Archive for July, 2008

the universe wins … i’m on shut down mode.

injured at work – nothing major. cut my finger and cut through a blood vessel, so three stitches and a finger splint later, i’m out of commission til wednesday. obviousy, typing skills are impaired. with the exception of tomorrow’s mandatory drug test that requires me to drive into town, i’ve decided to make it an all out shut down – physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. i need a respite from life – and the universe just insisted i take it.

i’m cleared to return to work wednesday, although stitches and splint remain until next saturday. that should be interesting, to say the least. when i can again type freely and at full speed, i’ll be back. until then, i’m due for a really good power cry and a lot of medicated sleep.


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Well, I’ve been doing some thinking… and for my purposes, I’m wondering if wordpress is not the best home for my blog.  I’m accustomed to Blogspot, being able to add widgets and have a bit more control over certain elements.

I’ve been thinking a lot about expanding my site… and in order to do that, I’m pretty sure I’m going to have to move it.  The question is, do I move it as it is… or do I re-name and re-do the entire thing? I may want to give it the name I’ve seen in my head for my magick shop… and incorporate an online store of sorts. It’d be a small beginning to a big dream.


Will be thinking on this today.

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Night Cap: What a Rush!

August Rush, that is…

And it went something like this.

(One month earlier)

“Mom,” said Rhythm to me via free mobile to mobile conversation during his vacation in Vegas, “You’ve got to see this movie called August Rush.”


“Trust me. You’ll love this movie.  Trust me. You have to see it.”

“What’s it about?”

“A psychic link through music between a boy and the parents he’s searching for.”

“Sounds like I’d like it.”

“You won’t like it, Mom. You’ll love it.  It’s one of those movies.  They talk to the moon and hear each other through it. I’m telling you. You’ve got to see this movie!”




“Where are you?”

“The movie store.  What did you say that movie was called again?”

“August Rush.”

“Okay, thanks.”


“Gonna buy it.  I’m trusting you.”

“Trust me. You’ll love it!”


I picked Rhythm up at the airport, crying as I hugged him. I was beyond glad to have him home, although sad that his sister was gone on her own vacation when he arrived. Walking through the airport towards the truck, he asks, “Did you watch the movie?”

“Not yet.”

“Why not?”

“Waiting for the right time, I guess.”


My cell phone rings… it’s Stinkerbelle calling from North Carolina.


“What’s wrong, Stinkerbelle?”

“Nothing… but you have GOT to watch that movie! I just watched it with Aunt P, and Rhythm was right… you’re gonna LOVE this movie!”


July 28, 2008 –

The real world is too much pressure for me today.  Yesterday’s insanity bled over into this morning – and I’ve decided it may not be the rest of the world that’s nuts… maybe I’m just a little out of my mind.  I felt detached from myself as soon as I woke up, but didn’t know what was wrong.  I did half of a daily dose, rushed through a shower, gathered my deposit and the water bill, loved on my dog, then ran out the door.  Forgot to make my bed, so left Stinkerbelle a voice mail begging her to do it for me.  It could have remained unmade, but now that I have one, I want it made… even if I’m not home.  Weird, I know. Stopped at the water company first – quick in, quick out – and around the corner to the bank.

“I need to make a deposit, but I don’t have any deposit slips.”

“No problem, Ma’am, what’s your account number?


“Thank you, ma’am. One moment.”

The teller leaves, punches buttons on a keyboard, hits delete, punches numbers again.  Then she returns.

“Ma’am, are you sure this is the right account number?”

“What did you enter?”


“Yes, that’s correct.”

“It doesn’t seem to be working.”

“Please try again… XXXXXXX”

I stated the numbers again, dramatically, slowly… loudly.

She shakes her head.

Then it dawns on me.  I slap my forehead (no, really, I did), and burst out laughing so loud I had the whole bank’s attention.

“Forgive me, Miss. I seem to have given you my employee work number.  Maybe this one will work…”

Good Gobstoppers… what was I thinking?

I giggle myself all the way back to Pixie Dust (my Jeep) and hit the long road to work. 

