun:
Leo, The Lion

The Sun Rules the Sign of Leo

  • On the downside: You may have a heavy ego, and you can be arrogant, vain, and extravagant.
  • Your good qualities include: A strong vitality, honorable, creative, generous, dignified.
  • Developing your own self identity and mode of creative energy expression will be your ongoing life’s work.

Leo has a great deal of self confidence but they also have a great fear of being ridiculed and made to feel disgraced. While Leo is very affectionate there is a tendency to have things their way and may rapidly lose interest if they are challenged too often for the leading role. They will have to learn to discipline themselves against their overall enthusiasm for living life to the fullest, which is to say, dangerously on the edge. The creative urge in Leos should never be stifled as to do so a good deal of potential will be wasted.

Leos are found as painters, actors, or sculptors; but not all Leos are in the public arts, no, rather they can be found in the throes of creation doing their projects on the kitchen table. They have an infectious vitality that lights up their lives like an inner sun and illuminates not only their lives, but the lives of those around them. Lack of fulfillment in life, professionally or personally, can destroy these bright and shinning people and cloud their personalities.Leos need control in their lives to be really satisfied so organization is absolutely essential to their peace of mind.

A leo should cultivate a flexible mind as they do not always ‘know best’.

Only when this trait is cultivated can the characteristic Leonine warmth, generosity, and desire to really understand others be fully indulged.

The lions love and adore children as they bring out the inner child. Leos are surprisingly sensitive and easily hurt, but they do have a tendency to dominate and this should never be underestimated. It is always meant well as they only want to bring out the best in the people they care about, or work with. They also tend toward impatience and they should make curbing these traits a lifelong objective. Born leaders, they can take command of a situation in any emergency and see it through to its completion. The enthusiams they acquired in childhood will generally last a lifetime and may even dictate the career one would choose.

They can be too status conscious, causing themselves much anguish when, or if, they cannot keep up with others in their immediate circle. They can also be quite overbearing and vain when they feel they are being challenged. On the other hand, the lions make great lovers and parents, giving more to a relationship than most of the other signs. They are good honorable persons and good providers.

Source: http://www.starlightastrology.com/leo-sun.htm

Today’s Horoscope for Leo:

Quickie
Adamant about having no financial dealings with friends? You should rethink that.

Overview
You should be able to feel the creative energy welling up in you from deep within — so make sure to do something cool with it! You don’t have to create a masterpiece, but you should at least try something new.

Daily Extended:
You’ve mixed business with your personal life in the past, and it was a big mistake. So when it looks like it might happen again, it’s understandable that respond by being adamant about having no financial dealings with people who you consider friends. But by sticking to this strict policy, you could be missing out on a great thing. There are exceptions to every rule, and today you should put some extra effort into determining whether or not this could be one of them.

Daily Flirt:
Things might be weird today, but you can get just as weird in response! Try to show off your creative side, because there’s at least one interested party who really wants to see it.

Daily Couples:
Your creative side hasn’t been getting enough attention lately, and it’s time to change that. For inspiration, take your sweetie on date to the art museum; then come home and work on your masterpiece.

Daily Singles:
When in an argument today, try not to fly off the handle. If you remain calm and collected, you could avoid a complete blowout altogether. Take the mature route instead of acting like a crazed fanatic. Excuse yourself before you say something you’ll regret.

Career & Finance:
Don’t react, respond. Just because others fly off the handle doesn’t mean you have to. You can put out the fire more effectively by avoiding reacting emotionally.

