Coffee Thoughts & Daily Dose – June 25, 2008

I’m having Net connection issues this morning.  Not sure why… there don’t seem to be any clouds or other interference, but such is the way with my Satellite provider.  Maybe they’re doing internal work. *shrugs* – At any rate, I’m going to attempt to stick the entire morning into one post, minus pictures, because in addition to net connect issues, I’m also on a schedule this morning and don’t have time to piddle with “page cannot load” crap.

Yesterday was one of those days that quite thoroughlly kicked my ass up one side and down the other.  Being a Tuesday, waning in Pisces, it was easy to predict that there’d be tension and conflict with drama and high running emotions.  I thought I’d be able to protect myself from it just by knowing in advance what the day held, but in spite of my efforts (and the Tarot warnings of self-focus), I got sucked into the whirlwind along with everyone else.  I’m not proud of myself… the night ended with me in a fit of tears in the break room, crying to my daughter on the phone, having to rely on every ounce of internal strength and will power not to tell my manager to go fuck himself, walk out, and never go back again.  Yeah… one of those days.

I just wrote three lengthy paragraphs about my night at work last night and what led to my break-down, but then deleted them.  Not a good idea to write about work in a blog that uses your real name. *grins* –

Stopped by T’s on the way home.  He fixed me a bowl of soup and we watched a few episodes of The Simpsons before I made the journey home.  Of course, when I got there, his Animal Medicine Wheel cards were on the table… and I never can resist.  I drew the Frog – cleansing… Have a good cry! *LOL* – I’d say!

Doing my best to shake off my woes this morning, but I think the four of cups from yesterday’s draw is still lingering. It’s hard not to self-focus and be subject to depressed feelings when life’s demands are bigger than you are.  I’m doing the best I can… and I feel like an utter failure at work while things at home are more of a struggle than they have been since my Tulsa days.  Maybe this weekend’s getaway will ease some of my mental fog.

Here are today’s correspondences:

Today’s Fairy Oracle: Follow Your Dreams (Inverted)
This card can be taken two ways, so it’ll be interesting to see which Tarot comes up with it. Follow your dreams can be literal, as in night dreams. Dreams speak to us in a unique language of symbols, colors, numbers, and reflections of various sorts. If we pay attention to our dreams, they can offer us guidance, comfort, help us make the right choices, relieve stress, and even be prophetic (heads up!). On the other hand, this card may be pointing to personal goals and what we’d really like to be doing with our lives. When you were a kid, what did you dream of being when you grew up? Me? I wanted to be a country music singer when I was between the ages of five and ten. Between the ages of ten and fifteen, I wanted to be a journalist. From age fifteen through current day, the dream has been to establish myself as a professional writer. There’s also the dream of opening my own magick shop. This card, however, may also envelope both of those meanings at once. In any case, I’m being encouraged to pay attention to my dreams – nocturnal and spiritual, and to follow those dreams where they lead.

Today’s Tarot: Five of Cups
Yeah, this got an audible snort out of me! *LOL* – Five of cups follows four of cups, which I drew yesterday. This card shows a man cloaked, trying to make himself invisible to the world. He’s completely within himself and isolating from everything else because of his spilled emotions. He’s distraught over those things that haven’t worked out the way he’d envisioned, in spite of his efforts. Failed relationships, jobs gone wrong, financial woes, spiritual loss… and he’s so focused on the cups that are tipped, and so “wrapped up” in the pain of his reflections that he’s unwilling to notice the cups remaining un-tipped. It’s a five, which shows that the person in this card is spiritually starved, the soul is dehydrated – and he’s been trying to fill that “hunger” with outside influences. He’s closed himself off to the Universal wisdom he so desperately needs because he’s lost faith. The message, long story short, is to take the focus OFF of what’s gone wrong, focus on the possibilities still waiting to manifest, and stop trying to be invisible.

Yeah… I can see where that applies to me today. I’m not proud of it, I will work to correct it – but I can certainly see why I drew it.

Today is:
June 25, 2008

*Planting Day
(Perhaps today is my day for planting seeds of hope since I seem to be needing to redirect my energies to more positive possibilities)

Wednesday:
Governed by Mercury – study, travel, divination, wisdom

Colors:
yellow, brown, white, topaz

The Moon:
Third quarter waning in Pisces, void-of-course @ 9:16 p.m. U.S. Central, enters Aries @ 9:49 p.m.

Waning Moon: From Full Moon to New Moon is a time for study, meditation, and magical work designed to banish harmful energies.

Moon in Pisces: The focus is on dreaming, nostalgia, intuition, and psychic pmpressions. A good time for spiritual or philanthropic activities.

Moon Void-of-Course: Just before the Moon enters a new sign, it will make one final aspect (angular relationship) to another planet. Between that last aspect and the entrance of the Moon into the next sign it is said to be void-of-course. Activities begun when the Moon is void-of-course rarely come to fruition, or they turn out very differently than planned.

Moon in Aries: Good time for starting things. Things occur rapidly, but quickly pass. People tend to be argumentative and assertive.

The Sun:
Cancer, The Crab

And with that, the net finally quit loading my pages, and I’m out of time, so I skip the Cancer description and horoscopes for this morning.

Time to shake it off… there’s no restaraunt business today, so my stress levels should go way, way down. Instead, I’ll be cleaning house for someone else, earning a bit of extra $$$, hanging out with my daughter and spending time with T. See? I’m feeling better already…. *smirks*

In spite of myself, Life is good!

W