Ten after ten in the a.m., so I should make it to work by… oh… 10:50-ish, clock in at eleven.  If I’m lucky, I’ll have time to swing through Micky D’s for a quick bite… STARVING! (but no speeding!)

10:15-ish, my cell phone rings.  Correction… it honks.  Old car horn… that’s the bat phone… eh hem… I mean work calling.  Ears perked, I answer.

“Hi, Wendi?”

“Yeah… what’s up?”

“We were expecting you at ten a.m. and you’re never late, always early – are you okay?”

Literally, the voice was panicked.  Still humored with myself, now moreso than ever, I reply, “I was expecting me at eleven, and yes, I’m fine.  Ten? Really? I thought eleven. I’m on my way.”

Are you freaking kidding me?  Did my mind slip out of my skull and into my pillow case while I slept?  Did the dog think it was a chew toy and carry it outside?

Now I’m late for work. Groovy. So much for breakfast!


I was on auto-pilot at work.  The basics. 

How would you like that cooked?  Do you need relish or onion with that?  What would you like for your side items?  Would you like biscuits or corn bread?  Do you like lemon with your tea? Would you like to add cheese to that? May I take your plate for you sir?

I bussed tables like a robot on steroids… loading plates, glasses, silverware, trash… as much as I could load onto one tray – fewer trips is better.  Full hands in, full hands out. Auto pilot. Went on break at two and whoofed down a big-ass fried chicken salad… ate the entire thing. Yum. Oddly enough, I’ve had the same thing every single day for the past week.

(Two hours earlier)

Female manager, “Hey, Wendi? Are you losing weight?”

I look at her through widened eyes and nod, “A little.”

“More than a little.”

“I’m not trying.”

“Well, it’s working… noticably.”

That reminds me… I really need to get new work uniforms.  When I started there last July, I wore a size six pants and a small men’s shirt.  I downgraded to size four pants and large boys’ shirts.  Now, the size fours are loose and long, and even with two new holes poked into my Tinker-Belt, they don’t fit.  What am I, the Incredibly Shrinking Woman?

It was slow, so I was released early, but it took me ’til my scheduled out-time to finish my sidework.  A quick stop at the corner store for a pack of smokes, a cup of coffee, and enough gas to make it home – and hopefully enough to get to Leitchfield tomorrow night for Back to School Night. There goes the day’s earnings, minus a few (very few) presidents to pay for a few necessities while we’re in town.

SMS: (Beep) Dog food. (Beep) Hair conditioner. (Beep) Body wash. (Beep) Toilet paper.

This is why I pay for unlimited text messages on our cell phones? *smirks*… mmmh hmmm. *nods*  It is. It’s exactly why.

As I drove home, I wondered about taking the kids shopping for school clothes.  I’ve managed to keep my bills paid so far, not counting that speeding ticket (DOH!) that’s due mid-month.  Everything hits between the first and third, though, so I have to be careful – and school starts on the fifth.  The goal is to take them shopping somewhere between the third and fifth – assuming there’s anything left after the bills are paid.  I also have a set of drums on layaway for Rhythm that need paid on… drums that match the guitar I surprised him with last week.

Thought about horses, next.  Since we can’t move and we’ve got plenty of property, and to balance out the fact that Big Brother is getting fancy guitars and schmancy drums, Stinkerbelle and I have been talking about how to make horses possible. I decided to sell my mom the piece of property her house is on… she’s been after me to sell it to her ever since I allowed her to put her mobile home there.  I’ve resisted until now (that wasn’t part of the deal!), and it’s been a sore spot between us, but since we’re staying put, it would make mom happy to own it and would give Stinkerbelle the funds needed for fencing and a structure.

Thought about aging, too.  I’m less than two weeks away from 36, and heaven help me, either the lighting in the break room bathroom is really, really bad (which it is! no, really!), or I may quite possibly have my first… (coughs) gray hair.  Nah… no way. Bad lighting it is.  No way!

When I got home, the kids met me at the door.

“How are you?”

“Glad to be home.”

“You gonna go work on your computer?”