Horoscope Source: http://shine.yahoo.com/astrology/

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Body Movement

Body Movement

Really? *smirk*
Rough translation Wendi-style — I’ve been spending entirely too much time on my ass playing SIMS2. *LOL*
Seriously, though, when I’m doing readings for others and they draw this card, I explain to them that too much down time can lead to depression, to “Monkey Mind” thinking.  By staying still too long, you’re slowing your motabalism, and lethargic body can lead to lethargic mind.  Start an exercise program, join a Yoga class, take daily walks, or dance in your living room — anything physical that will lead to an increase in adrenaline and “jump start” the body’s energy. Even sex is an excellent form of body movement!
It’s odd because I was just saying to my daughter that I haven’t had any days at all lately where I can just be at home.  I’m always on the go.  Even when I was out of work for a week due to injury, I left the house every day – the first day for drug testing, then back to school night, grocery store errands, trips to the bank.  I’m always going somewhere and I crave the down time.  Yet, busy does not necessarily mean “active”, I’m just realizing.  Because I work on my feet at a steady pace, I find that when I do run errands, I often send the kids in while I wait in the Jeep.  I’m not up, I’m not moving, I’m not getting the adrenaline pumping. Aside from when I am at work, I am still — and apparently, that’s a problem.  Being more active may have prevented me from getting sick!
Here’s what the guidebook says:
Card Meaning: “Your body wants to express itself through movement. Listen to your body, and it will tell you what type of movement it craves.” (Uh, yeah, I’ve got that one figured out, thanks!)
Description: Your physical body has its own life force and intelligence, and it’s part of the same elemental kingdom as the fairies. It’s both childlike and demanding, as well as mature and insightful. This card indicates your body’s wisdom, and asks that you honor your body’s need for exercise and movement.
Spend a moment asking your body what type of movement it desires. Does it want cardiovascular conditioning such as jogging? A peaceful walk in nature? Stretching and meditative activities in a yoga class? Dancing to music? Listen to and follow through with your body’s answer.
Affirmation: I lovingly pay attention to my body’s needs.
Source: Healing with the Fairies Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue, Ph. D.

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I drew this card on July 13. Here she is again.

Last time, I’d equated this card with extreme empathy, if not clairvoyance and psychic attunement.  She governs her people by feeling what they feel, by being sensitive to their needs.  I’d also learned last time that this card can indicate female hormonal problems, or addictions.  I’d determined that inverted would likely indicated the troubled spots, whereas upright would indicate the more positive attributes.

I also remember reading somewhere that this card could represent a female alcoholic (which ties into the addiction definition), or that it can represent the “other woman” in an affair (which I’d never heard before and tend to resist). Ah, I remember… that last bit was from Solitary Witch by Silver Raven Wolf, which I’d included in the description the last time I drew this card.

Based on my recent study subjects (palmistry, numerology, astrology, etc), and my recent writing of The Winds of Change, the fact that I’ve become more solitary – and yet, through that solitary action, more “connected”, I think this card is right on time.  In fact, last time I drew her, she came up with the Quiet Time Fairy Oracle. I’m learning to stop resisting the flow of life, to stop being emotionally “bowled over” when things don’t go the way I’d hoped or planned, such as with the recent plans to move that fell through, or in relationships.  I’m focusing much more on honing my skills and using my gifts, on doing what I’m supposed to do.  Rather than see the world through my own human eyes, I’m looking at it through the third eye… allowing myself to be directed by the Universe instead of trying to bend the Universe to my own will. In an odd sense, I’m becoming much softer by thickening my own skin.

Here are the definitions as recorded on July 13:

Queen of Cups

Queen of Cups

The Queens represent maternal energy – the mature, nurturing, soft, caring energy of a mother. Cups represent emotion, feeling, and spirit.

This Queen, as I understand her, is extremely empathic – if not downright psychic. She governs her subjects well because she can feel what they feel. With one foot in the water and one on solid ground, she balances physical needs with spiritual and emotional needs. She reminds me of divine guidance… especially with the cherubs on her throne.

Her message, then, would be to show compassion, to remember that we are all one, and to govern with a sense of epathy, honoring psychic impressions and intuition.

As I understand it, she corresponds with Scorpio in astrology.

I’m reading the description from the book “Solitary Witch: Book of Shadows for the Next Generation” by Silver Raven Wolf, and I’m having an instinctive “no way!” reaction. The description in this book doesn’t fit anything I’ve learned to date about this card. Here’s what it says:

Secretive, creatie woman. Oft times ‘the other woman’ in an illicit affair. Gossipy and vindictive. Emotional.”

