Archive for July, 2008

Family Harmony

Family Harmony

I drew this card previously on June 23, 2008.

Well, isn’t she right on time?  Just yesterday I wrote a short post about how it was time to go get my daughter – and, at last, have my children home.  Rhythm left first – and before he returned, Stinkerbelle left.  Rhythm came home while Stinkerbelle was still away – and, as of yesterday at 10:45 a.m., we were all reunited.

We talked about the relief we feel in knowing our long term potential.  No longer focusing on a move, we’re now focused on how to turn our house into a home we can all be proud of and comfortable in.  We talked about the new school year starting and what the goals and intentions are socially and academically this year. We went to lunch together after leaving the airport – and, as we do when we three are turned loose in the world unchaperoned, we laughed ourselves to tears and drew attention to ourselves.  Nothing is more fun than an all out giggle fit in a public place with those you love most!

Ran a few errands after lunch, including a trip to a pawn shop to put a set of drums on layaway for Rhythm – a set of drums that matches the guitar T and I surprised him with Friday night.  On the way home from that errand, we talked about how to make Stinkerbelle’s dream of owning horses a reality.  We have the land for it… we just need to build fencing, a stable, and work out the vet/ferrier/feeding details.  I’m going to sell my mom the piece of property she’s on, and can use the funds from that to have things set up for Stinkerbelle’s horse.

When we got home, Stinkerbelle set to unpacking and cleaning her room, Rhythm spent some creative time bonding with his new guitar, and I took a much needed nap.  Though I’d had every intention of doing one more tarot reading yesterday afternoon via email, my personal energy was drained.  As much as I’ve hated postponing, I’ve made peace with myself in deciding I’d do that reading on Tuesday, my next day off.  After my nap, the kids and I found our comfy spots in the living room together and watched Enchanted, a movie with which I was completely tickled.  Loved it!

I also had a few issues regarding my mother yesterday.  There are advantages to having her as my neighbor, but there are times when certain lines are crossed – and I have to find a way to tell her that without upsetting her.  Before we’d even gotten back to Bowling Green from the airport in Nashville, my mother rang Stinkerbelle’s cell phone to ask if Stinkerbelle would go over to her house to color her hair as soon as we got home.  Stinkerbelle agreed and hung up, and I lost my temper.  I cried, really – not of sadness, but of anger and frustration.  I hadn’t seen my daughter in three weeks – she hasn’t even unpacked her clothes, and my mother had no idea whether or not I’d had anything planned – and without asking me first, she just assumed she could take my daughter.  We’ve had that discussion before.  Mom likes to take Stinkerbelle every Saturday to go run errands.  Mom doesn’t like to be alone.  But, Saturdays are the only day off I have of the weekend when there’s no school and I can spend the day with the kids.  I don’t want Stinkerbelle gone every Saturday.  I discussed it with my mom, she respected it for about two Saturdays, then everything went back to the way it was… plans were made without ever consulting me.  I’m going to have to put my foot down if I want to stabilize my own family.  My mom needs to understand that this is my daughter, not her best friend.

So, here’s what the guidebook says:

Card Meaning: Your relationships with family members are healing. As you hold loving thoughts and feelings about the souls involved (including yourself), you experience genuine harmony in your family.

Description: Every person in your life is affected by your beliefs and expectations, including your family members. By drawing this card, you are counseled to hold positive and loving thoughts about anyone who seems to have irritated or hurt you. The more loving energy you send to each person, the more love will be redirected back to you.

Have patience — you are beginning to feel a great healing occurring in your family relationships. The fairies ask you to think of three reasons why you are grateful for each member of your family. If one person seems to particularly frustrate you, think of five reasons why that person is worthy of love. Send blessings and prayers to that person, and your relationship will show immediate signs of improvement.

Affirmation: I see the goodness within each member of my family. My family life is harmonious and filled with love and joy.

Source: Healing with the Fairies Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue, Ph. D.


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Six of Cups

Six of Cups

The six of cups suggests that it’s time to review patters and cycles – patterns and cycles that most likely were established early on in life. This card reminds me of a karmic loop.  When we find that we keep landing in the same place over and over, it’s easy to understand that we’re landing where we are because we’re following the exact same patterns and cycles.  If we want to land in a different place, we have to change the pattern, start a new cycle. 

Because the card is cups, we can associate it with emotions, planning, and spirituality – so the cycles and patterns are most likely connected to how/why we feel the way we do, how we handle our relationships, and our deeper, spiritual view of life or belief systems.