“Nope… we’re gonna watch August Rush…. if you don’t mind seeing it again.  I’m ready… it’s time.”

I made my way to my bedroom, slipped out of Uniform and into my Tinkerbell pajammies… barefoot, hair down… the way I’m meant to be.  Ah… freedom.  And no need to set the alarm tomorrow morning as tomorrow there’s no apron, no hair clip, no tables to clear or trays to carry.

I grabbed my cup of coffee, a bowl of fruit cocktail mixed with mandarine oranges, flopped my ass on the sofa and my feet on the coffee table… and off I went into a wonderland of August Rush.

What a rush!

The kids were right… they know me well.  This may be one of my favorite movies of all time.

“Hey, Mom… didjya cry?”

I roll my eyes, “What do you think?”

They look at each other and simultaneously say, “She cried.”

If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend it.

Life is good.

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Peace of Mind

Peace of Mind

Ya think?
Card Meaning: Make peacefulness your highest priority. Commit to taking steps to ensure peace of mind, and take those steps without delay.
Description: Peace of mind isn’t something you have to earn or acquire, since your true self is already peaceful. Instead, it requires being like a sculptor with a block of marble, who works with this material until the inner masterpiece is revealed. If you’ll make peace of mind your main focus, you’ll inevitably feel a great sense of relief.
Steps that create peace of mind include being honest with yourself, living according to your inner guidance, being helpful and kind to others, practicing meditation or yoga, eating only healthful foods, avoiding toxins, maintaining healthy sleep habits, avoiding negative people and media, surrendering your problems to God, communing with nature, simplifying your life, and saying no when you need to.
Affirmation: My mind is now peaceful, and I know that all of my needs are automatically taken care of. I can rest easily, assured that all is well.
Source: Healing with the Fairies Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue, Ph. D.

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Ten of Wands

Ten of Wands

Well, here’s a repeat card from six days ago – not even a full week and the card surfaces to remind me I’ve not yet dealt with its issues.  I had a lot to say about it, apparently.  Ah… and re-reading what I wrote then, I can see why it’s still a present factor, especially in light of what I just wrote as my coffee thoughts. *smirks* –
Overworked, over-burdened, over-taxed, struggling….  *nods*
When I drew this card on the 22nd, the Fairy Oracle I drew with it was Beauty.  I’m curious to see which Fairy comes out to play today.  But, before I get too far ahead of myself, here are the referenced definitions for this card:

Here’s from Solitary Witch: Book of Shadows for the Next Generation by Silver Raven Wolf:

Overworked; carrying too many burdens; too many family or work responsibilities; feeling like a project will never end, but you are advised not to give up – the end is closer than you believe. Trying to hold on to outdated or outmoded situations. Trying to accumulate too much too fast.

And here’s from LearnTarot.com:

trying to do too much
refusing to say “no”
taking all the blame
assuming another’s debt
doing the lion’s share
having to work overtime
shouldering all the work
being saddled with an extra load
feeling burdened
never having time to relax
feeling tied to a treadmill
being taxed to the limit
assuming responsibility
being held accountable
carrying out an unpleasant duty
cleaning up a messy situation
being left holding the bag
fighting uphill
doing everything the hard way
experiencing resistance
pushing against the current
having to work for every gain
finding that nothing comes easily

On the Ten of Wands, we see a bent figure trying to carry ten heavy poles. They are ranged so closely in front of him that he can’t even see where he’s going. Nothing exists for this man except his burdens and responsibilities. How true this is for so many today! We take on so much, trying to do all the things that need to be done. We think that if we can hang on until the weekend (or vacation, or end of the semester) then we can finally relax. The weekend comes, and the overload continues.

In readings, the Ten of Wands can be a sign that you are pushing yourself too hard. If your days are an endless round of duties and tasks, then you need to lighten up for the sake of your health and well-being. Cut back, and take on only those activities that give you pleasure. If you love your work, but it’s all-consuming, you may be too narrowly focused in one area. Balance your life with other interests.

The Ten of Wands can also stand for times when you have to assume the lion’s share of responsibility. You may be blamed or left holding the bag. On the other hand, you may have to step forward and take charge because you are the only one capable enough. Rightly or wrongly, the cleanup will fall to you.