Here’s from LearnTarot.com:

Loving
turns away wrath with caring
is unconditionally accepting
is sensitive to the feelings of others
dispels anger and hate
has infinite patience

Tenderhearted
is easily moved by another’s pain
reacts with sensitivity and compassion
is kind and gentle with all creatures
can never turn away someone in need
feels what others are feeling

Intuitive
is always tuned to emotional undercurrents
senses the climate of a situation
is guided by the heart
trusts an inner sense of what is true
understands without having to ask

Psychic
is open to the unconscious
has a well-developed sixth sense
can have a telepathic bond with another
has a finely-tuned sensibility
is a natural medium

Spiritual
feels oneness with God and the universe
has reverence for all life
finds joy in communion
appreciates the deeper meanings of life
sees the world as a holy place

The personality of the Queen of Cups combines the positive water energy of the Cups suit with the inward focus of a Queen. Because she has a sweet, loving and sensitive nature, the Queen of Cups has a kind word for everyone and never reacts with anger or impatience. There is a gentleness about her that soothes and calms. Compassion is her watchword. Her reactions to the world are guided by her feelings. In all matters, she lets her heart lead the way. She senses emotional currents and knows what others are experiencing without having to ask. She is never moody, but understands moods and their influence. She trusts her intuition and so is more open to knowledge that comes from within herself and beyond. She is often moved by the beauty and tragedy of life. The Queen of Cups feels deeply and has a reverence for all aspects of God’s creation. Her love includes and embraces everyone and everything.

In readings, the Queen of Cups asks you to think and feel as she does. For example: Are you aware of the emotional climate? Are you feeling loving? Do you trust your heart? Have you received an intuitive message? Have you been moved by another’s pain?

This Queen can also represent a man or woman who is like her, or an atmosphere of gentle love, acceptance and respect for feelings. In a reading, she tells you that her special energy has meaning for you at this time. Let yourself be inspired by this Queen in whatever form she appears in your life.

Now that’s more like it! That fit my own description almost perfectly. I won’t rule out the description from the book, but it didn’t feel right and this one matches much better to my own understanding.

Here’s from AeclecticTarot:

QUEENS
The element of Queens is water and, not surprisingly, they are a reflection of the Empress. In this they signify the creative force. One way to think of the court cards is this: The Kings are the motivating force (Fire = the sun waking up the sleeping Earth). The queens are the ones who make it real (water = rain bringing forth life from the earth). The Knights spread the idea of the Kingdom (wind = spreading the seeds). And the Pages, of course, are the fertile soil in which all of this can grow.

When Queens appear they signal a time of growth and development, a time when the Querent is making things real.

Queen of Cups

Often a healer, counselor or psychic, this is a woman who seems to know what’s wrong even before you open your mouth. Call her the emotional fix-it woman, but she seems to have exactly the right solution to problems relating to home, friends, love. Sometimes she is shy, self-effacing, you might not even notice her; other times she can be a little scary, dreamy, mysterious, a creative storyteller. Affectionate and loving, she is a “mom’s mom” always there to hug, heal and bake cookies for her children. Her intuition is uncanny, her temper…well, it runs very deep and you don’t ever want it turned against you. Talk about scary. Unfortunately, this is also a queen who can suffer from female hormonal problems, depression, moodiness, alcoholism, drug addiction, psychological problems.

Well, that fits, although it adds to my own information base. I’d not yet connected this card to female hormonal problems, or addictions – although since the King of Cups represents patterns, addictions, and alcoholism, it does make sense and shouldn’t be hard to remember. I think upright would show the compassion, psychic abilities, intuition, and empathy – and reversed might indicate the moodiness, female problems, or addictive patterns.

I think this card is going to be a good one for me to carry in my mind’s eye throughout the day, as Sundays are my most challenging days at work – and this one, moreso than normal because it’s going to be about a fourteen hour shift. When I find myself getting irritable, or wanting to .. eh hem… bitch because of the guests I’m serving or the lack of cooperation from co-workers, I’ll remember this queen and draw her energy up. Of course, she may have other meanings for me that I’m not consciously aware of today, so I’ll keep myself open to her messages.

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Well, I had every intention of coming back and posting my list of books Friday night, but this cold that got hold of me got hold me me good and I’ve been miserable beyond belief.  Haven’t done much of anything other than lay in bed and… well, READ!