As it applies to me directly, one example of this card’s meaning could reflect the amount of time, energy, and effort I’ve put into romantic love and relationships – and why, in spite of my investments, the relationships I’ve had prior to now haven’t worked out.  There’s a pattern in it… is it that I’ve been choosing the same type of partners?  Have I been expecting too much from my relationships? Could I have a skewed understanding of how partnerships are meant to work?  Recent writings of mine would indicate that my core problem is that I had a complete misunderstanding of Love itself – and that I confused it with all sorts of other thoughts and feelings, including co-dependency, attention, sex, or other life circumstances/lessons that had nothing to do with true love. If I want this cycle of “lost love” and failed relationships to end, then I have to break the pattern and make sure that I’m giving and receiving genuine love with a partner with whom I’m well suited.

The six of cups also represents a possible mentor, teacher, or role model from the past – from early years, possibly childhood.  In the past, I’ve always viewed that possible mentor as a good teacher, a happy memory, or someone we’d choose to be like – but in this morning’s reflections, in relation to the example I’ve given of failed relationships, I can look back into the past and account for an ancestral trend.  My grandmother has been married seven times.  My mother has been married four times and had several long-term, live in relationships wherein she never got married.  My father has been married several times… and neither one of my parents are currently in relationships, nor do I recall either of them ever having a healthy relationship. The only examples I’ve had, aside from Aunt P and Uncle H who have been married as long as I’ve known them (nearly thirty years), are of failed relationships and of illusions of love vs. genuine love.

When we look at a number six, we see a big round belly, and an arm extending over the top.  The big round belly, to me, represents the earthy plane – reality as we know it, the “real” world, so to speak.  The arm extending beyond that is indicative of our ability to reach beyond the limitations of this reality, tap into a higher power – a Universal Wisdom -, grab a handful of that magick, and bring it down to earth.  It’s a number of trancendence – reaching beyond the obvious to grab hold of something more.  In this case, it could simply be the awareness of patterns and how to break them.

Let’s take a look at what the other sources say.

Here’s from Solitary Witch: Book of Shadows for the Next Generation by Silver Raven Wolf:

“Living in the past; not willing to let the past go; the study of history or geneology; a discovery about the past; meeting someone from your past; learning about a legacy; a gift from an admirer (usually supported by other cards), nostalgia; the possibility of a lover returning (again, look at surrounding cards). Actions of the past bear emotional fruit in the present; sentimental journey.”

Here’s from LearnTarot.com:

experiencing good will
acting kindly or charitably
doing a good turn for another
sharing what you have
having a noble impulse
receiving a gift
feeling blessed
being well-intentioned
enjoying innocence
feeling simple contentment
surrounding yourself with goodness
being blissfully unaware
having a clear conscience
shunning corruption
being acquitted
appreciating simple joys
focusing on childhood
being with a child or young person
feeling carefree
being taken care of
feeling nostalgic
indulging in play
enjoying youthful activities
having a baby

In the film Parenthood there is a scene in which all the members of a large family come together to witness a birth. As the camera moves from person to person, we see as if for the first time the uniqueness of each one. The people talk and laugh, but suddenly their actions seem anything but ordinary. There is a sweetness in the air that builds until we see its very embodiment – the new baby. This is the spirit of the Six of Cups.

It is a truism that there is violence, anger and mean-spiritedness in the world. Certainly there is enough of this, but there is also much good will and caring. A mother hands a drink to her child. A friend lends his car for the weekend. A worker fills in for a sick colleague. Small gestures, barely noticed, but so important. The Six of Cups is a card of simple goodness. It encourages you to be kind, generous and forgiving.

The Six of Cups also represents innocence – a word with many shades of meaning. You can be innocent in the strictly legal sense of lack of guilt. You can be innocent of the truth – unaware of some secret. You can be lacking in deceit or corruption – innocent of ulterior motive. Finally, you can be virtuous or chaste. These are all possibilities that can apply to the Six of Cups, depending on the situation.

Notice that the two figures on the Six of Cups appear to be children. Often this card represents a baby or young child. In a larger sense, it embraces all of childhood and the feelings we associate with youth (ideally!) – being carefree, playful, secure and loved. Children are our treasure, and the sweetness of the Six of Cups is a quality to be treasured as well.

And from Aeclectic Tarot:


Sixes are balance and harmony, especially after the upsets of the fives. These cards predict a solution, and not just any solution; there will be an exchange, a give and take that results in a new equilibrium. It may not last, but for that moment, everything is stable. With this card, there is an almost “Ah-HA!” of recognition, of understanding in the solution, and more than a little awe at the symmetry achieved by it.