The Ten of Wands indicates that your life is going to be tougher than usual for a time. You will have to fight uphill for every little gain. Each step will feel like a struggle. When you see this card, be kind to yourself. Lighten the load wherever you can, and let others help you. You don’t have to handle everything yourself.

Finally, here’s a comparrison from Aeclectic Tarot:


As the aces were the pure, elemental spark of the suit, the tens are the element of the suit complete. Not as in the nines, which are physical completion, but in a transcendent fashion. It is the ultimate good or bad of that element.

Ten of Wands

A man carries ten heavy wands on his back. This is a card that says that the Querent has used up all the energy they started with at the ace. They don’t feel that creative, driving force any more. The image on this card implies that the Querent has complete control of all the many things he wanted control over. He is the leader, the boss. But this means that all the burdens are his as well. He’s trying to do everything, and it leaves him drained. Advise your Querent to delegate, to put down some burdens and find his energy again.

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It’s Monday, but it’s also my Friday.  Well, kinda.  I worked 11 hours yesterday, am scheduled for 9 today, then I have tomorrow off.  It’ll be a fairly busy one, but I’m still going to try to make time for a lazy hour or three.  Then back to work long days on Wednesday and Thursday, then off again on Friday.  I’m not a huge fan of my own schedule at the moment.

Tomorrow night is Back to School Night at the high school.  At long last, Stinkerbelle and Rhythm will be attending the same school.  This offers some relief, but could also present a few new conflicts.  She’s not going to like being watched over… not until he comes to her defense, anyway. They don’t start school until the 5th of August, but tomorrow night they’ll get their schedules, visit their classes, and meet their teachers.

Things are weird right now – and I’m guessing a lot of it has to do with the date.  Oh, not the 28th specifically, but the fact that it’s nearing the end of the month.  People tend to get… uhm… HOSTILE during the last week of the month. I don’t know if it has to do with all the bills they know are due on the first, or if it’s from running out of money before the end of the month, or if it’s some sort of cosmic/karmic thing.  But it’s there… it’s real… and it’s got hold of everybody.

Yesterday was one of those days at work where I had to fight to hold on to my own morals and values and not accidentally spill a drink in someone’s lap. I don’t necessarily mind being a server – and I’d like to think I’m pretty good at it.  I’m a nurturing soul and a care-taker, so I don’t mind at all bringing you drinks, keeping them filled, removing your dirty plates from the table and cleaning up after you… but for the love of Bat Man, do NOT snap your fingers at me.  Do not tap the edge of your glass while you roll your eyes when it’s plain to see that I’m in the middle of delivering an entire tray – a tray that’s both hot and heavy – to another table!  Do not get up from your table and come tug on my apron to get my attention when I’m taking an order at another table.  What are you thinking?  And get some common sense  — do not run my ass all over the restaraunt so you can have grape jelly, extra napkins, more free biscuits, change your mind on your drink, heat up the vegetables you let get cold while you were chomping on your meat… and then have the audacity to leave me three quarters, a dime, and a nickel as a tip on a $35.00 ticket!

I do not neglect my tables – and I check back with each one about every 3-4 minutes, so the idea of tapping a glass pisses me off.  Maybe if you didn’t suck down your ice tea like there’s no tomorrow, you wouldn’t be left with an empty glass.  Seriously… I can take drinks to a table and IMMEDIATELY take their order.  I start with person one, move to person two, on to person three, and by the time I get to person four, person one’s drink is empty and they’re looking at me like I’m inefficient.  Bite me. I have two arms and two legs… and cannot be in two places at once.  Slow down on the sweet tea, Bub.

Yesterday was just one of those days – and it didn’t stop in the dining room, but bled over into the kitchen – and worse yet, into the Manager’s office.  I do NOT need to hear a manager say to me that he feels as though his entire staff has swallowed a stupid pill.  I am not stupid.  I do not need to be told that your job is worse than babysitting toddlers.  If that’s how you think, you shouldn’t be in a management position in the first place – but at least be smart enough to keep thoughts like that to yourself. I doubt it would go over very well if my response to one of his comments was, “Yeah, I know what you mean… it’s like some of our managers came out of a cracker jack box.”  But no, I hold my tongue and bite my lip so I can continue to cling to that $2.28 per hour they’re having to fork over for my services.