Because of how I feel, I gave away half of my shift today.  I didn’t want to call in all together because that would reflect in my next eval – and since I’m getting ready to max out at four stars (takes 15 months to earn all four stars on our aprons), and since I’m in training to be a certified trainer, calling in would hurt me more than just losing a day’s pay. I was originally scheduled for an 8 a.m. – 8 p.m. shift, but I’m going in at 2 today instead of 8, thanks to a co-worker who put a note up in the break room saying she was looking for a Sunday morning shift to pick up.

Dad arrives this afternoon, too.  Not my biological father, but the one who adopted me when I was sixteen and incredibly pregnant.  My first born son’s middle name is the same as my dad – this is a man who changed the course of my life – more than once – and I have this hunch he’s about to do it again, even if indirectly or more subtly. He should get here sometime after three.  I won’t be home, but my mom is making him dinner and the kids can go next door and visit with them.  While the kids are at school tomorrow, I figure I’ll take Dad on a quick tour of Brownsville and Leitchfeild so he can get an idea of how/where we function and get things done. I’ll take him to lunch at the Feed Mill in Leitchfeild, and we’ll be home before the kids get out of school and can get some major front-porch sitting and coffee-drinking done.

I had spoken before about moving blogs, but I’ve decided against it.  What I was trying to do, I realized, was merge my magickal/business self with my magickal/personal self, and the two are meant to be separated.  So, I’ll keep on keepin’ on right here with the posts more personalized as they have been. However, I won’t be adding to the moon phase page and will probably re-do several of my categories to fit.  In the mean time, I’ve been working on building a complete website.  It won’t be ready before January (if not later), but I’m having a good time plugging in all of the pieces and parts, connecting the dots, and seeing how the dream is manifesting.

Now, as for the new books, here’s what I purchased.

The first one I picked up is called Simply Palmistry by Sasha Fenton. Several chapters in, I realize this probably wasn’t the best choice.  It’s much more superficial than I’d realized when I flipped through it, and focuses on how to size up someone’s hands to determine whether or not they’d be a good partner/mate.  While there are some things I’m definitely benefiting from reading this book, such as maps of the hand, the descriptions are short, choppy, and not “memorable”.  It feels like the information is incomplete and scattered. I don’t regret having bought the book and will probably go back later and compare it to other sources as I build my personal library, but there was probably another book on the shelf that would have been a better choice.

Book two prompted an involuntary verbal squeal from me at the book store, which in turn provoked a conversation with another woman standing in the same isle.  I hadn’t been looking for this book specifically, wasn’t sure if I’d buy any books on the subject, but when it quite literally jumped into my hand from the shelf and made me squeak,  I didn’t question it.  This book is called Faeries of the Celtic Lands by Nigel Suckling. Unlike most Faerie dictionaries or encyclopedias, or the modern approach to attracting faeries, this book travels back in time to the very beginning of Faerie Folk in Ireland.  The stories are much like that of the Egyptian pantheon, or Greek mythology, with various Faerie Gods and/or Kings taking their turns at rule. It describes various battles, the retreat of the faeries beyond the veil, and stories of how even after the separation, faeries and humans worked together on occasion (yes, through modern times).  Rather than the flower and fluff charming dictionary-encyclopedia style of most faerie books on the market, this book gives much more of a historic account based on ancient celtic writings. It can be slow reading, a bit of it difficult to digest, mostly based on the names of the people and places.  This is a book I’ll likely read more than once – not necessarily one I’ll reference often (as I do with the faerie encyclopedias/dictionaries), but to further and cement my own understanding of the history of Faerie Folk.

In Keeping with the Faeries, the next book I picked up is called Fairy Bible by Teresa Moorey. Beautifully illustrated, this is an encyclopedia of faeries, but also includes things my other books don’t that are aligned with the book above, such as naming specific Faerie Cities. Aside from the dictionary portion and the location of the fairies (spelling of that word does vary, by the way), but it also offers meditations, guides on working with the faeries, and protection against harmful fairies. I haven’t gotten too deep into the reading of this one yet, but it’s one I’ll likely keep on my night-table and read a few pages before I go to bed each night.  It’s also one that will be used often for reference in the writing of some of my own faerie articles (that likely won’t appear here, but will be saved for the other website).