If you connect the sixes to the Lovers card you’ll see how it works. The “love” aspect of the Lovers card is that of recognition and equilibrium. Like Gemini, you recognize your twin, your soul mate. Maybe you didn’t even know how uneven, how lopsided your life was, but now that you’ve met this person, you can feel the scales coming into balance. Here is harmony. Here is the solution.

Six of Cups

Two children among six flowering cups. There is a great deal of rich and complex symbolism in this card, but in a nutshell, it is a frozen moment of perfect balance, the boy and the girl both touching that one cup with the flower in it. I like to think of this as taking place in early spring, still cold enough for the girl to wear mittens, but warm enough for the first flowers to have blossomed. The girl, possibly accepting the flower, looks up and sees the boy, and he, perhaps giving the flower, sees her as well. Perhaps, on that cup, their hands touch for the first time. It is a charming moment of recognition, of puppy love. The meaning of this card refers to a moment of nostalgia, of something or someone from our past coming back into our life. Given an old photo, or an invitation to a school reunion, we get, in return, a memory of harmony. Perhaps we meet with a friend, relative or teacher we haven’t seen in years and the exchange of memories restores to us past love, past balance. We rediscover lost equilibrium and a solution that we could never have found in the present.

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Not much time to linger today. In fact, in about twenty-minutes, I’ll be leaving for Nashville.  Stinkerbelle comes home today. At last, we’ll all be together, nestled in back home, with all the recent chaos, turmoil, and … uhm… what’s the word… uncertainty… behind us.  All summer we’ve been wondering if or not we’re moving, where we might move to, what school the kids would attend this year, etc. – Finally, it’s all set that we are staying put right where we are, that they’ll go to the school they’re familiar with, and we can begin to restructure the house we have — and how we function within it. I’m so relieved that the kids’ vacations are over, that school’s about to start, and that there’s been some sort of stability being restored to our day to day lives.

Had a big day yesterday.  It being the only day off I could make available for others, I spent the entire day doing Tarot Readings.  I had five scheduled, most in different locations, and ended up doing one that wasn’t planned.  They all hit their mark, were all accurate,  and they were extremely healing – not only for the people I was reading for, but for myself as well.  Something happens to me internally on spiritual/metaphysical levels when I know Universal Wisdom is being transferred through me to those who need the guidance. I benefit greatly from the firm hugs I receive after a powerful reading, when I can see and feel how deeply people are affected by the experience. I’ve got one more to do via email, which I’m hoping to have accomplished by this evening.

I’ve a lot I want to say, a few experiences I’d like to share, but now really isn’t the best time.  Nashville is 2 hours away from here on a good day, and it’s raining, so I need to allow for a little extra time.  I’m sure I’ll nap when we get back ’cause I’m exhausted… and then there’s lots to be done this afternoon before I engage in tomorrow’s twelve hour work day.

I’ll be back around later when there’s more time and energy available. Right now, I’m gonna go get my baby and bring her home!

Life is good.

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Today is:
July 24, 2008

*Harvest Day

Today’s Dreamscapes: Interior Design
Today’s Tarot Card: Nine of Swords
Today’s Fairy Oracle: Laughter
Possible Personal Influence: Alignment

The Moon:
3rd Quarter Waning in Aries

Waning Moon: Waning moon is when the moon appears to be shrinking in the sky, the last two weeks of the moon’s twenty-eight day cycle. Each night the light of the moon gets smaller and smaller until ultimately, the moon appears invisible and is completely out of sight. During this two weeks, it’s best for doing magickal workings to rid yourself of things, to cast away negative energies, or to break habits. If you want to keep your nails short, trim them during waning moon. Want to slow the growth of your hair? Cut it during waning moon. Want to end a certain relationship? Waning moon is best. Quit smoking? Lose weight? Waning moon lends its energies to these types of magickal workings.

Moon in Aries: You may be inclined to speak your mind more openly and aggressively, but expect others to do the same, and don’t be surprised if opinions conflict and tempers rise. Great ideas may spark, but the flames are quickly exhausted (no long burning embers here!), so jot the ideas down while they’re free-flowing, and manifest them later when the moon/sign combination is more in favor of long term results. Harness the spontaneous energy brought by the moon’s visit with Aries, but resist the tendency to be impulsive or headstrong. Emotions may run strong, but reason is required, so work at maintaining balance between heart and mind, without letting them go to war with one another.

The Sun:

Leo, The Lion
(See Yesterday’s post for Leo Influences)

Today’s Horoscope for Leo:

Someone from a drastically different background will change one of your opinions.

You’re all about fun today, even if you’re behind a desk or dealing with difficult children. Somehow, your good energy shines through and you let people see how great life can be!