I want. Bring me. Go get. — What ever happened to please and thank you? Yeah. It was one of those days.

The cooks were screaming and yelling, the managers were berating, the other servers were pushing and shoving, and the guests were rude, demanding, and cheap.  I worked eleven hours to make fifty dollars… and it cost me $20 in gas just to get there and back.

T had issues yesterday too – people all over were just confrontational.  He tried his best to handle it well, but it was clear his experiences affected his mood on a deep and grand scale.

So I’m up early, rip-roarin’ ready to go do it all again… clock in by 11 a.m., don’t clock out until after 8 p.m., then drive home to meet the demands of the house, the kids, and the dogs.  A quick trip to pay the water bill first, then dip in over at the bank for a deposit that’s much shorter than it should be…

Life is good… but people sure can suck sometimes.  I hope it was just a fluke, an odd day, and that it’ll all blow over.  Life is too short.  Use your manners, tip your servers, and remember to smile from time to time. Life is a blessing, not a curse.

Rant over.


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Today is:
July 27, 2008
(Uncle H’s Birthday)

*Harvest Day

Today’s Tarot: Six of Cups
Today’s Fairy Oracle: Family Harmony

Governed by the Sun – healing, spirituality, success, strength, protection

yellow, orange, gold, amber

The Moon:
4th quarter waning, void-of-course as of 11:52 p.m. last night, enters Gemini @ 10:55 a.m.

Waning Moon: Waning moon is when the moon appears to be shrinking in the sky, the last two weeks of the moon’s twenty-eight day cycle. Each night the light of the moon gets smaller and smaller until ultimately, the moon appears invisible and is completely out of sight. During this two weeks, it’s best for doing magickal workings to rid yourself of things, to cast away negative energies, or to break habits. If you want to keep your nails short, trim them during waning moon. Want to slow the growth of your hair? Cut it during waning moon. Want to end a certain relationship? Waning moon is best. Quit smoking? Lose weight? Waning moon lends its energies to these types of magickal workings.

Moon Void-of-Course: Just before the Moon enters a new sign, it will make one final aspect (angular relationship) to another planet. Between that last aspect and the entrance of the Moon into the next sign it is said to be void-of-course. Activities begun when the Moon is void-of-course rarely come to fruition, or they turn out very differently than planned. (source: Llewellyn’s Witches’ Datebook 2008 )

Moon in Gemini: Things begun now are easily changed by outside influence. Time for shortcuts, communication, games, and fun.  (source: Llewellyn’s Witches’ Datebook 2008 )

The Sun:
Leo – The Lion

Click here for a previous post outlining various sources explaining influences of Sun in Leo.

Today’s Horoscope for Leo:

This isn’t the time to go solo with your projects — teamwork is the best way to go.

Sit down with your family or coworkers and talk about the blue-sky stuff that doesn’t come up all that often. At least one person is sure to be surprised by how optimistic the rest of the group is.

Daily Extended
This is not the time to go solo with your projects. Teamwork is the best way to make good things happen in your life, now. There is real power in numbers, and it’s your task today to get together with as many other people as you can. Whether you join a group of people in order to get things done, travel to another country, or just sit around playing a board game, the crowd’s energy is where it’s at! One of the people you’ll be hooking up with today has something to teach you.

Daily Flirt:
You and your friends need to talk things over — you may be surprised to learn there’s a lot more going on between you than you’d ever have guessed. Once you all know what you want, getting it is easy.

Daily Couples:
Do something today that you’ve been been putting off; perhaps a task that your sweetie has been after you do to. Don’t say a word about it, just do it! You’ll feel great when you can cross it off your list.

Daily Singles:
Being indecisive on whether to accept an invitation could frustrate the host. Agree to attend only if you know for a fact you will be there. Otherwise, let the host know that you’re honored to be included but life is too chaotic to venture out.