Book three was a surprise to me. I had no intentions of looking for this type of book, either – but there was a “knowing” when I saw it, so I grabbed it.  Magical Herbalism by Scott Cunningham. This is one I’ll be referencing in the writing of the “Enchantmonths” series, as well as using for other purposes.  I’m a big fan of Cunningham and have several of his books on my shelf.  Although he was obviously more “Wiccan” than I am, as I avoid religion and ritual, there is much in common between his belief system and mine.  I appreciate the way he brought across his information in easy to digest, yet not elementary fashion. I didn’t have any good herb books on my shelf, so I’m glad to have started that portion of my collection with this book. In the Enchantmonths series, I list each month’s correspondences – including animals, gemstones, herbs, trees, flowers, faeries, and more.  For the new website, I’m trying to write full length articles on each of those correspondences.  For example, January lists fox, coyote, blue jay, and pheasant as animals/birds for the month.  While I mention each of those briefly in the Enchantmonths series and offer summarized versions of their magickal meanings, I want to do full length pieces on fox magick, coyote magick, blue jay magick, and pheasant magick.  The same concept carries through with herbs, gemstones, and the other correspondences.  This book not only describes what the herbs are used for and when their properties are, but it also goes into how to grow your own, how to dry and store them, and offers much more information for the magickal herbalist.

The next book was also a bit of a surprise.  Numerology and the Divine Triangle by Faith Javane and Dusty Bunker. This is one I picked up, put back down – picked up, put back down.  Talked myself out of, but went back to it.  Ultimately, it came home with me.  Understanding numerology is something I’ve wanted to do for years, but never felt the time was right.  When I was in the bookstore and saw this book, I had a “flash” about this blog, the “Know Thyself” category where I listed my numerology in basic form. I believe there’s magick in numbers… and I suppose life is telling me I’m ready to learn.  As far as I know, this is not a subject I’ll be including in the new website, but then again, the Universe may have other plans.  I plan on taking my time with this; I’m not feeling rushed or pressured to drink the book down… but I am intrigued and looking forward to expanding my awareness of numerology.

The last book makes me smile.  I don’t like the title – and I almost didn’t buy it just because of the title, but in comparrison to the other books on the shelf on the same subject, this one was an obvious keeper and the others were mostly fluff.  The Complete Idiot’s Guide to Astrology: Fourth Edition by Madeline Gerwick-Brodeur and Lisa Lenard.  I have two books on my shelf already on astrology, but they’re old, and they’re too complex for my mind.  I’m sure the information is correct and accurate, but the way it’s presented in the older books isn’t in such a way I can easily digest.  This book, however (I am NOT an idiot!) presents complex information in a simple fashion.  Moreover than understanding the specific signs of the zodiac, I’m interested in learning what it means when the planets dance, such as when Mercury enters Virgo or when Mars goes into retrograde.  For years, now, I’ve included such events as a quick mention in my daily dose posts, but then followed it by saying, “I have no idea what that means, but I’m including it here because it’s significant.”  Well, now I want to be able to understand it.  Of course, I also want the rest – understanding the zodiac signs and how the stars and planets influence us on a daily basis, but the main reason I bought this book is for its descriptions of the planetary shifts.

While it was tempting to go in and just buy every palmistry book, I knew it was time to spread myself out.  If I’d bought all palmistry books, I’d have burned out too quickly, gotten overwhelmed.  One at a time, baby steps – and by mixing up the subjects, I’m able to learn about all sorts of things simultaneously.  As I was shopping, I was thinking of the kids in school – they don’t just study one subject all day long, they have six or seven different classes… and so that’s the approach I’m taking with my own learning.  Rather than delve wholly into just one subject and submersing myself in it, I’m spreading out my interests so I can learn about several things at once.

One thing I might like to do here on this blog, as opposed to the website I’m building, is create a category called “The Book Shelf” in which I list all the books I have (with short reviews) on various subjects, followed by a list of books I’d like to have.  It’d be fun for me to be able to move the “wish list” books to the “I have” books as I increase my personal library one book at a time.  What I’d like to do, if I can manage to keep my head above water, is treat myself to one new book each month. As winter nears, I’m sure I’ll be doing much more reading.

Anyway, I’m off to do this morning’s daily dose, work on the website a little, shower, and head to work.  Not sure how active my posts will be when my dad’s here, but we’ll see.

Life is good.

W

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