Daily Extended
You’ll meet up with someone from a drastically different background today, and they will have something serious to say that you should pay attention to, even if no one else wants to. This is a good learning experience for you, and when they share their ideas or thoughts with you, they are showing you that they trust you. You should respect that trust and return it by opening your mind and reserving judgment. They just might change one of your longest-held opinions.

Daily Flirt:
Your good mood is impossible to kill today, and you should find yourself smiling and humming no matter where you are or what’s going on around you. Encourage others to follow your lead!

Daily Couples:
One of your long-held beliefs may be challenged by your partner today. Instead of reacting negatively, hear them out. If you feel the point they’re making is a valid one, consider adapting your own opinion.

Daily Singles:
Today you might meet someone who changes your opinion about what’s considered romantic. Open your mind to the possibility that chivalry and tender gestures are not a thing of the past. The actions might be impractical but they sure are amorous.

Career & Finance
Don’t have any financial dealings until you’re sure. Listening to instinct will only elucidate so much. If you want things to really be clear, there’s no substitute for good, old-fashioned research.

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No really.  HA! HA! Hee! Hee!

What was my first line in the Tarot post? That I had to laugh at the truth of the situation.  What did I write about last night as what helped me through my own misery? T bringing me to hysterical laughter… a giggle fit that felt wonderful.  Indeed.

Laugh it off, girl. Laugh it off.

Someone I once thought I knew used to say, “If this situation wasn’t so tragic, it’d be funny!” – And that’s the reality of these two cards being drawn together.  It’s the epitomy of that phrase! Ha! Ha! Ha!

I’ve drawn her a few times, actually. Today, July 21, and June 11. I like the June 11th post because it tells the story of my first encounter with seeing a faerie… much in the same way I “heard” my faerie this morning. Here’s what I’d written:



This is the first fairy I ever “saw”. I’d had this deck for a short while and was living in Tulsa, Oklahoma. That’s where I really had the opportunity to get to know myself in new ways. I’d built what I called a Moon Circle in the back yard. It was a meditation spot I’d created using cut firewood that had been left there by the previous tenant, stones, and a tree stump in the center for sitting. I’d empowered the circle with my own concoction of salt, oils, potpourri, etc. and lined the circle with it. Well, one morning I’d gone out at sunrise to meditate and had taken my Fairy Oracle Cards with me. I sat on the tree-stump in the center of the circle, eyes closed, taking in slow, deep breaths. My concentration was broken by the sound of a giggle.

I thought a little kid had been peeking through the fence or something, so I opened my eyes and took a good look around, but as soon as I’d opened my eyes, the giggling stopped and all was quiet. There was no one at all in the area – and being that it was dawn, wasn’t likely there’d be children playing nearby. I closed my eyes again. Again, I heard the giggle, followed by a “shh… you’ll draw attention!” Then, the giggle was muffled. This time, though, along with the sound of the giggle, I had a “vision”. I saw this fairy card… animated. The red-headed fairy was standing on a tree limb just to the left of where I was sitting. She was looking right at me, giggling, with a sparkle in her eye. Next to her was an older, rounder, “grandmotherly” fairy (one not in my deck) who was trying to “hush” Laughter. They looked like cartoons.

In all the books I’ve read and studies I’ve done, it’s been made clear that to “see” a fairy is not done with the human eye as much as it is with the psychic eye, the third eye, or in “astral” form. I do believe that this encounter was my first TRUE experience with actually seeing a fairy, and she shows herself to me often. I’ve seen her again since that time, and so whenever I draw this card, I let out a little giggle – and it feels as though I’m seeing an old friend.

Her message is to enjoy the humor in life, and to laugh often. Laughter is said to be the best medicine. You can’t feel angry if you’re laughing. You can’t feel depressed if you’re laughing. Laughter heals… lighten up and give a giggle!

Let’s see what the guidebook says:

Card Meaning: Every cloud not only has a silver lining, but it also has a humorous side. Try to objectively stand back from your situations and find a humorous twist. Laughter will help you see your life from a new perspective so that you can receive creative insights and solutions.

Description: You are much too serious about life, according to the fairies. They aren’t asking you to neglect your responsibilities, let go of the sacred reverence for life, or defend your emotions with jokes. Instead, you’re asked to see the humor that runs through the thread of life. Like a brilliant comedy, our lives become more enjoyable when we can see them through the eyes of a humorist.

Laughter helps us to stand back and see ourselves and our situations more objectively. When we laugh, we relax. And when we relax, creative solutions and renewed energy course through us more easily. So, take time today to laugh. For instance, go see that new funny movie or play, buy a book by your favorite comedy writer, or exchange silly jokes with a friend.