(Source: http://shine.yahoo.com/astrology/)

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Family Harmony

Family Harmony

I drew this card previously on June 23, 2008.

Well, isn’t she right on time?  Just yesterday I wrote a short post about how it was time to go get my daughter – and, at last, have my children home.  Rhythm left first – and before he returned, Stinkerbelle left.  Rhythm came home while Stinkerbelle was still away – and, as of yesterday at 10:45 a.m., we were all reunited.

We talked about the relief we feel in knowing our long term potential.  No longer focusing on a move, we’re now focused on how to turn our house into a home we can all be proud of and comfortable in.  We talked about the new school year starting and what the goals and intentions are socially and academically this year. We went to lunch together after leaving the airport – and, as we do when we three are turned loose in the world unchaperoned, we laughed ourselves to tears and drew attention to ourselves.  Nothing is more fun than an all out giggle fit in a public place with those you love most!

Ran a few errands after lunch, including a trip to a pawn shop to put a set of drums on layaway for Rhythm – a set of drums that matches the guitar T and I surprised him with Friday night.  On the way home from that errand, we talked about how to make Stinkerbelle’s dream of owning horses a reality.  We have the land for it… we just need to build fencing, a stable, and work out the vet/ferrier/feeding details.  I’m going to sell my mom the piece of property she’s on, and can use the funds from that to have things set up for Stinkerbelle’s horse.

When we got home, Stinkerbelle set to unpacking and cleaning her room, Rhythm spent some creative time bonding with his new guitar, and I took a much needed nap.  Though I’d had every intention of doing one more tarot reading yesterday afternoon via email, my personal energy was drained.  As much as I’ve hated postponing, I’ve made peace with myself in deciding I’d do that reading on Tuesday, my next day off.  After my nap, the kids and I found our comfy spots in the living room together and watched Enchanted, a movie with which I was completely tickled.  Loved it!

I also had a few issues regarding my mother yesterday.  There are advantages to having her as my neighbor, but there are times when certain lines are crossed – and I have to find a way to tell her that without upsetting her.  Before we’d even gotten back to Bowling Green from the airport in Nashville, my mother rang Stinkerbelle’s cell phone to ask if Stinkerbelle would go over to her house to color her hair as soon as we got home.  Stinkerbelle agreed and hung up, and I lost my temper.  I cried, really – not of sadness, but of anger and frustration.  I hadn’t seen my daughter in three weeks – she hasn’t even unpacked her clothes, and my mother had no idea whether or not I’d had anything planned – and without asking me first, she just assumed she could take my daughter.  We’ve had that discussion before.  Mom likes to take Stinkerbelle every Saturday to go run errands.  Mom doesn’t like to be alone.  But, Saturdays are the only day off I have of the weekend when there’s no school and I can spend the day with the kids.  I don’t want Stinkerbelle gone every Saturday.  I discussed it with my mom, she respected it for about two Saturdays, then everything went back to the way it was… plans were made without ever consulting me.  I’m going to have to put my foot down if I want to stabilize my own family.  My mom needs to understand that this is my daughter, not her best friend.

So, here’s what the guidebook says:

Card Meaning: Your relationships with family members are healing. As you hold loving thoughts and feelings about the souls involved (including yourself), you experience genuine harmony in your family.

Description: Every person in your life is affected by your beliefs and expectations, including your family members. By drawing this card, you are counseled to hold positive and loving thoughts about anyone who seems to have irritated or hurt you. The more loving energy you send to each person, the more love will be redirected back to you.

Have patience — you are beginning to feel a great healing occurring in your family relationships. The fairies ask you to think of three reasons why you are grateful for each member of your family. If one person seems to particularly frustrate you, think of five reasons why that person is worthy of love. Send blessings and prayers to that person, and your relationship will show immediate signs of improvement.

Affirmation: I see the goodness within each member of my family. My family life is harmonious and filled with love and joy.

Source: Healing with the Fairies Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue, Ph. D.

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Six of Cups

Six of Cups

The six of cups suggests that it’s time to review patters and cycles – patterns and cycles that most likely were established early on in life. This card reminds me of a karmic loop.  When we find that we keep landing in the same place over and over, it’s easy to understand that we’re landing where we are because we’re following the exact same patterns and cycles.  If we want to land in a different place, we have to change the pattern, start a new cycle. 

Because the card is cups, we can associate it with emotions, planning, and spirituality – so the cycles and patterns are most likely connected to how/why we feel the way we do, how we handle our relationships, and our deeper, spiritual view of life or belief systems.

As it applies to me directly, one example of this card’s meaning could reflect the amount of time, energy, and effort I’ve put into romantic love and relationships – and why, in spite of my investments, the relationships I’ve had prior to now haven’t worked out.  There’s a pattern in it… is it that I’ve been choosing the same type of partners?  Have I been expecting too much from my relationships? Could I have a skewed understanding of how partnerships are meant to work?  Recent writings of mine would indicate that my core problem is that I had a complete misunderstanding of Love itself – and that I confused it with all sorts of other thoughts and feelings, including co-dependency, attention, sex, or other life circumstances/lessons that had nothing to do with true love. If I want this cycle of “lost love” and failed relationships to end, then I have to break the pattern and make sure that I’m giving and receiving genuine love with a partner with whom I’m well suited.

The six of cups also represents a possible mentor, teacher, or role model from the past – from early years, possibly childhood.  In the past, I’ve always viewed that possible mentor as a good teacher, a happy memory, or someone we’d choose to be like – but in this morning’s reflections, in relation to the example I’ve given of failed relationships, I can look back into the past and account for an ancestral trend.  My grandmother has been married seven times.  My mother has been married four times and had several long-term, live in relationships wherein she never got married.  My father has been married several times… and neither one of my parents are currently in relationships, nor do I recall either of them ever having a healthy relationship. The only examples I’ve had, aside from Aunt P and Uncle H who have been married as long as I’ve known them (nearly thirty years), are of failed relationships and of illusions of love vs. genuine love.

When we look at a number six, we see a big round belly, and an arm extending over the top.  The big round belly, to me, represents the earthy plane – reality as we know it, the “real” world, so to speak.  The arm extending beyond that is indicative of our ability to reach beyond the limitations of this reality, tap into a higher power – a Universal Wisdom -, grab a handful of that magick, and bring it down to earth.  It’s a number of trancendence – reaching beyond the obvious to grab hold of something more.  In this case, it could simply be the awareness of patterns and how to break them.

Let’s take a look at what the other sources say.

Here’s from Solitary Witch: Book of Shadows for the Next Generation by Silver Raven Wolf:

“Living in the past; not willing to let the past go; the study of history or geneology; a discovery about the past; meeting someone from your past; learning about a legacy; a gift from an admirer (usually supported by other cards), nostalgia; the possibility of a lover returning (again, look at surrounding cards). Actions of the past bear emotional fruit in the present; sentimental journey.”

Here’s from LearnTarot.com:

experiencing good will
acting kindly or charitably
doing a good turn for another
sharing what you have
having a noble impulse
receiving a gift
feeling blessed
being well-intentioned
enjoying innocence
feeling simple contentment
surrounding yourself with goodness
being blissfully unaware
having a clear conscience
shunning corruption
being acquitted
appreciating simple joys
focusing on childhood
being with a child or young person
feeling carefree
being taken care of
feeling nostalgic
indulging in play
enjoying youthful activities
having a baby

In the film Parenthood there is a scene in which all the members of a large family come together to witness a birth. As the camera moves from person to person, we see as if for the first time the uniqueness of each one. The people talk and laugh, but suddenly their actions seem anything but ordinary. There is a sweetness in the air that builds until we see its very embodiment – the new baby. This is the spirit of the Six of Cups.

It is a truism that there is violence, anger and mean-spiritedness in the world. Certainly there is enough of this, but there is also much good will and caring. A mother hands a drink to her child. A friend lends his car for the weekend. A worker fills in for a sick colleague. Small gestures, barely noticed, but so important. The Six of Cups is a card of simple goodness. It encourages you to be kind, generous and forgiving.