Affirmation: I find the humor in life, and I laugh easily.

Source: Healing with the Fairies Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue, Ph. D.

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Nine of Swords

Nine of Swords


It’s hard not to laugh hysterically because this card couldn’t be any more accurate or any closer to the truth. Bullseye!

Nine of Swords represents trouble sleeping, possible nightmares, heavy stress, worry, not knowing what actions to take or how to navigate through change.  The nine’s represent the end of a cycle, and in this case, the quarrent is “freaking out” a bit about what’s going to happen next.  When I do a reading for others and they draw this card, I encourage them to let go of their worries and stop trying to micro-manage the details of their life. Let things run their course and understand that you can’t control everything.  Let go of the weight and the worry and trust that the Universe will guide you to the right actions.

Appropriate? I’d say.

Here’s what the other sources say:

From Solitary Witch: Book of Shadows for the Next Generation by Silver Raven Wolf:

Nightmare; bound by your own fears; difficulty sleeping at night; personally imposed misery or disappointment; worrying needlessly; being disappointed in someone; possible danger – check surrounding cards.

And from LearnTarot.com:

doubting all will go well
making yourself sick over your troubles
going over and over an issue
feeling anxious and tense
getting worked up
feeling guilty
regretting some offense
refusing to forgive yourself
wanting to turn back the clock
focusing on your “sins”
being hard on yourself
denying that you did your best
getting overwhelmed by remorse
suffering anguish
feeling you’ve reached your limits
having sleepless nights
feeling depressed
going through a dark night of the soul
forgetting joy
wanting to cry

It makes sense that the figure on the Nine of Swords is in bed because it is during the night that our griefs and regrets come to mind most intensely. The quiet darkness strips away the distractions of the day, leaving us alone with our thoughts. Who has not lain awake at 4 A.M. filled with worries that refuse to go away? The Nine of Swords represents this unhappiness which can strike us at any time.

Unlike the pain of the Three of Swords which seems to come from without, the Nine of Swords represents the pain that we generate from within. What tortures we put ourselves through when our fears and doubts overwhelm us. Worry is probably the most common. Have I done enough? Will everything work out OK? What am I going to do? The thoughts go round and round – impossible to turn off.

Guilt is another source of pain. When we have done something that we feel is wrong or hurtful – or failed to do something we think we should have – the distress can be very real. It is worse when nothing we do relieves the bad feelings or makes them go away. Finally, there is just pure anguish. Sometimes the pain of life is so total that all we feel like doing is crying into our hands.

Needless to say, the Nine of Swords is not the most pleasant of cards, but it doesn’t always indicate major distress. Often it is just a sign of some element of unhappiness or trouble – a vulnerable spot in your life. This card is often a warning from your Inner Guide that the path you are going down may be a difficult one. If you approach the Nine of Swords in this spirit – as a caution sign – you will be able to use it constructively. Examine your situation carefully to be sure you are making the best choices. Even a small change can make all the difference.

And from Aeclectic Tarot:


Nine is a card of completion (so is Ten, but we’ll get to that). Like the Hermit, who connects to the nines, it is a card where something is finished and the person in turn steps back to look on what he’s done, earned, or gained. Nines are among the most powerful cards, usually granting the Querent what it is they, like the Hermit, are seeking.

Nine of Swords

A man wakes from a nightmare, nine swords on the wall. It can be a good thing to find what you seek, except when it comes to ideas, words or problems. Find too many of them and they will overwhelm you. We all know this card, it is the one where we wake up at night and go over our troubles, problems, worries, thoughts, what we said, what others said. The Querent must be told that while their problems may be real, they’re blowing them out of proportion, making them worse, nightmarish. They are spending too many sleepless nights alone and awake with these words, ideas, problems. What they are really seeking is to wake from this bad dream – which they can do by realizing that it is a bad dream – most of it is in their head.

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Having posted my dream and replying to comments, I headed to the kitchen to refill my coffee cup.  That’s when I “heard” this muffled voice crying, “Let me out! Hey! Let me out!”. 

I looked toward the baker’s rack where I heard the voice coming from, and low and behold, I spied the woodland faerie chasing butterflies that I’d purchased more than a month ago, the day we found that yellow house. 

 I kept her in the box on the bottom shelf of the baker’s rack, telling myself she’d be a housewarming gift to myself the day we moved.  This morning, she called me on it and wanted set free. 

I smiled, lifted the box, took out her styrofoam entrapment, snapped her photo, and carried her back to my room, placing her on my desk, facing me. 

I’ve decided to name her Serenity.

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