The Six of Cups also represents innocence – a word with many shades of meaning. You can be innocent in the strictly legal sense of lack of guilt. You can be innocent of the truth – unaware of some secret. You can be lacking in deceit or corruption – innocent of ulterior motive. Finally, you can be virtuous or chaste. These are all possibilities that can apply to the Six of Cups, depending on the situation.

Notice that the two figures on the Six of Cups appear to be children. Often this card represents a baby or young child. In a larger sense, it embraces all of childhood and the feelings we associate with youth (ideally!) – being carefree, playful, secure and loved. Children are our treasure, and the sweetness of the Six of Cups is a quality to be treasured as well.

And from Aeclectic Tarot:


Sixes are balance and harmony, especially after the upsets of the fives. These cards predict a solution, and not just any solution; there will be an exchange, a give and take that results in a new equilibrium. It may not last, but for that moment, everything is stable. With this card, there is an almost “Ah-HA!” of recognition, of understanding in the solution, and more than a little awe at the symmetry achieved by it.

If you connect the sixes to the Lovers card you’ll see how it works. The “love” aspect of the Lovers card is that of recognition and equilibrium. Like Gemini, you recognize your twin, your soul mate. Maybe you didn’t even know how uneven, how lopsided your life was, but now that you’ve met this person, you can feel the scales coming into balance. Here is harmony. Here is the solution.

Six of Cups

Two children among six flowering cups. There is a great deal of rich and complex symbolism in this card, but in a nutshell, it is a frozen moment of perfect balance, the boy and the girl both touching that one cup with the flower in it. I like to think of this as taking place in early spring, still cold enough for the girl to wear mittens, but warm enough for the first flowers to have blossomed. The girl, possibly accepting the flower, looks up and sees the boy, and he, perhaps giving the flower, sees her as well. Perhaps, on that cup, their hands touch for the first time. It is a charming moment of recognition, of puppy love. The meaning of this card refers to a moment of nostalgia, of something or someone from our past coming back into our life. Given an old photo, or an invitation to a school reunion, we get, in return, a memory of harmony. Perhaps we meet with a friend, relative or teacher we haven’t seen in years and the exchange of memories restores to us past love, past balance. We rediscover lost equilibrium and a solution that we could never have found in the present.

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Not much time to linger today. In fact, in about twenty-minutes, I’ll be leaving for Nashville.  Stinkerbelle comes home today. At last, we’ll all be together, nestled in back home, with all the recent chaos, turmoil, and … uhm… what’s the word… uncertainty… behind us.  All summer we’ve been wondering if or not we’re moving, where we might move to, what school the kids would attend this year, etc. – Finally, it’s all set that we are staying put right where we are, that they’ll go to the school they’re familiar with, and we can begin to restructure the house we have — and how we function within it. I’m so relieved that the kids’ vacations are over, that school’s about to start, and that there’s been some sort of stability being restored to our day to day lives.

Had a big day yesterday.  It being the only day off I could make available for others, I spent the entire day doing Tarot Readings.  I had five scheduled, most in different locations, and ended up doing one that wasn’t planned.  They all hit their mark, were all accurate,  and they were extremely healing – not only for the people I was reading for, but for myself as well.  Something happens to me internally on spiritual/metaphysical levels when I know Universal Wisdom is being transferred through me to those who need the guidance. I benefit greatly from the firm hugs I receive after a powerful reading, when I can see and feel how deeply people are affected by the experience. I’ve got one more to do via email, which I’m hoping to have accomplished by this evening.

I’ve a lot I want to say, a few experiences I’d like to share, but now really isn’t the best time.  Nashville is 2 hours away from here on a good day, and it’s raining, so I need to allow for a little extra time.  I’m sure I’ll nap when we get back ’cause I’m exhausted… and then there’s lots to be done this afternoon before I engage in tomorrow’s twelve hour work day.

I’ll be back around later when there’s more time and energy available. Right now, I’m gonna go get my baby and bring her home!

Life is good.

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